Figured it was about time I create a masterpost to pin on my blog.
Name: Kogarashi, Amanda, "hey you"
Editor, (fandom) writer, freelance artist
Multifandom geek and generally crafty jack-of-all-trades (master of none)
~ I Draw ~ I Write ~ I Craft ~
Outside links here, but the most relevant is probably my Archive of our Own page.
You can buy me a cocoa (Ko-fi) if you want to throw a tip my way, and you can buy things with my art on Redbubble (slowly adding to inventory).
I also have a side blog for reblogging art I like, and now a side blog for reblogging other people's fiction.
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Quick links to my OCs:
Castelin Cousland | Aelinn Hawke | Tyria Lavellan | Saadrah Mercar
There are a lot of fandoms I'm in (or at least consider myself a part of, even if mostly on the sidelines). The biggest three would probably be:
Sonic the Hedgehog
Dragon Age
Mass Effect
But you'll find me posting things from other fandoms from time to time. If you followed me for one specific fandom but it seems like my hyperfixation has shifted, if you stick around long enough I'm sure it'll shift back.
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Writing Tips (mine specifically; you can find more under the tag "writing advice")
Art Resources (I may not have every resource post properly tagged for this one, but I did my best)
My fandom headcanons
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I've been replaying Veilguard and it's so interesting to note how, during the time we're still in the Ossuary, Lucanis avoids using Spite's name for the majority of the dialogue: it's always <he / him / we> or "the demon".
And saying stuff like "[sighs] he says he can help" often prompts Rook to ask "who's he?", which is always met with "the demon". It's unhelpful and vague, but it feels very intentional. He's trying to distance himself from Spite. There's a couple of reasons why I see him doing it 🤔💭
To separate himself from Spite down to the existential sense. He's afraid of losing his true self in the corruption, a sentiment that reminds me of that note we find in one of the cells with a "failed experiment":
The act of giving something a name kind of humanizes it, which could be a problem. First of all, he doesn't want to get emotionally attached to Spite, since he wants to find a way to separate them. But the fact of the matter is Lucanis already emphatizes with the spirit.
Talking to him after Spite's "tantrum" proves as much - he says no-one ended up in the Ossuary willingly, not even the demons. You can tell he's conflicted between wanting to get rid of Spite and not wanting to think about it too deeply, because if he does, he might change his mind.
Isn't that why one of the rules in a Nuzlocke is to name everything you catch? Isn't that why sometimes people won't acknowledge what their relationship to each other is? Without a name, it's easier to let it go. Not to mention he can't be caught suddenly ~caring~ about Spite when the other companions (except Emmrich) are still freaked out by him.
So, instead of calling him by name, Lucanis is trying to establish that he's on the same level as his rescuers about this whole "demon" thing. If he started treating Spite like a person, suddenly there'd be doubt about how far along the possession is. Lucanis doesn't need us to find him to be more of an "abomination" than he already is.
I haven't ever chosen Minrathous and I don't think I'd be able to, but I wonder if there's a clear difference in treatment from Lucanis's end...
If you try the Minrathous route, you find out that Lucanis actually cares about Spite very deeply. Something I don't think we get deep enough into during the Treviso route. If you save Minrathous, you don't get the conversation in Café Pietra after saving Caterina and dealing with Illario. Instead, Lucanis has a dialogue with Rook at the fireplace in the Lighthouse.
Lucanis starts the conversation saying,
I've been thinking. Treviso is as safe as we can make it. So when my contract to you is fulfilled, Spite and I will go our separate ways. Literally. I'm going to seek out a way to separate us, wherever that takes me.
Which may initially sound as though he just wants to get rid of Spite no matter what.
HOWEVER!
The dialogue goes some fascinating places...
Rook: And what about the other person in this equation? How does he feel about it?
Lucanis: He dreams of freedom. I've... shared those dreams. He never chose this, Rook. Something must change.
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Rook: If you can manage it, that's a good idea.
Lucanis: It's the only answer. For both of us, and for my family's safety.
Rook: So why don't you sound happier about it?
_
Lucanis: Being possessed... It's not like separating oil and water. Each element permanently infuses the other. Spite wears my face. Uses my skills. I know I've grown stronger, so... Say I cast out Spite, with all he's learned from me. What then? What if I free myself, but unleash a true Demon of Vyrantium?
