i mostly write for acotar (username letstrytoohard, mainly gwynriel/elucien for now) but i gain a new interest like every week. always down to freak out and bond over anime, d&d, books, really any type of media (or nature, or science, or theory. i like to learn new shit!)
anywaysssss here's my masterlist under the cut!
divider creds to the very talented @olenvasynyt
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In Gwyn We Trust - rated g, chapters 2/2; During their monthly Bat Boy Night Az gets drunk and can't shut up about Gwyn. Extreme simping and fluff ensues.
Blackmail and Bribery - rated e, oneshot; Gwyn lets herself into Az's house, ready to use whatever means necessary to convince him to be part of their group costume and instead she finds Ghostface Az (he doesn't stayed masked for long).
Little Girl Gone - rated g, oneshot; Post Blood Rite, the Valkyries agree to spar in Windhaven to cement their ranks as warriors and generals over the Illyrian legions. Azriel watches as Gwyn goes head to head with a huge warrior.
She Calls Me Back - rated e, chapters 17/17; After their initial meeting goes south, Azriel and Gwyn agree to fake date for appearances. They couldn't be more different, but they have more in common than they realize.
I am No Man - rated t, oneshot; In the battle with Koschei, Azriel has been fatally wounded, and is prepared to die. Gwyn, however, is not about to let this happen. It's Lord of the Rings meets Gwynriel, where our bloody Valkyrie protects her injured mate.
There's A Blade Where Your Heart Is - rated e, chapters 3/?; Azriel is hunting humans after a shipwreck, and as he attempts to claim his lovely prize, she stabs him in the shoulder. This chance encounter sends him spinning out, pushing the boundaries of what he's willing to do to get close to her. The only thing he canât give her is his heart.
Two Truths - rated g, chapters 3/3; Almost a year after their first late-night training lesson, Azriel and Gwyn are closer than ever. Will one of them finally act on the feelings brewing between them?
Weak When You're Around - unrated, oneshot (for now?); Gwyn has been training in secret to become a knight, and finally enters a tourney to test her skills. What was supposed to be a low-level competition ends with her being hired on the spot by Prince Azriel of the Night Kingdom. He needs a new personal knight and bodyguard, and he thinks this mysterious knight is the perfect man for the job.
Final Girls - rated e, oneshot; Gwyn, Nesta, and Emerie set out to win a costume contest at their favorite bar. Due to (orchestrated) circumstances they are now in a group couples costume with Azriel, Cassian, and Mor.
I'm Looking, Respectfully - rated t, oneshot; The Valkyries end up at Feyre's charity car wash and some jaws end up on the floor.
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It's Warmer (In Your Arms) - rated e, chapters 3/3; Elain has been visited in her dreams by a vampire who claims he is her mate. He can't be real. But is he?
jade green - rated e, chapters 5/5; Elain decides to leave her shitty husband, and Feyre sends an old friend to drive her the three days back home. Unfortunately for Elain, this old friend happens to be her least favorite person, Lucien Vanserra.
sunshine, baby - rated e, chapters 3/3; Lucien wakes up after a night out in Vegas with a ring on his finger and Elain Archeron in his bed. This is his dream come true, until it's not.
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Sometimes, fanfiction is carefully plotted out stories, with plot points and call backs and themes that all tie it up in a meaningful and exciting way.
And sometimes fanfiction is, âWatch me do a fucking KICK FLIP off this cool sentence!! Also here's some sex'
"why do you want to gossip with the girls?" why do i want to learn from the poets, the writers, the thinkers, the scientists, the mathematicians, the intuitive, and the philosophers? is that what you're asking me?
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Summary: To save the people she loves, there is nothing Feyre wouldn't do.
For @ablogofsapphicpanic, the best DM a girl can ask for, even if she refuses to let me sleep with the Devils we encounter
Note: I've borrowed all the character classes from @ablogofsapphicpanic, who has done incredible, thoughtful work putting together which DND class would belong to which ACOTAR Character.
Feyre Archeron
Tamlin
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Feyre stared at the damp, stone wall before her and the riddle etched in a neat hand. Her torch wavered as her lips formed the words sheâd only learned to read about five years earlier.Â
â...for though each of my strikes land a powerful blow,
  When I kill, I do it slowâŚâ
Feyre didnât understand how adventurers did itâall these stupid puzzles, these tests of agilityâŚthe monster that was absolutely lurking just behind that dark door. Feyre adjusted her bow and read the riddle again. All she could think about was Tamlin, herâŚwhatever he was. Not her partner, but not her enemy either.Â
Sheâd ended things, but heâd forced her hand. That was the part that made her bitter. She hadnât wanted to leave him, but what choice had he offered in return? Heâd taken to following her around the village, using his wealth to pay people to spy on her, just so he could confront her later in the evening.
âLove,â Feyre said after a long, silent moment, âthe answer is love.â
The answer could have been anythingâshe was just guessing. But the door began to slide loudly into the wall, dragging with it a waterfall of dust and debris. Feyre didnât care if it coated her already dirty hair, stepping forward with a small dagger in hand.
This time, there wasnât a Beholder waiting to devour her, and nothing was hidden inside the waiting maw of a Mimic. There was simply the book, left abandoned on an obvious trapped plate that she quickly disarmed.
The final book. Feyre ran a finger over the leather bound book, dyed purple and almost certainly made of demon skin. It was, after all, the missing book in Tashaâs Demonomicon. The last book sheâd written before the series was stolen by some vainglorious wizard hoping to reach new heights.
