I shold be studying for my test tomorrow, but instead I've spiralled into my new obession: the overlap of Half Man with another pillar of Glasgow's art landscape: the synthpop band CHVRCHES.
The Mother We Share is Episode 2, Tether is Episode 6, and they take turns the whole series with Forever. Hang on to your bras and briefs, I'll be back later with either a hangover or a more coherent idea xoxo
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Listen here anon, I didnāt invest years into my ED circs 2009/2019 to become a daddy. Like Jamie Bell I aspire to youth everlasting.
But youāre also right, anon. Ruben really missed the chance to make things even more fucked up for all by not fucking Alby in Niallās bed at a specific time he knew Niall would be back from lectures. Then heād have 2 gays devoted and fighting over whose turn it was to ride Ruben.
oooo, about the half man week prompts, Iād loooove to see your takes on infidelity/getting caught, roadtrip and (just because the world needs more of it) clubbing!!!
Dear Half Man Week Anon,
I will answer the first one here and tag you in the other two later this week!
Infidelity/Getting Caught
They're adults. In a Younger timeline I struggle to see either of them stepping out because they are The Only Thing.
And because he is The Rat King, it's Niall who keeps their, whatever it is they have, a secret. Ruben sees it has his right to keep fucking Niall, no legal document/barn ceremony is going to change that. So what if Niall lives with that prick whatever-his-name-is? That doesn't change the fact that every Tuesday, Thursday, Saturday, and Sunday, Niall is at his house, waiting for him in the guestroom, ready to be used and abused and worshiped. Mona is very aware and she's ok with the set up because it gets Ruben out of her hair and gives her time to do the things and other men she wants.
It's Niall's partner that is fully oblivious to the arrangement because Niall doesn't know how to tell this sweet, normal, vanilla man that he's not only freakishly close with his (step)brother but that they've been getting freaky since Niall was 16 and he's not giving him up. He physically and mentally cannot quit Ruben.
And because we know Niall's luck, they will eventually be found out. It happens during a couples holiday at an all inclusive resort in Spain. Niall loves the thrill of almost getting caught. He sneaks into Ruben and Mona's room when she's at the spa, hops on Ruben's dick leaving the windows wide open and making no attempt to be quiet. When they're at a club he pulls Ruben into one of the bathroom stalls, drops to his knees, and sucks him off. Niall gets off from both having Ruben in his mouth and knowing that his partner is not too far away. Niall's not cruel, he let's his partner fuck him in his gentle, caring way. He even asks the angel of a man to cum in him. Once he's asleep however, Niall slips on his cozzie and walks over to Ruben's room, knocking on the door gently, and when Ruben opens it, Niall innocently asks if he wants to join him for a night time dip in the sea. You wont' be suprised to know that they do not take a dip in the sea. Instead Niall rides Ruben on a lounge chair. Several people can see them from the hotel but neither of them care. Ruben is incredibly turned on at how easy it is to enter Niall, he can how slick Niall is from whatever-his-name-is left behind, and Ruben makes sure to add to it.
When they're done, Niall thinks he sees the light of his hotel room on and his stomach drops. He runs back to the room only to find that his partner is sound asleep, the light had come from the room next door.
On their final full day, his partner and Mona decide that they're going to go into the Old Town for a bit of culture. Niall call's Ruben's room and asks him to come to his to help him move a heavy suitcase since their flight tomorrow is early. When Ruben gets to Niall's room, he finds the door slighty ajar. He walks in to find Niall on all fours, presenting himself ready for Ruben.
What they don't account for is that the tour Mona and Niall's partner were meant to be on was cancelled at the last minute. They don't hear their voices coming down the hallway, Niall is too busy begging Ruben to fuck him harder. They're not ready for the gasp and the "What the fuck is going on here?!?!" or his partner demanding they stop. But Ruben is almost there and he holds Niall in place by his hips. Why spoil what they really want on a man that doesn't really matter? Niall should feel ashamed that he lets Ruben finish inside him and that he follows shortly after. But he doesn't.
He sits on the edge of the bed letting his partner berate him, yell at him, demand an explination.
"I love him," he whispers. That's the only explanation he can give because it's the truth.
His partner leaves that day, tells Niall not to return to their home, that his things will be at Ruben and Mona's in a few days. The flight back home is uneventful, if slightly awkward. Mona insisted he should've told her what he was planning on doing, but Niall reminds her that with Ruben you can't plan. Their bodies need him and he answers.
And so Ruben's greatest wish comes true. He has both of his loves under his roof. He can see to each of their needs and make sure they're doing what he wants. They are now both his to keep forever.
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tumblr user dorsetti... do you think ruben ever eats ass or sucks dick?
Anon I'm so sorry to keep you waiting, this is one of the most important questions in my inbox.
Sucking dick, most definitely not until he's worked through his trauma, I don't think there's more to say than that. However, I do think he'd enjoy it if he ever managed to get on the other side. Not consistently but as a little sweet treat for Niall/whatever guy hes bedding to make Niall jealous while Niall is trying (and failing) to date other men and move on from Ruben.
