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No this is not the wrong blog I fucked up with a friend and this is the only blog I have that they don't follow.

I was making fun of a character in a discord server and way over exaggerating, like I usually do because I think it's funnier if I exaggerate. I was saying some real nasty stuff because as far as I know this character is not real.

Turns out one of my friends who is in the discord server where I was making fun of this character (this friend is plural) has an introject of this character who I was also friends with without knowing.

So now everything I was saying about this character is suddenly about one of my friends and I feel really really bad. I even made a joke that estrogen couldn't even save him (as I am a lesbian and not generally attracted to men) and this friend is trans masc. Yeah some real fucked up shit.

The situation is resolved and I apologized, and it appears my friend at least has somewhat forgiven me and he even said he doesn't hate me. But I still feel really bad and I just need to rant into the void about it.

I always mess up relationships like this.

No this is not the wrong blog I fucked up with a friend and this is the only blog I have that they don't follow.

I was making fun of a character in a discord server and way over exaggerating, like I usually do because I think it's funnier if I exaggerate. I was saying some real nasty stuff because as far as I know this character is not real.

Turns out one of my friends who is in the discord server where I was making fun of this character (this friend is plural) has an introject of this character who I was also friends with without knowing.

So now everything I was saying about this character is suddenly about one of my friends and I feel really really bad. I even made a joke that estrogen couldn't even save him (as I am a lesbian and not generally attracted to men) and this friend is trans masc. Yeah some real fucked up shit.

The situation is resolved and I apologized, and it appears my friend at least has somewhat forgiven me and he even said he doesn't hate me. But I still feel really bad and I just need to rant into the void about it.

I always mess up relationships like this.

No this is not the wrong blog I fucked up with a friend and this is the only blog I have that they don't follow.

I was making fun of a character in a discord server and way over exaggerating, like I usually do because I think it's funnier if I exaggerate. I was saying some real nasty stuff because as far as I know this character is not real.

Turns out one of my friends who is in the discord server where I was making fun of this character (this friend is plural) has an introject of this character who I was also friends with without knowing.

So now everything I was saying about this character is suddenly about one of my friends and I feel really really bad. I even made a joke that estrogen couldn't even save him (as I am a lesbian and not generally attracted to men) and this friend is trans masc. Yeah some real fucked up shit.

The situation is resolved and I apologized, and it appears my friend at least has somewhat forgiven me and he even said he doesn't hate me. But I still feel really bad and I just need to rant into the void about it.

I always mess up relationships like this.

This is because as a beginner, you have troubles because you don't have much knowledge.

But then you learn a bunch more, and now you've got the skills to do a bunch of stuff, so you run into a lot of problems because you're doing so much stuff, and only an expert could figure them out.

But then one day you are an expert. You can reprogram everything and build new hardware! You understand all the various layers of tech!

And your problems are now legendary. You are trying things no one else has ever tried. You Google them and get zero results, or at best one forum post from 1997. You discover bugs in the silicon of obscure processors. You crash your compiler. Your software gets cited in academic papers because you accidently discovered a new mathematical proof while trying to remote control a vibrator. You can't use the wifi on your main laptop because you wrote your own uefi implementation and Intel has a bug in their firmware that they haven't fixed yet, no matter how much you email them. You post on mastodon about your technical issue and the most common replies are names of psychiatric medications. You have written your own OS but there arent many programs for it because no one else understands how they have to write apps as a small federation of coroutine-based microservices. You ask for help and get Pagliacci'd, constantly.