Feyre would have bet the limited gold jangling in her pocket that the wizard was being slowly devoured in Nessus, though it was equally as possible he now sat among the ever expanding pantheon of deities.Â
It didnât matterâFeyre had what she needed and a clear path out of the dungeon. She tucked the heavy book into her knapsack and made her way back out the way she came, this time stepping over the littered corpses of those who tried to stop her.Â
This was the book she was missing, the tome that would finally allow her to piece together the knowledge she needed in order to save her family. Feyre didnât dare open the book out in the open wilderness as she traveled back to her village. Even carrying it was a riskâanyone clever enough might recognize the magical signature and come looking for her. Magic that big, that powerful, almost always left some kind of trace.
She didnât sleep for three days while she traveled. She rested, sure, mostly because her horse required it and driving the only working animal her family had left into the ground was a horrible proposition. If Nesta wasnât so sickâŚ
Well, Feyre wouldnât have needed the horse at all.
Feyre made it to her village just before dusk on the third evening. Her bag seemed to have gotten heavier over the journey, a fact she was doing her best not to think about.Â
The streets were mostly empty by then, save for a few stragglers looking to spend the day's coin in the local tavern. She could hear music coming from the closed doors and every window was lit up with candles of varying heights.
The modest houses in the village center were darker. Curtains were drawn, though windows were also left open so a breeze could filter in. Her house, far in the distance, was similar. It was one room, with a sagging thatched roof and windows that were framed by uneven shutters. It had belonged to her mother when sheâd been a child, and for years had been a little cottage they rented out for a few silver pieces every month.
Now they lived there.Â
Feyre took a breath of crisp air, adjusted the heavy strap on her shoulder, and pushed her way inside. It reeked of death. Her older sister, Elain, rose from her spot in front of the fireplace with glassy eyes. Sheâd been working on needlepoint poorly, though Feyre couldnât say her stitches would be any neater. âMotherââ
âWhere is Nesta?â Feyre interrupted. She hadnât admitted before that moment that sheâd gone looking for the book solely for Nesta. Feyre had no intention of trying to save her mothers life. It wasnât that she didnât love her parents, it was more that they didnât seem to love her. Or any of them, really. Sure, their father doted on Elain but that had stopped being cute by the time Elain turned nine.Â
Their mother was mean. She hit Nesta, she only spoke to Elain in terms of husbands and men, and she had nothing kind to say to Feyre, ever. Too lanky, too freckly, too this, too that. Too ugly. If only youâd been born a boy.
Elain hesitated, brown eyes illuminating the weak firelight. What choice would Elain make if she could only save one? Nesta was only as sick as she was because sheâd been forced to care for their mother. Even their father refused to go inside once the flesh rot set in. Only Nesta had, and sheâd done it out of duty.
Feyre did this out of love, though Nesta wouldnât understand when it was all over.Â
Elain exhaled softly, the only voice she was willing to give her relief. âAlive, but weak.â
âIâm going out back. PleaseâŚno matter whatâŚstay in the house.â
Elain nodded, biting her lower lip. âI wonât.â
Feyre pried open the floorboards for her other three tomes and gathered them in her arms. âWhereâs father?â
âThe tavern,â Elain murmured, eyes cast downward with shame. Feyre wanted to rage, wanted to throw her books at the wall and scream. For all the good it would do. Heâd still be there, reasoning to himself that he wasnât going to spend all their gold. Just a little. Just a pint here, a pint there, and heâd return with almost nothing and expect Elain to figure out how to make do for them all.
Feyre would be back in the woods by the evening desperately trying to hunt a week's worth of meals. This wasnât going to fix any of thatâŚbut Feyre had enough to bargain for Nestaâs life.Â
She went deeper in the woods than she ever had in the dark, settling near an open grove of trees. There were several mushroom circles scattered along the path and Feyre didnât doubt for a second that the fey knew what she had and what she intended to do.
It was foolish to think theyâd aid her. If she stepped wrong, theyâd drag her into the feywilds and steal her books before finishing her, too. Ferye was careful when she found a large enough clearing to work. She opened the first three books, each tabbed to the section on Asmodeus. The Supreme Master of the Nine Hells. The Great Devil. The Lord of Lies.Â
Feyre didnât know if the final tome would help her reach himâshe knew he wasnât trapped in the books like so many other demons and devils were. There was a rumor that Tasha had spoken with himâenough to learn how to call upon him multiple times. Feyre needed that knowledge in order to call upon him herself.
She needed the supreme lord of the devils. No one else would do. She couldnât trust a lesser demon or devil to keep their word, and believed theyâd be too tempted by the feast of desperate souls living in her home. Elain was so easily persuaded that she was easily preyed upon.Â
With nothing but a candle, Feyre sat propped against a tree and began flipping through the fourth book. So many demons were trapped inside, their visages filled with pure hatred. Feyre skimmed some of the details about themâdemons of pestilence, of lust, of horror. They were far more frightening than the ones trapped in the other books, and Feyre supposed it was because of how much the witch Tasha had learned as sheâd begun to write.Â
In the back of the book, she found near perfect transcriptions of the conversations between Tasha and Asmodeus. The witch had summoned him for information on the nineâhow they might be defeated, their weaknesses, their usefulness to the cosmos themselves.
Asmodeus didnât answer the way Feyre would have liked. His answers were buried in layers and layers of double speak, which had irritated Tasha, too. Feyre told herself she didnât need to have a conversation with himâshe just needed to lay the bargain at his feet and let him decide.