Does Ruben eat arse? 100000%. Candidly, Niall was not his first. It wasn't even Mona. It was one of his first girlfriends after he read an article in an adult magazine that made it's way around the young offenders. She was pliable and willing, really not that much differen than Niall a few years later. But she was also safe and he was able to figure out that he enjoyd teasing and drawing it out as long as possible. Something Niall would eventually become super grateful for. He knows Niall loves it, so he uses it as reward. What is new with Niall is that Niall really likes it when Ruben has stubble, beard rash be damned.
I took the prompts of Butch and Christmas in Summertime and took it Down Under, but not in like the modern, fun way Brits move to Australia.
Important Note: This story is set on Gadigal Country, the traditional lands of the Eora people. I respectfully acknowledge the Gadigal people as the Traditional Custodians of the land on which parts of this story are set, and pay my respects to Elders past and present. Sovereignty was never ceded.
Sydney, His Majestyās Colony of New South Wales, November 1797
Niall was sentenced to Transportation to Botany Bay. His Master Carpenter - the same one that started training Ruben - had died suddenly of the influenza that ripped through Glasgow, leaving him without work or income. Maura had died in the same outbreak and Loriās health had deteriorated so much she was housebound. Niall was the only one keeping them alive since Ruben had been sentenced to transportation 7 years earlier for receiving stolen goods. They never could prove he had stolen the silk from that warehouse, but there was no good reason a lad of 13 from the slums would have that much expensive fabric.
Niall had to resort to desperate measures to gather enough money to keep a roof over their heads and some food on the table. He broke into houses, he sold the stolen goods, and when times got really desperate, he sold comfort to men willing to pay for it. Many of his clients were merchants. They would take him to their warehouses to avoid prying eyes. He made a mental note of what they kept in there while the other man fucked him. One night he broke into the warehouse of a regular client who dealt in French lace. He knew of a new shipment recently arrived and he could make a few decent bob selling it. He hadnāt realised his regular had followed him with his men. They held Niall until he was taken to the gaol. A few days later he was put in front of a judge. Heād been trembling with fear, he knew what happened to thieves like him - 7 years Transportation to Botany Bay. Lori fainted when the sentence was proclaimed. He didnāt get the chance to say goodbye.Ā
When Niall arrived in Sydney Cove, after the near year-long voyage he wanted to kiss the ground. One of the Officers on the ship, a dark-haired man with a Spanish countenance who went by Butch, had taken a liking to him from the moment they set sail from Portsmouth. Heād given Niall extra rations, allowed him precious candlelight at night so he could write his stories, and used Niall as his private secretary of sorts. Niall knew that this kindness and trust did not come for free and Butch extracted what he wanted from Niall often.Ā
āA boy whore who can read & write? Scotland really is another country,ā Butch had whispered into his ear one night, the scent of rum clouding Niallās senses as Butch plowed into him. He was more violent than his old regulars. Niall hated the marks Butch left on him, the way heād degrade him when he was in the moment. But it was a price Niall was willing to pay to ensure his survival.
Niall rushed off the small boat that ferried him from the ship to land. He wanted to put as much distance between him and Butch as possible. Soldiers met him and the other convicts on the beach and marched them to a simple timber building where a robust army surgeon inspected him.Ā
āFit for labour. He should be put to work.ā
He was then taken to a shack and told to sleep on the floor; heād know his fate soon. Butch had taught him about the different roles he could be assigned, not many of them pleasant. Niall hoped heād be allowed to continue as a carpenterās apprentice, hopefully to a settler or freed convict that wouldnāt demand sex. The other convicts that were deemed fit for work trickled in. Niall found a small corner and laid down for uninterrupted sleep for the first time in ages. It wasnāt comfortable, but at least there were no hands grabbing for him, asking for him to repay an earlier kindness with his body. In his dream, his mind wandered to the single thought that had kept him sane during the arduous journey:Ā
Ruben.
If he were still alive, heād be 20. Niall couldnāt picture Ruben as a man. Even in his dream he still saw the 13 year old boy with red-gold hair who held his hand as they crossed the busy market to run errands for their Master. The boy he shared a hay covered pallet with in a small room of their stone house. The boy that made sure they always had enough wood to keep a fire going and enough food to keep them working. The boy that tried to make their lives better and paid the price for their misery. Niall vividly remembered the first night he spent alone in that cold room after Ruben was arrested. His hand rested on Rubenās side, tears freely falling from his face. He still remembered running after the carriage that took Ruben from the courthouse destined for some port in England that would take him to the other side of the world.
When Niall woke up he dampened his hope. He knew firsthand how easy it was for convicts, especially young ones, to die on the voyage. Even if they got the protection of a self-interested official like Butch. He remembered the handful of burials at sea he witnessed. Almost all of them boys or young men like him, like Ruben. Niall found the Anglican services strange. The same men who marched them onto the ship bowed their heads in prayer over the dead. He tried not to think of a young Ruben, lifeless and wrapped in a shabby blanket, receiving prayers he wouldnāt recognise to commend his soul to God and his body to the sea. He could never bring himself to look overboard and see what became of them.
A guard started calling out surnames, eventually getting to his. They were being taken to the Government Yard to be assigned. Niall felt his woollen clothes grow heavy with sweat because of the hot sun and his nerves. Whatever came next would be his life for the next 7 years. If he lived that long. They were marched through the settlement, only a few people acknowledged their existence. Some of them looked intently, Niall felt like an animal at market.Ā
They arrived at a large dusty square, the guards shouting for them to stop and remain still. Government Yard was rustic, like everything else in the settlement. Niall saw a table of official looking men in red coats and powdered wigs on the far side of the square, looking through papers in front of them. Behind the officials were other men, their clothes much more simple. Many of them looked like they had come directly from their work. Niall tried to make out their faces, but the sun was too bright.