First of all, I think it's interesting that not only can Lucanis use Spite's abilities to empower himself, he himself seems to have grown physically stronger from their connection, as well. He talks about it as though it's something that could last without their connection, too.
Second of all, he definitely sympathizes with Spite and has very mixed feelings about the idea of their separation.
Anyway.
Rook can be either reassuring and/or doubtful about it.
Rook: A demon who's worked in a team, saved people and made friends.
Lucanis: He'd lose them if I cast him out.
Rook: You keep saying that... like you'd miss him.
Lucanis: He's been part of me. He'd be alone.
Rook: Spite will only be alone if he chooses to be. But you can't control that.
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Rook: You sound like you've still got some doubts. For all you know, Spite comes out with your knack for vanilla-and-nutmeg tarts.
Lucanis: Rook.
Rook: My point is, you don't know what will happen.
Lucanis: I know that Spite - a part of me - would be alone.
Rook: Spite will only be alone if he chooses to be. But you can't control that.
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Rook: If it came to that, you could handle him. Or are you worried you wouldn't be able to put him down?
Lucanis: I worry that I'd... miss him.
Rook: If Spite gets his freedom, it's his choice what to do with it.
The conversation continues:
Rook: All you can do is trust that you're making the right call. For both of you.
Lucanis: (sighs) I know. But from someone else, it's easier to believe.
Hardened or not, Lucanis cares about Spite. He cares about him a lot. He thinks about him with compassion and a great deal of sympathy. He's so concerned about the possibility of abandoning him, leaving him alone, making him experience loneliness. Not only that, he thinks he would miss Spite, as well. What a beautiful development from how we first meet them.
i do think we should normalise being like. platonically enamoured with someone. perhaps i love and admire you dearly and there's nothing romantic about it
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saw a comment that misspelled “kind gesture” as “kind jester” and am now imagining a beautiful world where we praise good samaritans by calling them kind jesters. good on you, you gentle fool. you’ve made the world a sweeter and sillier place.
a fine example: the other day I pointed at a passing shark and, while looking one intern right in the eye, went “Man is that bae or what huh?” and the look on his face was something i will treasure for years
Thanks for the tags, @sorcerousadventurer, @jenn2d2, and @redaresss! Your cow-ified OCs are so cute!
I've been under the weather today, and simple, silly things like this are perfect for the energy levels I've been able to drum up. Here are my DA girls as cows!
Yaps below the cut (I was feeling silly).
Don't let the roses or the lack of horns fool you; Castelin is absolutely the one running the paddock, not Alistair. She's liable to bite anyone who gets too close to her bull, has been known to kick at milking time, and will 100% pick a fight with any cow the farmer tries to match up with Alistair.
Aelinn, meanwhile, is a scrappy thing, leading a bunch of the more rough-and-tumble cows around through the farmer's fields. Yes, she's broken both of her horns in scraps with bulls from other paddocks, but she's really more playful than bitey. Watch out, though; the farmer's pretty sure she's managed to set fire to the barn at least twice just by knocking over a lantern. The farmer was most surprised the day he came out to the pasture to find her dozing with the bull Fenris by the pond, because Fenris is a known biter.
On the other hand, Tyria is the sweetest fluffy angel, and the one that the farmer brings out for schoolchildren to pet. The only person she's ever bitten was a rather rude visitor who had gone on a rant about paving over the farm to put in luxury condos, and frankly the farmer can't really be mad at her for that. She also tends to chase off any other farm animals—cattle or otherwise—that bother her preferred bull (Cullen).
Saadrah is absolutely that one weird cow your grandpa has who's known for getting into strange places like the barn roof, despite her size. There have been at least three (minor!) car accidents on the road that goes past the farm, from people rubbernecking the fact that there's a COW on the BARN ROOF. She's also uncannily good at working doorknobs somehow, and has been found raiding the fridge in the middle of the night or lounging on the couch before. Her favorite bull in the pasture is, of course, the smallest one (Lucanis), and she's the only cow he puts up with. Saadrah did bite one particularly mean woman who showed up with intent to purchase Lucanis for her burger restaurant; the woman demanded Saadrah be put down, but Saadrah disappeared onto the roof with Lucanis somehow and wouldn't come down until the woman had left.