And Tasha, for all her care, had written how to call upon him. That was all Feyre needed. She pulled out the salt, stolen from the same tavern her father was currently occupying, and began to draw her circle. It would trap the Lord of Lies within itâor, it would trap a devil, anyway. It might not be powerful enough to contain him. Perhaps Nesta could have managed, given her own magical strength, but Feyre was merely a ranger. Her circle was a little lumpy and not quite circular, but it was good enough.
A skull from one of her recent kills sat in the northern most part of the circle. At the bottom, Ferye used her own dagger to slice open her palm, letting blood stain the white salt and green grass. The moon was high above her, luminous and still too dim to be helpful. She only had to speak the words, broken and jagged in her mouth. She didnât know how to speak infernal, and Tasha hadnât provided a pronunciation guide.
So Feyre made four attempts before she smelled the brimstone and sulfur emanating from the trees. She felt a crackle of electricity on her fingertips, the air surging with magic. And thenâŚthere he was.
âI warned you, TaâŚshaâŚâ The Archdevil turned a full circle before his violet eyes landed on her. He didnât move for a moment, giving Feyre a chance to take him in. He was just as tall and imposing as sheâd expected, though he looked more mortal than devil. His hair was neatly styled and as dark as the sky around them. He wore a well tailored tunic, embroidered with silver thread against the inky blue.
It was only then that Feyre realized his wings were merely tucked against his back. Two curling horns jutted from his forehead, larger than any sheâd ever seen before.
He cocked his head to the side, clearly studying her just as closely as she studied him. âI was expecting the witch.â
âSorry to disappoint you,â Feyre replied with more bravado than she felt.Â
âFoolish mortal,â he said with a deep, sensual chuckle. âDo you know who youâve summoned this eve?â
âThe Lord of Lies, I hope,â she replied. Surely it must beâthe stories of his beauty were only matched by the stories of his cruelty. âAsmodeus.â
âThatâs one name,â he agreed, sliding his hands into his pockets. âDo you know any others?â
Feyre looked down at her feet. She didâŚbut she was keeping that a secret just in case she needed to force him to do her bidding.Â
âI have a bargain for you,â she said instead, waiting a beat before she dared to look up at him again. Heâd moved from the center of her lopsided circle to the very edge, his shiny boot pressed against her skull.Â
âOh? I canât resist a good bargain. Tell me your terms, and I will tell you mine.â
Feyreâs heart picked up. He already knew what he wanted? He hadnât even heard her tell him what she could offer.
âI want you to save my sister's life,â she began, the words tumbling out of her mouth in a rush.Â
He waited a moment. âAndâŚwhat else? Thereâs always something else.â
âThatâs it. Thatâs all I want. My sisters life.â
âAnd what would you offer me?â he pressed, nudging the skull with his toe.Â
Feyre reached into her pocket and pulled out a tiny shard of stone, jagged at every edge. The devil in front of her suddenly went still.
âWhere did you find that, little mortal?â
âSave my sisterâs life and Iâll give it to you freely.â
His eyes were so dark they might have been the very darkness around her. Feyre had a shard of night. In truth, sheâd stumbled on it by accident when looking for the first of Tashaâs Demonomicon, and hadnât known what it was. Nesta had been the one to tell her it was from the famed cities of Netheril and imbued with netherese magic. Feyre could have sold it for goldâif sheâd known where to sell it, and who might want to buy itâbut once she found the Demonomicon, sheâd decided it was better used for bargaining.
What could a devil do with some of the magic of Netheril? That was none of her business, truly. It was clear he wanted it, and she had it.Â
Asmodeus stepped on her skull, crunching bone loudly beneath his boot as he walked out of her circle. Sheâd suspected he might be able to be.
âMortals never ask so selflessly. Tell me what it is you truly want,â he crooned, keeping about six feet of distance between them. âA love returned? Wealth beyond reckoning? Tell me.â
His voice was irresistible to her for a moment. Feyreâs lips parted, almost unwillingly, and she felt the words rise in her throat. Fix her fatherâs failed business so they didnât have to live in squalor. Make Tamlin a better man so she could love him.
His brow furrowed, head shaking. Feyre pulled back some of the charm fading into dislike. âDonât do that.â
âThere is nothing that might tempt you?â
âMy sister's life,â Feyre said forcefully stepping closer, âfor the shard of night. Yes or no?â
A smile lit up his face. âNo, I donât think I care for your bargain.â
Despair filled Feyreâs chest. She turned her back to the Archdevil so he would see her hastily wipe away tears. Sheâd been so sure heâd agree that it hadnât occurred to her what she might do if he said no.Â
She felt his warm fingers lay gently on her shoulders, each one laid slowly, one after another. âI could be tempted to help.â
âName your price,â she said, hating the way her voice shook. She nearly admitted that there was no price to steep, nothing she wouldnât give away, nothing she wouldnât agree to. Maybe he knew it instinctively the way creatures like him seemed to. She was desperate, he was all but a god. She turned to face him, wishing heâd pick an aspect that wasnât so handsome.
âIn exchange for your sisters life, I want your name so I can call upon you again.â
âFor what purpose?â Feyre asked, knowing damn well sheâd give it to him anyway.
âMy reasons are my own. Now, turn around and tell me what to call you.â
She couldnât resist. Feyre, ever impulsive, blurted out, âI know your true name already. I could make you.â
A soft, almost comforting laugh escaped him. âOh? And what would you make me do, little mortal?â
âSave my sister,â she pleaded, before whispering, âplease.â
âYour name,â he replied, hooking his finger under her chin so she was forced to look at him. âPlease.â
There was the strangest note of desperation in his voiceâFeyre was certain she was imagining it. âFeyre. My name is Feyre.â
âFey-ruh,â he replied, testing out the syllables on his tongue. âAn old name. However did your mother choose it?â
Feyre didnât know, so she shrugged.