āMrs. Chamberlain,ā the official called out. A well dressed woman stepped forward.Ā
āOne female convict, Bowers.ā A young woman only slightly older than Niall stepped forward.Ā Mrs. Chamberlain beckoned and they left the yard. The process continued as convicts were assigned their new Masters.Ā
Niall looked at the ground; the sun was too strong to keep up with the proceedings.Ā
Then, āMr. Pallister.āĀ
Niallās head snapped up quickly, he couldnāt have heard correctly.
A man stepped forward. Tall and broad shouldered, with skin that had been tanned by years under the unforgiving sun. His arms were strong from years of labour. His linen shirt hung open just enough for Niall to see his strong chest. Niall felt his stomach flutter just like it did whenever he saw a man he liked. The man took off his hat and Niall saw the red-gold hair he used to play with when they were meant to be sleeping. And then he saw the eyes, still a bright blue, almost like the colour of the sky in this strange land. He saw the twinge of recognition and the man, Ruben, took three large steps toward Niall, stopping just before the guards.
The clerk looked at his ledger and yelledĀ
āOne male convictā¦Kennedy. And it is your lucky day Mr. Pallister, this one was a carpenters apprentice.ā
Niall stepped forward closing the distance with Ruben. He wanted to hug him. Rubenās arms looked like they wanted to envelop him too.
āLetās go,ā he said. His voice was deeper, his accent less broad. He was handsome. Niall noticed the dark red stubble on his face. He felt a knot in his chest, one he hadnāt felt for years. One that Ruben had first triggered in him when they were younger.
They fell into step with one another, neither knowing exactly what to say. The settlement was busy, touching publicly felt dangerous. They stole glances at each other as they walked, the reality of their reunion settling in. They arrived at a small wooden house set somewhat back from the others. When they were boys Ruben talked about spiriting them away to the country to live in the woods, it seemed he made that wish come true.
Rubenās hand landed on the small of his back, leading Niall inside. The house was well appointed inside, better than the other buildings Niall had been in so far. Rubenās talent was evident in every corner of the home. Ruben pulled out a chair from beneath a small, well-made table.Ā
āSit. You must be tired. Are you hurt?ā
Niall looked at the chair then at Ruben. Instead of sitting as directed, he stepped up to Ruben and threw his arms around his neck, burying his face into his chest. Ruben wrapped him up immediately, resting his head on Niallās, breathing him in to confirm that this was really his Niall. His eyes started to glisten. Niall wasnāt sure how long they held each other for.
When they broke their embrace, Ruben took hold of his hands and studied him. Niall wasnāt the little boy heād last seen. Niall had always been slight, but even as a young man his body showed signs of years of hard graft. The kind of graft Ruben had tried to protect him from.
āYouāre in good nick for such a long voyage. One of the officers?ā
Niall looked away, he didnāt want to talk about it. Ruben still had his answer.
Niall glanced back at Ruben, he was even redder with anger, his fists bunched. The vein in his head that would pulse when he was angry was still there. Ruben strode outside and drove his boot into the small bench. Again. Again. Again. The timber splintered beneath each kick until nothing recognisable remained.
āI did what I had to. We lost 5 boys on the journey.ā
āI know. I still want to kill him. Which one was it?ā
āThe Spanish-looking one, he goes by Butch.ā
āAye I know the bastard.ā
āI never want to see him again.ā
āHeāll be gone soon. The ships never stay too long. They have to go to Canton next. For tea. More money in that than in convicts.ā
Ruben had clearly adapted to the rhythms of the colony. He led Niall to a small clearing behind his house to a basic tub filled with clear water. He instructed Niall to strip and bathe. He would take his clothes and wash them. They needed to rid Niallās hair and clothes of any critters that had made a home there before Niall could go to his room. Niall protested that he didnāt have any other garments. Ruben assured him he would lend him some of his until they could go to the market and get fabric, the seamstress next door owed him several favours.
Niall eased himself into the tub. It had been an age since he'd been immersed in so much fresh water. Butch had offered him a small washing basin, Niall knew this meant he was going to be used. He scrubbed his body and used a small cup Ruben had left to rinse his hair. He finally felt like a person again.
He pulled himself out of the tub and walked back onto the small veranda at the back of the house. Ruben met him at the door with a towel. Niall noticed Ruben's eyes travel over his naked body, taking in every bruise, every mark the voyage had left, before wrapping the towel around his shoulders.
āThanks.ā
āNae problem. Thereās a shirt in your room. Probably too big. I donāt think my breeches will fit you. Iāll get some at the market tomorrow.ā
āDonāt they tell you who your convict is?ā
āNo. I put in for one a year ago. You never know who is coming in on the ships. Itās up to Lady Luck which poor bastard will be unlucky enough to be sent here.ā
Ruben led Niall to a small room, a small cot in the corner, and an ornate chest of drawers that seemed too grand for the setting. Ruben had made it himself, heād become a highly skilled carpenter. Ruben mentioned to Niall that he needed to rest up, they had a lot of work to do before Christmas. Niall approached his bed and saw a clean linen chemise waiting for him. He dropped the towel and pulled it over his head. It was clearly Rubenās and too big on Niall, the neck opening falling off his right shoulder. Niall didnāt care. He laid down to sleep and for the first time since before his arrest, let sleep take him gladly.
