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the thing about lori kennedy is that she can perform these extraordinarily generous and self-sacrificing acts of kindness and ask for no credit and nothing in return but she physically CANNOT bring herself to do any of those basic little ordinary everyday things that show people you care about them. like she'll bring her basically brain-dead ex of 20 years ago into her home to perform the totally thankless job of taking care of her while she dies of cancer but she cannot pay the extra 40 pence so that her son's mug says "#1 student"

great Half Man Fact that they made Jamie Bell wear just-slightly-uncanny brown contacts through the whole thing to match the younger actor. Because apparently they tried to make Baby Niall wear blue contacts but it looked sooo much worse and unnatural and his big brown Bambi eyes were so so important that it was just like... okay. We gotta go the other way. Sorry to Mr. Bell but Niall has beautiful void eyes now and that's just how it has to be.

it always fucks with me that before benji, ruben was widely considered a Chill and Normal guy. like yeah, at worst, if you knew him when he was younger, you think "yeah, he's a hot-head. ex-con. had a lot going on when he was a kid. but a nice guy these days!" he spit in joanna's face and she let bygones be bygones enough to hear him out. his co-workers have a nickname for him! fucking roy lets him crash at his house six months out of the year! insane. and even after benji, people are still charmed by him. probably in part because of niall massaging his image, but still! people at the wedding laugh at his jokes, converse with him freely. his chaperone at the funeral regards him fondly, genuinely seems invested in his rehabilitation. it's so fucked, man!

Have we considered the possibility that while Niall was at the library getting dick, Ruben would let himself into the bedsit he paid for, look through Niall’s extensive porn and dildo collection, read his manuscripts, smell his clothes - probably taking a pair of pants/undies as a souvenir - and check how his recording devices were doing bc he indeed had the flat bugged so he could listen in on Niall and the men he brought home & his wanking sessions?

sorry yeah back again on jamie and richard. what do you mean that richard gadd had jamie in mind the entire time he wrote niall—kept envisioning him playing niall, but felt it was a long shot; after all, he's the jamie bell, what are the odds he even knows about richard—that jamie'd ever even talk to him? but somehow richard gets to sit down with him—flies out to LA in fact—and there is jamie. more lovely than anything richard conjured up in his mind, and more than ready and willing to take the role, only with 1 stipulation: richard plays older ruben. and while richard kept picturing jamie for niall, ruben has always escaped him—been just a blurred vision of someone made up of distinct features—so this throws him for a bit of a loop. but it feels right. and, in a sense, sitting across from jamie, looking him all over, hasn't richard slipped into ruben in this moment? isn't jamie a bit niall, too? yes. yes, they both are themselves but not quite. it already feels addictive. and this newly born relationship only continues to grow: in table reads, where richard keeps finding himself in awe of how jamie works; in the makeup van watching jamie talk to the younger versions of them, encouraging and supportive; on shooting days, where jamie throws himself into everything with everything he's got, as though each take is his last on earth—richard never doubted jamie, but seeing it is vastly different than believing. their days are full of existing in rooms together but seperate: big puffy jackets on to keep warm, headphones over ears, both listening to music to get into the proper headspace. richard runs around talking to everyone, making sure they're okay, his pink pen never far from his grasp; he knows this show needs to be perfect and he's confident in each and every person in it. jamie and he share a dedication to their work that feels singular; where richard annotates the script over and over and reworks things fluidly, jamie is an actor who can disappear completely into someone else and still can't quite believe he's doing it right—take after take, chasing some version of the scene only he can see—so richard finds himself stepping in to soothe his worries; jamie is spectacular. acting alongside him is the most electric thing richard has ever felt. or, is it that ruben feels being beside niall is electric? richard is starting to feel they are one and the same thing. despite the show being as heavy as it is, the two of them laugh and find time to play footie; the days blur together to form an amalgam of warmth. richard spends each of them trying to remember each moment, to solidify them into memory so when it's all done he can keep them for himself. he already misses jamie and what they've done and feels silly for feeling so. wonders if this is how ruben felt when niall was preparing to leave for uni. the show wraps and there are no words to describe what they've all accomplished. interviews start and richard is without jamie and it feels odd to be talking about the show and ruben and niall without him, but richard does it anyway. afterwards, alone in hotel rooms and airport lounges, he finds himself consuming every interview jamie gives, reading and listening to his words over and over, feeling them settle somewhere deep inside him. each time, the same strange relief washes over him: jamie understands exactly as he does. when he speaks, richard hears his own thoughts reflected back at him. what a wonder it is to be understood like this; to have chosen and been chosen right back.

we as a half man nation don’t talk enough about WHY exactly Ruben attacked Alby. where was that rage coming from? any thoughts, dear half man nation??

mob attack dog Ruben x massive gang debt addict Niall AU when?