âGo, Feyre darling,â he murmured, nodding toward the thinning treeline far out of view. Feyre didnât look back, didnât stop to gather up her books. She took off running, needing proof that the devil had lived up to his promise. She didnât care about him at all. Nesta was a person, was her sister, and Feyre wasnât going to let her parents selfishness take that from her, too. Even if she and Nesta didnât always get along, even if they were mean. It wasnât lost on Feyre that the Archdevil of the nine hells now possessed her name, and who knew what kind of magic that came with.
Sheâd worry about it later.
Feyre burst into the house where Elain waited, hands twisting over and over. âMother is dead,â she said, tears falling down her cheeks. Feyre waited for despair to overtake her, but she only had one question.
âAnd Nesta?â
âHer fever broke,â Elain managed, the words coming out high pitched and wet.Â
âWellâŚâ Feyre whispered, her glee getting the better of her. Mother was dead and father was at the tavern pissing away their gold, but Nesta was turning the corner. She exhaled, swearing she could smell brimstone and fireâŚand something else. Something colder, like salt air and citrus.Â
Feyre couldnât help the laugh that escaped her.Â
âEverything is going to be okay,â she said.
And Ferye believed it.Â
In the days that followed, Nestaâs strength returned. She was well enough to sit beneath a large oak tree while they buried their mother. If Nesta grieved, she didnât show it outwardly. Elain and their father wept, but Nesta and Feyre remained stone faced and unmoved.
There was something different about Nesta. Her eyes, always an unnerving shade of pale blue, were brighter than theyâd ever been. Sometimes they seemed to shift like magic, turning from blue to silver and back again before Feyre could fully register the change.Â
âWhat did you do?â Nesta once whispered to Feyre as they passed one another outside. Fingers brushing, Feyre wondered if Nesta didnât already know.
âWhat I had to do,â Feyre replied resolutely.Â
Feyre finally dared to return to the site of her ritual when the moon was set to return. It occurred to her that sheâd left four powerful books on demonology just laying about for anyone to find. Dread filled every step as she walked, hands balled to fists at her side. She wasnât surprised to find him waiting in the clearing.
The books were gone, as was the salt, and any trace sheâd ever been there before. His eyes were almost hungry when they fell upon herâtwo violet specks against the darkness of his sclera and the night itself.
âI was starting to think youâd never return,â he said in that rich, suggestive voice of his. It made her want to apologize.
âI came for my books,â she forced herself to say.Â
âNo need,â he replied, gesturing at the pristine grass. âI took care of the fey, too.â
âWhat a gentleman,â Feyre replied with an eyeroll. âYouâve thought of everything, which means you donât need meââ
âFeyre,â he breathed, interrupting her dismissal. It wasnât a command, carried no magic and yet that note of desperation was back. It was enough to convince her to hesitate.
âHave you been waiting for me?â
âWhat if I was?â
âThat seems foolish given Iâm just a mortal and youâŚâ you might be a god.
Not to mention that he was a devil. She needed to get as far away from him as she could, pledge her support to a good aligned god, and pray they could keep her from Asmodeus.
âYou claim to know my name. Say it,â he ordered, the command laced with magic. Feyre couldnât have resisted if she wanted, and she didnât want to resist him at all. Not with this, anyway. She might be the only mortal in the realm who knew his true name.
âRhysand,â she murmured. His name, before his fall from grace, written down and forgotten in a dungeon sheâd plundered in her desperate quest to find him.Â
His eyes fluttered closed just as his massive, leathery wings flared outward. Feyre stumbled back a step, nearly falling to the grass. He was terrifying. Horrifying.
Beautiful, too.Â
âNo one has spoken my name in ages,â he told her, opening his eyes slowly again. âHow did you learn it?â
Feyre only shook her head. She wasnât going to tell him.
âDo you understand the power you possess? An Archdevil at your feet, unable to resist doing your bidding.â
âI just want things to go back to normal,â she admitted. He advanced on her, keeping barely any distance between them at all.
âWhy would you want that?â he demanded harshly. His eyes, once as placid as the stars above, ignited with unmistakable hellfire. âWhy would you want to live this life?â
âIt's mine?â she asked, her voice small.Â
âThe woman who traversed the land for all of Tashaâs books on demonsâŚwho discovered my nameâŚthe shard of nightâŚwants to live in squalor?â he asked, eyes blazing as they held her own.
âIâŚâ her breath caught in her throat.
âI could give you riches,â he began, his voice seductive all over again, âpower beyond your wildest imaginings, magic that would make Mystra herself weep. Everyone has a priceâname yours.â
âAnd youâll leave?â
âYes,â he agreed. Feyre didnât want whatever it was he was offering. It would all come with strings, would ruin her life somehow, and in the end sheâd have nothing but misery to show for it until he came to claim her soul. Sheâd made a mistake telling him she knew his name, and a bigger mistake admitting she knew it at all. Better to end this quickly and hope he forgot about her entirely.
Mortals were short lived, and she was only human. Her race didnât live much longer than a hundred years unless they enhanced themselves magically, which Feyre had no intention of doing. One life was enough, she reasoned.Â
âA kiss,â she heard herself say. Even Rhysand, Archdevil supreme, seemed taken aback by the request. âOn the cheek.â
âA kiss wherever I wish it,â he interrupted, waving his hand dismissively. âNo one has everâŚâ
âYes, it's a month of surprises,â she grumbled, turning her face to present him with her cheek. Best to just get it over with. Maybe that would end whatever strange fascination he had with her. Had he never experienced love? Did he not understand the lengths someone would go to in order to protect the people they loved?