Ruben hadnāt been exaggerating, there was a lot of work for them to do. Ruben had been selected as an apprentice to one of the only carpenters in the settlement the moment he arrived. The man was kind to him, he had seen the skill their former Master in Glasgow had nurtured and continued to teach Ruben their craft. As the date of his emancipation approached, Ruben was highly sought after by government officials and freemen alike. The Governor had proudly proclaimed that Ruben was a true success of the system, a poor boy who had received proper intervention and had become a true asset to King and Country. Ruben accepted the praise but later told Niall it was bollocks.
āWe do what we must to live.ā
Most days when they returned home they were too tired to do much. Ruben hired a servant girl to keep their house and cook. She was usually gone by the time they returned. It was over the food she left ready for them that Niall slowly caught Ruben up on what had happened at home since he was transported. The influenza outbreak, the deaths, the thefts Niall undertook to survive. Ruben knew he was leaving something out but he didnāt push.
As they eased into their new life, Ruben became more physically affectionate. A lingering hand on Niallās shoulder, standing closer than needed when Niall needed help with a task, a playful pat on the arse when he sent Niall to run errands. Niall welcomed Rubenās touch, heād let himself linger, feeling empty when Ruben had to pull away. He needed him like he needed water.
One night after they had gone to bed, Niall tossed and turned in his cot. He knew what he wanted, he knew what Ruben wanted from him. He stood from his bed and crossed the small house to Rubenās bedroom door. He could see light from a candle emanating under it. He knocked, not waiting for permission to enter. Ruben was in bed wearing only his shirt. He looked at Niall like he was the most precious thing in the world. Niall slipped his own shirt off and got into bed with Ruben, softly kissing him.Ā
āWe shouldnāt,ā Ruben whispered as he pulled away from Niall.
āYou want me and I want you.ā
That was all Ruben needed to hear before he pulled Niall into his bed and had him. Niall gave himself gladly.
A few days later they were summoned along with the rest of the settlement to Government Yard for the Christmas service. As Scots, they had little concept of the holiday. Ruben had tried to explain to him how the Anglicans celebrated it as a major holiday. They sometimes received small gifts from the Governor.
āWhat about Hogmanay?ā Niall inquired hopefully.
āThe English donāt celebrate it. For them, itās Christmas.ā
āHow sad for them.āĀ
After the tedious sermon by the boring Vicar, Ruben had been invited to a small gathering of freemen and respectable settlers. Niall rushed home, he knew Butch was still about. They had seen him the week before when working on the Governorās house. Butch looked at him like a piece of meat he wanted to devour. Ruben had stepped in between them, making his claim on Niall known and a warning Butch to stay away.
Ruben came home a while later. A small dram of whisky in his right hand. Compliments of the Governor for Hogmanay. He found Niall naked in his bed.
āHeās even given us the day after off.ā
āAn Englishman with a heart? Iāve seen it all.ā
āAye, a frontier miracle. Fuck, youāre beautiful, Niall.ā
He stripped his own clothes off and joined Niall in what was essentially now their bed. He put his fingers into Niallās mouth, asking him to coat them, before using them to tease Niall open. He took his time, enjoying the soft moans escaping from Niall. He crooked his fingers once heād found Niallās spot, gently pushing against it over and over again until Niall came screaming his name. He hadnāt meant to make Niall cum so soon. No bother, he knew Niall would take care of him later.
A few days later they sat on the veranda of their house, each holding a glass of whisky. Ruben raised his and Niall followed.
āHappy New Year, Niall,ā Ruben proclaimed.
āHappy Hogmanay! Donāt become too English now.ā
They laughed, letting a comfortable silence settle. Ruben reached out for Niallās hand. Niall let him take it.
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American Uni AU where freshman Niall rushes sophomore Rubenās frat and they immediately hit it off and kiss after a booze fuelled Bid Night and Niall essentially moves into Rubenās room where he loses his virginity to Ruben and a few weeks later at the big brother/little brother ceremony Niall is thrilled to find out that Ruben is his big brother but what he doesnāt know is that Ruben threatened the membership chair on pain of death to give him Niall and the rest of the house just has to pretend they donāt hear Niall moaning on the regular in Rubenās room and they walk on eggshells when they argue and then make up loudly and this is their lives for the next 3 years until Ruben graduates.
I wrote this back in May sometime between episodes 2 & 3 when my Soft Rubambi AU universe was coming together.
FADE IN:Ā
GLASGOW, FEBRUARY 1994
INT. RUBEN'S FLAT ā SATURDAY MORNING
Fog presses against the windows even though it is technically spring.
The room is grey and soft.
Ruben(23) lies on his back in bed, one hand tangled in the sheet.Ā
His boyfriend/best friend/stepbrother, Niall (22), has his head between Rubenās legs.
Rubenās face is red, almost crimson.Ā
His breath catches, and his eyes close.
He taps Niallās shoulder. A quiet signal.
Niall stays where he is, head bobbing.
RUBEN (moaning)
Christ, Niall!
His arm falls over his eyes.
