★ name: ed/edd/eddieೀ
★ gender: agnostic
☆ about me: 30s, fact sharing autistic, one day i'll be a proud american
★ links: ao3 account, original fantasy work tag, half man age gap au tag, half man next generation au
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☆ likes: international politics, world history, eating the rich
★ personal goals: attempting to write a novel with the intension to get it published, working on a romance fantasy or romantasy story that could be described as a combo of game of thrones and bridgeton, if you're interesting in world building, musing, or being a beta reading, let me know~
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After he got out of prison for attacking Benji, Ruben kept an eye on Niall via a faceless profile on Grindr.
A little thing like being in a (presumably) healthy relationship didn’t magically undo Niall’s need for dick & twinks & muscle daddies & self destruction. Just like becoming a successful writer didn’t stop him from party favours & bathhouses & self destruction.
So every few nights, once his finance has gone to bed, Niall sexts the picless profile of a guy who claims he’s muscular and 6’2” and he lets himself get carried away by the fantasy because even now after everything that he’s done to him and how scared he is of him, he still yearns for Ruben.
Meanwhile across town in a rundown tenement by the railroad line not too far from where Niall’s bedsit used to be, the bedsit HE paid for, Ruben sits in a sparsely furnished room, holding a refurbished iPhone engaging Niall in sexual conversations he knows will captivate him. He wasn’t hard to find, Niall, he was actually surprisingly easy. While it was just torso pic, Ruben immediately recognised the scar from his gut surgery.
And so now he’s here, sexting Niall over Grindr, knowing exactly what buttons to push to draw him further and further in. Collecting information bit by bit to figure out exactly what he can take from Niall after all he’s done.
He jerks to their conversations, they both do. Niall crawls into bed afterward, blissfully unaware that he’s leading Ruben straight to him. And that Ruben will soon have his revenge.
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#CHOMP CHOMP CHOMP#however also loving a world where little weasel rat addict niall gets roped into wearing a wire around big bad mob boss ruben….#<- oho and when he gets caught? (because of course his twitchy ass gets caught)#does big mean mob boss ruben make niall moanscream into the mic for the feds to hear?#half man
*puts this post in a museum* @make-a-desert-call-it-peace @llendemain this seems relevant to your interests
I'm picturing Detective Alby at the police station throwing his hat across the room 😡 they were so close almost had him this time!
#alt version: born to this shit mafia don niall x straight out the slammer hired gun ruben#however also loving a world where little weasel rat addict niall gets roped into wearing a wire around big bad mob boss ruben….#much to consider. let’s get into it playas#half man
this is giving me older!Niall x younger!Ruben, older!Niall's mother is the mob queen and needing him to step up to the challenge and he's not doing well with it, and maybe he is an addict (and maybe he is growing a debt with the rival gang so his queen mum won't find out), and a young!Ruben gets out of young offenders and got himself mixed in with the mob during this time inside, and he is sent to Niall to find a job...and oh boy does Niall find him a job...such to Queen Lori's dismay
as someone who is on the spectrum, I was actually like as a passing thought thinking he might be on the spectrum but i did not want to draw to any conclusions. Only for him to mention it.
So, I'm not going to tag this because Eddie's going to always rant about something or the other, this is ridiculous what I just wrote lol, but I personally feel like Autistic people can find one another like a superpower, and I think YOU ANON have a superpower, so I draw all the conclusions all the times LOL (more specifically when I meet people in person, usually happens at work because I work with a lot of people, lots of co-workers).
ANYWAYS, there's some science starting to happen to start to support this.
Here's an article the University of Edinburgh put out explaining the experiment in more plain text, and here's a link to the scientific article by the University of Dallas.
Basically, they did a study with Autistic people and non-Autistic people and did some experiments with them regarding sharing information in a group of people, similar to the game telephone but with more science. They found that people in groups of only autistic people were able to communicate just as well as groups of only non-autistics, and there was some more issues communicating between mixed groups.
You might have seen some attention grabbing headlines about this, and THE CAVEAT that everyone will/should point out is this was a group of 300 autistic people, SO theoretically for scientific purposes you'd want a bigger group than that BUT this is a rather new study so hopefully it will be recreated a few times to get some more data.
BUT, we are going in a fun direction.
BUT AND now we're on to a quote from Baby Reindeer that I think about a lot, and I read a lot of comments around it that people feel this way and...scientifically, I think we have some information above to account for this.
"It made me this sticking plaster for all of life’s weirdos. This open wound for them to sniff at"
I don't want to take away the things people feel about this, especially victims of SA, but just putting in my two cents. (as someone who's watched the show kinda once years ago because I know people personally who've been in situations so I don't need to watch it on tv alone in my house)
The character implies that his abuse made him open to more abuse, that people can sense it on him, and that is totally valid and true and how that works that yes. But, coming from an autistic creator, I might be that this is not a new feeling for him. With the science above showing that there is something to communication styles, that means that there IS something that does inherently exist that can be exploited by others and this goes directly into my belief that there are a lot more sociopaths out there
Don't really know where I'm going with this, but its just interesting, especially if you consider something like PTSD and abuse and how that relates to the communication situation. Like I said, I hope there are a lot more studies around this topic.
but we need a better worldwide view of mental health. Just like I know people who have SA experience, I know sociopaths, I know sociopaths that don't want to be that way and want to change and should be respected, and I think if we have more scientific and factual information out there to intervene earlier in everyones lives because these things all have explanations, and I say this as a person who has experienced a good bit of visual hallucinations in my life before I was medicated so i just really love some good factual explanation to things
hi, I’m a fun-fact autistic, and in case anyone in the gadd-verse cares, in regards to him acknowledges being on the spectrum, he once get asked about how many takes he does per scene in a some video interview and his answer was in the realm of “I do it [insert his answer] but after that it just gets a little autistic to keep doing it”✌️
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@llendemain this speaks to me of Older!Niall age gap, buuuut also older!Niall addict conning a newly integrated member of the gang young!Ruben into doing him favors is…also lovely ✨
young Niall and older Ruben, where young addict Niall racks up a debt with drug dealer Ruben and doesn’t have enough money pay so he uses his sweet, innocent, virginal body to pay Ruben back
…except Niall is in no way virginal he’s been fucking Gus in secret for years, he got addicted to drugs by been the town bicycle twink in the first place, he just used his big Bambi eyes to trick Ruben and the longer this goes on the more terrified Niall gets and when Ruben finds that out he
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@llendemain oh NO did Ruben’s dad sell him to the mob as a kid to pay off a debt?? And Niall’s mum is a social worker, so she’s probably involved on the outskirts of gang life for a variety of reasons, so Niall and Ruben have seen each other around for years, and Niall had easy access to get his fix in with the mob 👀🫡