He pressed his mouth to her skin, a chaste kiss by all measures. Feyre waited until he pulled back to look at him, unaware that Rhysand had no intention of upholding his end of the cheek kiss. Feyre opened her mouth to ask if he was over it now only for him to lean down a second time, capturing her mouth with his own.
Her palms flew to his chest to shove him backwards. He caught her wrists quickly, holding them between long fingers tipped with sharp claws. His mouth was warm, physically, but the taste of him was chillyâlike the cold run. Feyre could have pulled back if sheâd wanted to.
But maybe some small, wicked part of her liked that this devil was a little taken with her. That there was something about her he found fascinating. Men had liked her before, and Feyre was no novice when it came to their attention. But this was hardly a man, even if he appeared so. He was older than time itself, had more power than Feyre could have dreamt of. There was something intoxicating about that.
So she kissed him back. What did it matter, in the grand scheme of things? One day sheâd be eighty and heâd have forgotten about herâsheâd be able to tell her grandchildren that for a moment, an Archdevil had been taken with her.Â
For whatever that said about her.Â
Rhysand deepened the kiss, loosening his hold until both wrists were held in one large hand, the other cupping the back of her head. There was nothing erotic about it, save for the way his body pressed itself up against hersâŚand the way his tongue carefully flicked against her own.
Feyre sighed, arousal flooding through her. It was just biology, she lied to herself. Just the feeling of his hands on her body that made her feel this way. It could have been Tamlinâs hands. It could have been anyone's.Â
âAnother bargain,â he whispered, forehead pressed against her own. She could feel the grooves of his horns pressed against delicate skin, a reminder that there was no softness he could offer her.Â
âI think thatâs a bad idea,â she replied, though it wasnât a no, either. He knew it.
âA night with me in Nessus, and I will grant you anything you want,â he replied.
âThatâs a foolish bargain. What if I want you to die?â she asked.
He didnât bother opening his eyes. âYou donât.â
âYou donât know that,â Feyre murmured. She held his stare, not to prove anything, but to let him peer a little deeper into her soul. To see the things sheâd done that she wasnât sorry forâŚand the things she might do without a moment's hesitation.Â
She could have chosen her mother. Any good daughter would have. Nesta had never been kind to Feyre and wasnât likely to improve just because Feyre had gone to so much trouble. If Nesta ever learned at all. And yet, the choice had been automatic. Easy.Â
Nesta understood Feyre much like a looking glass. There was no hiding from Nestaâs gaze, no lying in their shared reflection. Whatever Feyre was, Nesta had been longer. It was, perhaps, why Nesta felt so protective of Elain and so dismissive of Feyre.Â
Of course youâre clever, of course youâre capable. We are alike.Â
But that would be only a half-truth weighted in the devil's sight. Feyre hated her mother, too. Hated her for her apathy, her cruelty, her greed. Everything could collapse around her and what did she care? Their neglectful father who doted only on his mirror image and wife had no interest in telling his wife no. And she took no accountability for any of it, whining and crying and spending.Â
Nesta had watched it all, punishing and disgusted in her silence. But Feyre, as she always did, begged. On her knees before creditors beating her father while her mother wept and cowed behind her eldest daughter. On her knees again, begging her mother to stop spending their gold, they were going to starve, to begging her mother to just do something.
Did her mother regret any of it, in her final rattling moments? Feyre took a moment of sick pleasure to hope she had. Mothers did not need to love their daughters unconditionally, let alone love them at all. Daughters, however, were duty bound in their very bones to love their mothers. Especially when they had a cruel sister.
But Feyre needed her mother to pay for all the ways sheâd hurt Feyre, no matter how selfish it was. The choice was layered and tangled and still, impossibly simple.Â
He looked away, eyes drifting to something just beyond her shoulder. Whatever interest she held to him was multiplied in herself right then. Feyre hadnât stopped, truly, to consider why heâd want to see her twice. It seemed almost assumptive. Had she been surprised? Truly?Â
His gaze snapped back to her face with a kind of excited hunger that thrilled her. No one wanted the attention of a Devil. Certainly not like this. He wasnât an ordinary Devil, either, which was dangerous in the best of circumstances.
He was their ruler. People worshipped him like a god.Â
You arenât scared enough, a small voice whispered in the back of her mind.Â
âWanting to kill your mother is hardly unique, Feyre darling,â Rhysand told her, recapturing her attention. âItâs forgivable.â
âWhen did I ask for your forgiveness?â Feyre snapped.Â
His smile widened a fraction. âYou didnât, but Iâm offering absolution all the same.â
âThatâs not yours to give,â Feyre reminded him. His smile didnât fade.Â
âFor you, I think it is."
âAre youââ
âFeyre?â
Feyre paused, heart racing at the sound of that familiar, deep voice.
Tamlin. Oh, of course heâd find her here. Find her with him. They hadnât spoken in weeks at her insistence while she tried to figure out how she might move forward with Tamlin. Turning slowly, she saw him standing a few feet away, eyes trained fully on the Devil in front of her.Â
âWhat are you doing?â Tamlin whispered breathlessly. His own eyes, a pine green, were pinpricks in the dark. Heâd brought no weapon to fight with, though Feyre had seen Tamlin fightâhe might do alright against another man with just his bare fists.