He comes back to Earth slowly.
Niall shifts back up. His cheeks are flushed and his hair is a mess.Ā
He settles beside Ruben.
Neither speaks, attempting to catch their breath.
For a moment, they are only two young men in a warm bed on a cold morning.
Ruben reaches over and brushes a strand of hair from Niallās forehead.
NIALL (smiling)
What?
RUBEN
Nothing.
Ruben smiles too. Then his expression changes. Something has caught up with him.
He looks at Niall, unsure.
RUBEN
Did you...
He stops.
Niall understands immediately, his smile widens even more.
NIALL
Yeah.
Ruben sits up on one elbow, now alarmed.
RUBEN
Bambi. You didnae have to do that.
NIALL
I know.
RUBEN
No, I mean it. Iām sorry.
Niall blinks.
Then laughs softly, fondly.
NIALL
Rubes, itās alright.
RUBEN
I didnāt ask you to.
NIALL
I know.
RUBEN
So whyā
NIALL
Because I wanted to.
Ruben has no idea what to do with that.
Niall watches him try.
NIALL
If I didnāt want to, I wouldnāt have.
Ruben nods slowly, mind still thinking.
Niall gently pulls him back down.
NIALL
Come here.
Ruben lets himself be pulled.
Niall kisses his shoulder.
Outside the fog presses up against the windows.
Rubenās eyes stay open.
INT. RUBEN'S FLAT ā KITCHEN ā LATER
The kettle boils.
Niall stands in Rubenās T-shirt, making tea like he still lives here.
Ruben sits at the tiny kitchen table, watching him.
Toast burns slightly in the toaster.
Niall notices first.
NIALL
Toast.
Ruben jumps up.
RUBEN
Shite.
He rescues it.
Too late.
Niall takes the plate from him, and looks at the toast.
NIALL
Rustic.
RUBEN
Burnt.
NIALL
Rustic.
They sit and eat. And for a while it is ordinary.
Breakfast. A newspaper neither of them reads.
Then Ruben looks at Niall again.
Niall puts his mug down.
NIALL
Youāre still thinking about it.
RUBEN
No.
Niall gives him a look.
Ruben sighs.
RUBEN
Aye. Maybe.
NIALL
Thereās nothing to think about.
RUBEN
There is.
NIALL
Not really.
Ruben struggles for words.
RUBEN
I just donāt want you thinking you have to do things.
For me.
Niallās face softens.
NIALL
I donāt.
RUBEN
Butā
NIALL
Ruben, I donāt.
I wanted to.
I liked that I wanted to.
Ruben looks down at his tea.
That has somehow made it worse. And better.
Niall sees the panic beginning again and smiles despite himself.
NIALL
Youāre making this very dramatic.
RUBEN
Iām not.
NIALL
You are.
RUBEN
Iām being normal.
NIALL
You are spiralling over breakfast.
Ruben almost smiles.
Niall reaches across the table and touches his hand.
NIALL
Trust me.
Ruben looks up.
NIALL
Please.
That lands.
RUBEN
I do.
NIALL
Then trust this too.
Ruben nods.
INT. RUBEN'S FLAT ā SUNDAY EVENING
Niallās bag is packed by the door.
He is dressed for the train.
Ruben hovers nearby, holding Niallās scarf like he has forgotten what it is.
Niall takes it from him.
NIALL
Thank you.
Ruben nods awkwardly.
Niall watches him.
NIALL
Rubes.
RUBEN
Mm?
NIALL
Youāre doing it again.
RUBEN
What?
NIALL
The face.
RUBEN
I donāt have a face.
NIALL
You have several.Ā
This one is your guilty face.
Ruben looks away. Heās caught.
Niall steps closer.
NIALL
Iām not upset.
RUBEN
I know.
NIALL
Do you?
Ruben doesnāt answer quickly enough.
Niall sighs. Heās not annoyed, just patient.
NIALL
I had a lovely weekend.
Ruben looks at him.
NIALL
All of it.
NIALL
Iāll ring when I get in.
Ruben nods.
RUBEN
Aye.
Niall kisses him softly.
Then he picks up his bag and leaves.
Ruben stands in the quiet flat after the door shuts.
INT. PUB ā GLASGOW ā WEDNESDAY NIGHT
The pub is warm and noisy.
Ruben sits opposite DARREN (23).
Two pints between them.
Darren is mid-story, animated.
Ruben isnāt really listening.
DARREN
So then he says, āThatās not my wife.ā
Darren waits for the punchline to land. Nothing.
DARREN
That was the end.
Ruben looks up.
RUBEN
What?
Darren stares at him.
DARREN
Christ, youāre miles away.
Ruben takes a drink.
RUBEN
Sorry.
DARREN
No, no, donāt apologise. I only wasted my best story.
Ruben smiles faintly.
Darren studies him.
DARREN
Right. Whatās wrong?
RUBEN
Nothing.
DARREN
Youāve no' touched your pint. And you let me finish the story without cutting in. So either youāre dying or Little Shakespeare has done something.
Ruben exhales.
RUBEN
Donāt call him that.
DARREN
You love when I call him that.
RUBEN
I donāt.
DARREN
You do. Trouble in paradise?
Ruben rubs a hand over his face.
RUBEN
No.
Yes.
I donāt know.
Darren leans back.
DARREN
Go on then. Whatās Wee Billy done?
Ruben glances around the pub, mortified before heās even spoken.
RUBEN
Mate, I donāt think you want to hear this.
DARREN
How bad can it be?
Darren grins.
DARREN
He didnae try to stick it in ya, did he?
Ruben goes bright red instantly.
Darren bursts out laughing.
DARREN
Mate!
RUBEN
Fuck off!
DARREN
Iām joking. Mostly.
Ruben glares.
Darren puts both hands up.
DARREN
Alright! Iāll behave, tell me.
Ruben takes a long drink.
Too long.
Darren waits.
RUBEN
Niall was up this weekend.
DARREN
Ayeā¦and?
RUBEN
And we were in bed...
Darrenās mouth twitches.
RUBEN
Donāt.
DARREN
Didnae say a word.
RUBEN
He was...
Ruben gives an awkward downward nod.
Darren stares.
DARREN
Looking for lost change?
RUBEN
Darren!
DARREN
Fine. Iām sorry! How terrible for you. Your boyfriend loves you and wants you to have a nice time.
RUBEN
Youāre a bastard.
DARREN
Aye, but go on.
Ruben looks into his pint.
Voice lower.
RUBEN
I let him know I was close.
And heā¦he swallowed.
Darren waits.
Ruben waits for Darren to understand.
He doesnāt.
DARREN
Right. And?
Ruben looks up.
RUBEN
And?
DARREN
Aye. Whatās the problem?
Ruben groans.
RUBEN
The problem is I didnae ask him to.
DARREN
Did he seem upset?
RUBEN
No.
DARREN
Did he say he was upset?
RUBEN
No.
DARREN
Did he throw a book at you?
Ruben almost laughs.
RUBEN
No.
DARREN
Then Iām lost.
Ruben leans forward.
Now the real thing comes out.
RUBEN
I keep thinking I degraded him. Or made him feel like he had to. Or like I only see him asā¦I donāt know, something to use.
Weāve been, you know...shagging since he was 18. Weāve never done that before.
Darrenās face changes.
The joke leaves the table.
He takes that seriously.
DARREN
Ah.
Ruben looks embarrassed.
RUBEN
I know. How embarrassing. My boyfriend loves to shag and Iām complaining.
DARREN
No, I get it. Did you talk to him?
RUBEN
Aye. Straight after.
And at breakfast.
And before he left.
DARREN
And?
RUBEN
He laughed, said he wanted to. Said if he didnae want to, he wouldnāt have.
Darren nods.
DARREN
Sounds like him.
Ruben laughs despite himself.
RUBEN
Aye.
DARREN
So why are you deciding heās lying?
Ruben stops.
That lands harder than expected.
RUBEN
I donāt think heās lying.
DARREN
You kind of do, mate.
Ruben looks down.
Darren lets it sit.
Thenā
DARREN
Rubes, this is Niall. The wee man has opinions about everything and he shares them freely.
RUBEN
He does.
DARREN
If he didnae like something, would you know?
Ruben laughs quietly.
RUBEN
Aye.
DARREN
Exactly.
But if you donāt like it, that matters too.
Ruben looks up.
RUBEN
I do like it. Feelsā¦nice.
DARREN
Then tell him that. Not the whole tragic opera version. Just...
āI got in my head about it.ā
Ruben takes that in.
DARREN
And tell him why. Not that he needs saving from his āsinfulā ways.Ā But 'cause you love him and youāre trying not to be a prick.
Ruben smiles faintly.
RUBEN
Thatās romantic.
DARREN
Iām wasted in this pub.
Darren nudges his pint.
DARREN
Youāre learning, mate. Thatās all.
Ruben nods, relieved.
Still embarrassed but less alone.
RUBEN
Thanks.
DARREN
āCourse. Now get the next round because Iām about to kick your arse at darts.
Ruben laughs properly for the first time all night.
RUBEN
You wish.
DARREN
Iām serious. Youāre emotionally lighter now, an easier target.
Ruben stands, shaking his head.
INT. TRAIN ā FRIDAY AFTERNOON
Ruben sits by the window of the Glasgow to Oxford train.
Fields pass. Then towns. Then fields again.
He has a small bag beside him.
On his lap, an unread paperback Niall lent him.
He opens it and reads the same line three times before closing it again.
He looks out the window, Darrenās advice on his mind.
Ruben shifts in his seat, practicing silently.
RUBEN
I got in my head about it.
No.
He tries again under his breath.
RUBEN
I didnae mean to make it weird.
No.
He looks out at the countryside.
RUBEN
Trust your boyfriend, ya idiot.
A woman across the aisle glances at him.
Ruben clears his throat and looks back out the window.
EXT. OXFORD TRAIN STATION ā EVENING
The train pulls in.
Ruben steps onto the platform, bag over one shoulder.
He scans the crowd and finds Niall almost immediately. He always does.
Niall stands near a pillar in badminton kit, his jacket too light for the weather, his shorts scandalously short, waving at him.
Ruben stops for half a second.
All his practised speeches vanish.
Niall walks over, smiling.
They hug a little longer than necessary.
When they pull apart, Ruben looks him up and down.
He adopts a terrible American accent.
RUBEN
Mr Kennedy.
Are you trying to seduce me? Iām a taken man!
Niall laughs.