He stood no chance here.Â
âYou need to leave,â Feyre told him, taking a step toward him. Tamlin wasnât looking at her. His blonde hair swayed in the breeze, shirt half opened, revealing the necklace he wore against his toned, tanned chestâa collection of animal claws, teeth, and fur that helped him shift, at least partly, into a massive wolf.Â
Feyre looked over her shoulder to find Rhysand, wings spread wide, watching Tamlin with open, unguarded amusement.
âListen to her. Walk away with your life,â the Devil murmured.
Tamlin openly bristled, turning fully back to Feyre. âFeyre, whatever you need, whateverâŚwhatever happenedâŚIâll help you. If you need money, or medicineââ
âI donât need anything,â Feyre said flatly. Any help she took from him would bound her closer, would entangle her further. It had never occurred to Feyre to go to Tamlin for help at all, now that she thought about it. He could have saved both her mother and her sister, and Feyre could have avoided blackening her soul.Â
She said nothing as the realization swept over her with an iciness that left her rooted in place. There had been options, if sheâd thought to look for them. There was no reason to invoke a Devil, let alone an Archdevil, as her first line of defense.
âI heard about your mother,â he tried again, his voice rich with sympathy. His eyes had gone yellow and his fingers were tipped with claws. He was prepared to fight. There was no axe on his back, no sword at his hip. Maybe a dagger in his boot that he could throw, but that was it. She didnât think shifting into a wolf would help him much, either.Â
âSheâs dead.â Feyre said it with as much finality in her tone as she could muster. âThereâs nothing left to save.â
âFeyre,â he breathed, inching closer. A sliver of moonlight fell across his face, illuminating his lovely, golden features. He really was so, so beautiful. And right then, even moreso because Feyre knew he was going to die. âFeyre, Iâm so sorry.â
âIâm not.â
Tamlin paused again, clearly taken aback by the frankness of her statement. She slid her hands into her pockets so he wouldnât see how they shook, finding the jagged piece of the shard of night still hidden within. Feyre curled her fingers around it, letting the cool weight settle against her palm.Â
âYou need to go home,â she repeated firmly, letting him see the plea in her gaze. Tamlin had begun shaking his head. He wasnât going to let herâhe couldnât let her. Even when there wasnât a Devil at her back, Tamlin couldnât hear the things Feyre said. Not when they contradicted his own thoughts and feelings and fears. She could see he was afraid, and Tamlin was at his most dangerous, his most controlling, when his fears overtook him.
âTamlin, listen to meââ she tried, but heâd turned his gaze to Rhysand as he lunged for Feyre, intending to grab her and pull her back. It wasnât the first time heâd done it.
But it was the last.
Feyre reacted on instinct and, perhaps, desire. Her hand, hidden in her pocket, came into the moonlight as she pierced through his thin shirt, his skin and finally bone. It required force and all of her effort before she felt the shard slice through his soft underbelly.Â
His eyes were wide. âFeyre?â he breathed, âFeyre, what have you done?â
âVery good,â Rhysand whispered, his breath tickling her ear. âYou have done so well, my darling. You know what you must do, now, donât you?â
âYes,â she replied, still holding Tamlinâs gaze. She wanted to tell him she was sorry.
But she didnât want to lie to him, either. Not as he was dying. Feyre twisted her wrist without thinking, still holding his gaze. Tamlinâs mouth opened and a hiss of pain escaped him. Wobbling, Tamlinâs knees buckled. Feyre withdrew the shard as he began to sink to the ground, causing more carnage in her wake. Blood coated her hand and slid down her arm, staining the ground around her.
Rhysandsâs fingers curled over her shoulders, pulling her against his chest. âI didnât realize you were already mine.â
Feyre turned to look at him, but darkness was swallowing them in a billowing cloud of ash. Feyre choked, turning her face into the lapel of his jacket to breathe in that icy citrus smell. It was only a moment, though a panicky part of her worried it was forever. He was taking her to the Hells, to Nessus.
ToâŚhis personal chambers. Feyre blinked as the smoke cleared, leaving her in a room larger than her little cottage combined thrice over. A large fireplace crackled cheerfully, warming the room to just the right temperature. Large windows overlooked a jagged landscape, revealing a raging, fiery storm just outside.Â
None of that mattered when her eyes fell on the massive, four poster bed draped in rich purples, vibrant silvers, and inky blacks. It was large enough if could outstretch his wings on either side without them draping over the ends. Heâd asked her for a night in exchange for anything she wanted, but in truth, Feyre didnât want anything else.
He clearly did.Â
She wondered if there wasnât an argument to be made for just the night. No bargain at all, just a night of passion before he dropped her off back home and sheâŚspent the rest of her life thinking about him while he never thought of her again.
âTell me what youâre thinking,â Rhysand murmured, leaning casually against the bedpost.Â
âIâmâŚconsidering your bargain,â she admitted, daring a step toward him. Feyre hadnât realized the floors were made of marble until her boot, worn smooth from all the wear, skidded against it. There was an overstated opulence she found strangely charming. He knew who he wasâwhat he wasâand he was fine with it.
Proud, even.
He shook his head, amusement bright. âI no longer care for that bargain.â
âOh.âÂ
Feyre paused, stopping in place. He said nothing at all, waiting, ever serpentine, for her to ask another question.