He punches Ruben lightly on the shoulder.
NIALL (smiling)
Shut up.
Ruben grins.
He slips an arm around Niallās shoulders. Mostly to keep him warm. Mostly.
RUBEN
Letās get you home and out of these scandalous clothes.
What would the good people of Oxford think?
NIALL
They would think I have excellent legs and that my boyfriend is very lucky to have me.
Ruben looks down.
Considers.
RUBEN
Aye. They would.
Rubenās hand smacks Niallās arse.
Niall smiles back.
They start walking.
EXT. OXFORD STREET ā CONTINUOUS
They walk close together.
Rubenās arm still around Niall.
For a while they talk about ordinary things: Badminton, crap train food, Niallās supervisor, Rubenās course.
Then Ruben goes quiet.
Niall notices.
NIALL
There it is.
RUBEN
What?
NIALL
The face.
Ruben sighs.
RUBEN
I hate that I have faces.
NIALL
You have a full gallery.
They walk a few steps.
RUBEN
I spoke to Darren.
Niall looks up at him.
NIALL
About?
Ruben hesitates.
RUBEN
Last Sunday.
Niallās face softens.
NIALL
Ah.
RUBEN
Not in detail.
NIALL
I assumed.
RUBEN
I just...
I was in my head about it.
Niall waits.
Ruben keeps looking ahead.
RUBEN
You told me how you felt a few times and I wouldnae let it go. Iām sorry.
Niall stops walking.
Ruben notices after half a step and turns back.
Niall looks at him.
NIALL
Ruben, youāre allowed to feel uncomfortable.
RUBEN
Itās noā that. I liked it too.
Iām justā¦sorry I didnāt trust you.
NIALL
Itās ok. Next time.
Ruben (smiling)
Next time? Offering me an encore, Bambi?
NIALL
Make me breakfast tomorrow and weāll see!
Niall reaches for his hand and squeezes it.
They start walking again.
After a momentā
NIALL
Darren gave good advice then?
RUBEN
Eventually.
NIALL
Eventually?
RUBEN
He started by asking if you tried to stick it in me.
Niall stops dead.
Then bursts out laughing.
NIALL
He did noā.
RUBEN
He did, aye! In the pub on darts night.
NIALL
I like him.
RUBEN
You would.
NIALL
Tell him Little Shakespeare approves.
Ruben groans.
RUBEN
Donāt encourage him.
Niall laughs again and bumps his shoulder into Rubenās.
@dorsetti buddy, what have you done to me... i've been listening to an alarming amount of Faithless and such in the past few months, so raver Ruben spoke to my soul. you've got your filth from @ablushingbambi (hello!), i'm presenting... a prelude.
Niall feels the sweat gathering on the small of his back. He thinks the band of his pants is wet with it, clinging to his skin even more than his shirt. Itās hard to focus on anything else, music blaring, lights flashing, and bodies, warm bodies surrounding him closely, people pushing at him from every direction. Truth is, he doesnāt really mind. Truth is, with Rubenās watchful eyes on him, he likes it.
Everything around them is pulsing, and they have to stay close so as not to get separated. Heās sweaty, too, glistening with it in low light and strobes, swaying to the music. Niall remembers the first time he saw Ruben dancing, and remembers how it ended for him, but now⦠Maybe itās because of the acid that they took earlier, maybe itās the hash that made him uncaring and loose, but Ruben allows himself to just be there. With Niall. His hips fluid, his pupils blown; he looks free.
Niall canāt help himself and steps a little bit closer. There is no need to touch Ruben's body to feel how hot it is, burning almost. Niall sees how his hand twitches by his side, a short, sharp gesture like he meant to grab him, but aborted the mission halfway through. Trying not to focus on it too much, he tries to mimic how Ruben moves, sure of himself and liquid.
And then Ruben takes off his shirt and tosses it at Niallās face.
The sound he utters is undignified, but heās sure no one can hear him, last of all Ruben, whoās laughing at him, full-bodied and unreserved, the grin almost splitting his face in half. Niall feels it more than anything, air vibrating around them, and he canāt do anything else besides joying in. Which is better than staring at the exposed expanse of Rubenās chest, a patch of fair hair on it, a black smudge of ink.
Fine, heās staring.
Ruben sees, of course he sees, just like always. This time itās him who steps closer, impossibly so, without leaving any space between them. Niall feels his breath catching in his throat, a dry click somewhere deep inside. Hot muscles push at him, and he sways; Ruben catches him with a hand on his waist and doesnāt move it when Niall regains his balance. But maybe he doesn't regain it after all, seeing how his head is swimming in the stuffy air. Heās breathing hard, mouth half-open, tongue quick on his lip to wet it. Now, Ruben stares. Niall has a desperate thought about fainting right there, slipping to the ground on the dance floor, not letting anyone see how blush creeps down from his cheeks to his chest. He feels his pulse in his teeth, his fingertips, and, God, lower still. Undeterred by his sudden stillness, Ruben still moves, pulling Niall with him, maneuvering him as he sees fit.
Which is to say, he turns Niall around and plasters himself on his back.
āDonāt fucking talk.ā Itās the first thing Niall actually hears from Ruben since they got here, because his lips are so close to his ear, breath hot on the back of his neck. Niall couldnāt, even if he knew what to say; heās too busy darting his eyes around, checking frantically if anyone sees what they are doing (and what exactly are they doing?). No one seems to care, but still, he canāt force his lungs to expand properly.