âWhy am I here, then?â
âI wanted to see what youâd look like standing here. I wanted to see if it lived up to my imagination.â
Her heart raced at the admission. âDoes it?â she asked a little too eagerly.Â
His smile seemed to soften around the edges. âAlmost. In my mind, youâre never wearing so much clothing.â
Feyre didnât know what to say to that. She remained in place as he came toward her. âIn truth, I wanted to see what you might look like seated atop my throne. But then, I had this thoughtâŚthis is the only throne that matters.â
As he spoke, he took her wrist gently and slid her open palm against the erection she hadnât noticed in his trousers.Â
âI didnât realize you were such a braggart,â Feyre complained, noting he felt quite large through the fabric. The look of satisfaction on his face told Feyre heâd been hoping sheâd notice, had been looking for any subtle clue in her expression.Â
âI am Archdevil Supreme, after all,â he murmured, lowering his head. Feyre allowed it with breathless anticipation, though sheâd kissed him once before. His mouth was just as soft as she remembered, though far more insistent than it had been in the woods. Feyre leaned fully into him this time, forgetting about the blood drying on her fingers. She felt hungry in a way sheâd never experienced, like there was no amount of him that could satisfy her.
Some small part of her wondered if it wasnât magic before she dismissed it entirely. If it was, he wouldnât admit it and Feyre didnât care enough to stop, besides. Let him imagine he was manipulating her if that was what he wished. Feyre was exactly where she wanted to be.
It was easy to forget everything waiting for her back home as she pressed so close, she could feel the heat radiating from beneath his clothing. Her still blood-stained fingers slid into his thick hair, tapered neatly at his neck.
He hadnât touched her beyond the kiss until that moment. His arms, impossibly strong, wrapped around her torso and held her in place. Feyre had to stand on tiptoes to fully reach him, though she didnât mind once his tongue found hers again. There was nothing tentative about either of them, no slow exploration like was typical the first time she was with a man.
Rhysand knew what he wanted, which was lucky because Feyre did, too.
âLook at me,â he demanded, pulling back so she had to look at him. âLook at me.â
Whatever magic he used to make himself beautiful had dissolved, his glamor revealing the creature beneath. Feyre understood he took whatever form suited him best and whatever he was had no bearing on what sheâd seen.
But he was still achingly beautiful. That was what she found painfulâeven with the twisted features that made him seem more animal than manâblood red skin that cracked like molten lava and held deep, ancient swirling tattoos in a language she couldnât read. In between those cracks and marks, Rhysand was covered in brutal, open wounds, twisting, curling horns that branched off in multiple directions, and his eyesâa stark purple flame against onyx, an unfathomable void that threatened to suck her deeper.
He was unbuttoning his jacket with long, clawed fingers, still holding her gaze. Did he want her to scream? Feyre wasnât afraid. This was her deal, her devil. Feyre waited, concealing her emotions until he stood before her entirely naked. He was powerful, muscularly built with a tail pointed exactly like the pictures described at the end and feet tipped with the same claws his fingers held.
And every inch of him was covered in wounds. Feyre dared to reach out her hand, pressing her thumb against one on her chest. Rhysand sucked in a breath, catching her wrist before she could apply too much pressure.Â
âIâve been looking for you,â he murmured, the words slipping from behind his teeth as though they had a mind of their own.Â
âThey tell stories about you,â Feyre murmured, watching, dazed, as the wound sheâd touched began to knit itself together. âThey say if you ever could, youâd conquer the hells, the heavens, and the realms between.â
âI would,â he admitted without an ounce of shame. âIÂ will.â
âNot like this,â she murmured, pulling out her blooded shard of night. âYou must be in so much pain.â
âI am,â he admitted, his shoulders slumping ever so slightly. Feyre pressed the jagged stone against his chest, exhaling as she did. What had been the weapon to condemn Tamlin was now Rhysandâs salvation. Feyre watched it melt against his skin with a soft, glowing light tipped orange just as the edges. The burst was gone just as quickly as it came, taking his wounds with them.Â
âYou never thought of this before?â she tried to joke, mesmerized by the new expanse of skin emerging from beneath the trauma.
âIâve tried everything,â he murmured, âit had to be you. It could only be you.â
A moment later, heâd pulled her off the ground and tossed her to that bed. Rhysand stalked toward her, his form shimmering before the monster became the man all over again. She knew sheâd see the creature before the night was through, if only because she asked to.Â
Why should he have any secrets from her? She had none from him.
âA new bargain,â he murmured, gripping her legs and yanking her to the edge of the bed. Feyre said nothing as arousal twisted through her gut, eyes fixed on him. Rhys removed her pants with methodical slowness, letting the shadow of his claws drag along her skin. Feyre shivered with anticipation.Â
He knelt, spreading her legs so wide it made her hips ache a little. Did he intend to draw her?Â
âYou heal me with the shard of night,â he began, pressing his lips against her inner thigh and inhaling deeply, âand I will give you everything.â
She felt the words settle in her chest, tying themselves around her rib cage. The other end was leashed to him, tied just as tightly. It didnât matter if she agreedâhis word was law, here, and Feyre had already used the shard of night exactly as he asked.Â
Not that it matteredâFeyre would have done it regardless of the circumstances.
Still, though, Feyre responded. âYes,â she breathed.
It was done with a magical finality that filled her with excitement. He, too, seemed unable to contain himself. His mouth worked its way upward, finding the apex of her thighs and the small nest of curls just between.Â
All she could see was dark hair and horns, his gaze fixed on her cunt as his tongue found the source of her arousal. It had been too long since someone had touched her like thisânot with reverence, but need.Â
âRhysand,â she breathed when his tongue flicked against her clit.