Ruben must sense that, or feel it, with how close he is, because he moves one hand from Niallās hip to his chest, over his frantically beating heart. Than one he knows, done it a hundred times since the first time. He obeys without Rubenās saying the words. Breathe, son. Thatās it.
Itās harder here, surrounded by bodies, sweaty and alert because of the slowly wearing acid; but Rubenās closeness helps. Niall feels himself relaxing incrementally. Heās with his brother. No one can hurt him. No one can touch him, no one besides Ruben.
āGood lad,ā comes near his hot ear. Satisfied.
inspired by @dorsettiās amazing post about rave-loving ruben and it being the first time niall gives him a hand job.
*cracks knuckles*
niall being a bit drunker than tipsy and heās so nervous and sweating and his hand is shaking on rubenās cockāand he turns out to be terrible at his first hand job. stroking too fast and rough or too slow and soft. so ruben stops him before he embarrasses himself further (no use, really, because heās all teary-eyed and bright red in the cheeks and starting to bolt from the bathroom theyāve locked themselves in at whatever party theyāre at). but ruben doesnāt let him run off to cry in some corner somewhere or stumble home all alone.
rubenās hand curls around niallās wrist, gently pulling him back until theyāre facing each other again. ruben thumbs away niallās tears, telling him heās a good lad; he tried his best and all he needs is some practice. niall sniffling all cutely when ruben kisses his forehead, knowing heās still mortified and needing his big brotherās comfort.
āiāll show you the proper way, bambers,ā ruben says, unbuttoning niallās pants.
and niall canāt breathe. canāt think. can only moan and cling to his big brother because rubenās hand is suddenly around him, big and warm and stroking up his cock, making his toes curl in his shoes. he feels so helpless and needy. hiding his face in rubenās shoulder and panting out needy little moans because ruben is practically yanking on his cock, fast and firm, making his hips buck up each time and heās barely able to catch a breath. digging his nails into rubenās shirt and trying not to cry when ruben whispers: āsee how wet you are, bambers?ā and niall thinks thisāll have a terrible ending. that heāll be made fun of for being so responsive. that ruben will leave him here without letting him comeābut then ruben seems to catch on that itās too rough, too much, too scary for his baby brother, and slows down the strokes, kisses niallās hair and tells him heās okay; heās being such a good boy; he just needs to breathe; just needs a proper breath and to let his big brother take care of him.
niall doesnāt expect the gentleness, for his wobbling body to be cradled close, for ruben to keep pressing kisses against his tear-wet face, for ruben to not shove him away but keep him close, close enough that when ruben pushes his own pants down their cocks are suddenly brushing, warm and slick and making both their breaths catchābecause ruben takes them both in hand and niall canāt stop the sounds that come out of him, these breathless moans that feel more like cries pouring past his lips, and he canāt stop moving either, humping rubenās cock and hand all at once because theyāre so close and ruben has to wrap an arm around niallās waist to keep him upright when his knees nearly give out as he gets closer and closer to coming. niallās breathing so loud he can barely hear anything but he strains his ears as hard as he can because ruben is still talking to him, telling him that heās doing so good, that heās his brotherās favorite boy on earth, that heās the sweetest little thing, that he didnāt mess anything up by being his precious self.
niall nearly blacking out when he comes seconds later because of overwhelm and how fast his heart is pounding and because ruben is coming too and their cum is mixing together and niall knows it should feel gross, but it makes him feel whole, closer to ruben who is being so gentle with him. holding him close throughout the aftershocks and not letting him fall when his legs keep wobbling. niall still being teary-eyed and breathless when ruben cleans them both upāand being too scared to say anything at all because it feels monumental but he thinks for ruben it was just a lighthearted lesson of teaching his baby brother something new. so niall doesnāt expect ruben to cup his blushing cheeks or kiss his forehead and ask if heās all right, acting so concerned. after nodding tentatively, he doesnāt expect ruben to pick him up and carry him home once itās clear heās too tipsy and lightheaded from alcohol and their shared moment in the bathroom to walk on his own. ruben telling anyone who asks at the party that niall just got sick; thatās why theyāre going home. and niall feeling rubenās arms tighten around him, being so protective of him. he tries not to seem so embarrassing but doesnāt want to un-tuck his face from rubenās chest, and ruben doesnāt make him. just carries him out into the cold and checks on him again, now that no one else is around, and kisses his forehead again, soft and sweet.
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Anon this is the first rated G question I've gotten in a long time! My avatar is of the most iconic m/m couple in British soap history, Robert Sugden and Aaron Dingle from Emmerdale. I ran across them on YouTube one day in....2015? Yikes. Immediately obsessed. Like watching it on a dodgy link during my lunch break when I lived in California.
Soap things happen and they broke up when one of the actors wanted to try something new before Covid, but he came back last year. I don't watch regularly anymore because life. Robert Sugden (the blonde one) is a FINE and chaotic bi man and we love him.
Ruben being a 90s raver is so important to me like this guy may be a menace but he loves to get shirtless after taking ecstasy and wait for them to play What Time is Love and tbh itās probably at one of these raves where he kisses Niall for the first time but they pretend to have been too high and never speak of it until it happens again.