âRhys,â he groaned in response. âCall me Rhys.â
Feyre arched her hips as Rhys licked, eyes fluttering shut as he continued to tease his tongue over her clit. Over and over, in rhythmic circles, until she felt like she might die. Feyre was too hot, the desire burning through her from the inside out. She reached for his horns, gripping them as though they were the only thing from keeping her on this mortal coil. Something had curled its way around her legâhis tail, she realized. Oh, but why did she like it so much?Â
Rhys moaned against her skin, fingers spreading her wider before teasing her sensitive opening. Inch by agonizing inch he went, pushing that finger further and further until Feyre was whimpering, hips rolling against his hand and mouth looking for relief. Rhys only chuckled.Â
âGreedy,â he taunted, his voice strained. âI havenât even set you on my cock, yet.â
âPlease,â Feyre replied, though she wasnât sure if she was asking him to return to licking or shutting up. âRhys, please.â
He lowered his face again, eyes now fixated entirely on her,before he resumed his attention on her swollen clit. Feyre barely noticed the way he worked that second finger into her body until he pulled away again, swearing softly about the tightness of her dripping cunt. She was so close to finishing and desperate for release.Â
He knew it. Rhys began pumping his fingers in and out of her body rougher, his mouth sped up until Feyreâs head was practically buried in the mattress, staring upward at the canopy instead.
âRhys,â she pleaded. Her body was on fire, electric and aching. Her arousal wound its way up her spine, settling at the back of her throat and in her lower belly. He sucked, fingers curling so they found some secret spot only sheâd ever known about and Feyre was undone. She screamed without meaning to, half plea, half prayer to the only god she believed inâthough the only word she managed to articulate was his name. Rhys didnât stop until Feyre whimpered, boneless and exhausted on the bed.
âYouâre not done, pretty little thing,â he murmured, crawling up her body. Feyre pushed herself backward so her legs were fully on the bed, ruching the bedding beneath her as she went. Who cared? âMy vicious, cruel little wife.â
Wife.
The word clanged through her, settling deep in her chest. Oh, but how she liked hearing him say that. She might have asked him what he was talking about, but Rhys leaned to kiss her again.He tasted sweet after having his tongue in her body. Feyre clung to his shoulders, kissing him like he might save her life. Perhaps he would. His knee came between her legs, half closed after the orgasm heâd given her with his tongue, and pushed them wide again.
Feyre moaned, running a finger along the edge of his wing. Whatever careful control heâd planned on was ruined by that small touchâhis hips jerked, cock wedging itself just against her opening. Their teeth clashed with thrilling violence, and when her teeth sank against his bottom lip, causing blood to fill both their mouths, Rhys moaned, pushing his thick cock a good inch or so into her.
Feyre gasped, fingers dipping into his biceps. The stretch of him was pain edged in pleasureâher favorite kind.Â
Rhys broke the kiss.
âBreathe,â he ordered, eyes scanning her face. The monster was lurking just behind the mask, watching with animal fascination. âYouâre doing so well, Feyre, darling.â
âI canâtââ Feyre didnât think heâd fit.
âYou can,â he interrupted, pushing deeper. âYou will.â
Even if sheâd wanted to escape himâand she didnâtâ, it was too late. Rhys continued pushing without giving her a moment to adjust. All Feyre could do was breath and grasp on to him until he was fully seated inside her. He gave her no time to relax, pulling himself out with a soft groan of pleasure before sliding himself right back into her.Â
âLook at you,â Rhys breathed, the tendons in his neck strained from keeping himself still inside her. âYou take my cock so well. Just as I knew you would.â
Rhys pulled out and thrust back in with the same brutality sheâd come to associate with him. Feyre gasped, not out of pain, but desire. It felt good to be treated like she could handle something rough. Like she wasnât fragileâlike she was strong.Â
Rhys kissed her again, a soft distraction against what was building slowly between them. âYouâre mine, and Iâm yours,â Rhys breathed, nose nuzzling her own. âI will lay this ruined world at your feet and together, weâll bring an end to the chaos.â
Feyre met him thrust for thrust, kissing him rather than answering. She could feel the cold of the dark sliding through her, washing out the light that had once existed. With each new slide of Rhysâs cock, Feyre fell further and further into shadow, into the inky darkness that had always been hovering just at the periphery.Â
Where she belonged.Â
âTake it,â Rhys moaned into her neck, teeth scraping sensitive skin. âTake all of it.â
As if she had a choice. Rhys gripped her hips, pulling her into him harder and faster, until all Feyre knew was the taste of the salt on his skin and the sound of his breathing in her ear. His hand found her throat again, pinning her beneath him as Rhys thrust over and over. His fingers squeezed just enough to leave her breathless without hurting her. When she looked up, heâd abandoned his illusion. Perhaps heâd lost his focus, or he no longer caredâwhatever the case, Feyre couldnât help the bolt of lust that surged through her when she saw him. Desire so potent it threatened to strangle her began blooming through her body, settling in her cunt until Feyre lost control of everything.
Feyre came again, surprised by the intensity of her orgasm. Her teeth sank into his shoulder to suppress the urge to scream again as Rhys moaned her name, whining ever so softly before slamming himself entirely into her body so he, too, could release himself. Feyre tasted blood, hot and salty, against her tongue.
She came again without meaning to, squeezed so tight she could barely take a breath. Above her, the monster was huffing, head thrown back in sheer ecstasy.Â
He collapsed a moment later, face nuzzled into her neck. Sweat slicked down his back and over his forehead, making his golden skin glistening beneath the lights. He didnât move, his body weight pressing her further into the mattress.Â
âFeyre,â he breathed, whispering the word into her hair. âOh, Feyre. You donât know how long Iâve waited for you.â
âIâm here now,â she said, scraping her nails against his scalp.Â
He looked up at her, violet eyes searching hers. âWhat could stop me now?â he asked seemingly himself. âWho could prevent us from our glorious destiny?â
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