Thanks for the tags, @pixiedurango, @sorcerousadventurer, and @redaresss!
Find 10 images of your type in fictional characters (ocs allowed — yours or others) and show em off and let your mutuals be the judge of character 👀
Yeah, ten ain't happening, but close enough.
Also worth noting, my "crushes" on fictional characters tend to be a bit more in the vein of "I really dig this character and would read shippy fanfic about them with [other character]" rather than necessarily me crushing on them. Though some of these definitely fall into "might say something about me" or "shares traits with my husband which makes sense."
Names and yaps under the cut.
Okay, I'll give you a freebie: the top row look enough like my husband that he's cosplayed one of them before and been my facial stand-in for art references for another. Beyond that...we've got at least two demi guys, and two guys that are voiced by Gideon Emery, and I'm not sure what other trends we've got going here so please, feel free to tell me what you spot. ;)
Alistair Theirin (Dragon Age Origins)
Cullen Rutherford (Dragon Age Inquisition)
The Tenth Doctor (David Tennant, Doctor Who) (honorable mention not pictured: Twelve)
Lucanis Dellamorte (Dragon Age the Veilguard)
Garrus Vakarian (Mass Effect trilogy)
Fenris (Dragon Age 2)
Simon Arish (Control)
Balthier (Final Fantasy XII)
Erend Vanguardsman (Horizon Zero Dawn/Forbidden West)
Ronan Aldwir (Dragon Age the Veilguard, my friend @shadrachanki's Rook)
Sonic the Hedgehog (yes, really)
Edgin Darvis (Dungeons & Dragons: Honor Among Thieves)
Again, not really crushing in the sense of "I want to date them," but rather "I totally ship them with this other character please." Some of them come a little close by virtue of me shipping them with a player character I had a hand in giving personality to (the Bioware ships, really), but still. Not me.
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Okay, but Rook asking Lucanis to promise they aren’t in the fade anymore and Lucanis, who never makes a promise he cannot keep, SWEARS! Like, I see your promise and raise you a DONT YOU EVER DOUBT YOURSELF OR ME OUR LOVE TRANSCENDS THE FADE!
No, because let's talk about it. Not only does he not make promises he isn't certain of, this is a man who is one thousand percent aware of how fallible he and everyone around him is, fresh off multiple weeks of believing he'd never see Rook again, and who often cannot trust his own reality standing on the fact that this moment is real, that Rook is there, and that he's absolutely certain of it all so Rook has something solid to lean on.
Up to that point, Rook's been the one certain of him, the one solid for him, the one pulling him out of the unreality. Not only does he know how he feels, he knows how they're feeling. The grief, the uncertainty, the daunting task ahead of them still. It's not merely an expression of love, it's Lucanis being able to be there for Rook in the same way Rook has been there for him. As a culmination of the romance, it's really very sweet and shows a lot of character growth on Lucanis' part for being able to acknowledge all of these things he would have previously repressed.
...and I'm kind of late on the draw because I didn't even realize until halfway through last week (my dash has been full of late, guys), but I really wanted to write for it like I have the previous two years. So here I am, squeaking in after the first day is already over in my time zone (but late is fine and it's still technically Tuesday in a couple time zones yet).
In my efforts to put more Sonic/Sally fic into the world (because someone's gotta do it), I present:
Forge of Chaos
Rating: G
Ships: Sonic & Sally (pre-relationship)
Setting: my Flesh and Steel AU, which is based on the Saturday morning cartoon with game elements included (and a lot of plot remixing).
Summary: Sonic and Sally discover one of Robotnik's archaeological digs, and assume the only appropriate course of action: find whatever artifacts the dictator is seeking before he does, to prevent him from using them against the Freedom Fighters. This goes double when they discover the artifacts in question are the mysterious and legendary Deep Power Stones, objects of power that can combine to provide great power or wreak terrible destruction. In the wrong hands, they could spell disaster for all of Mobius.
If you're at all familiar with the cartoon, this story is a riff on the "Drood Henge" episode (probably only superficially at this point, but whatever). Sonic and Sally are 14 in this.
Prompt 1: Bright
Something about Robotnik’s latest dig site didn’t sit right with Sonic.
Okay, sure. Most of Robotnik’s dig sites were a problem one way or another. Drilling for a newly-discovered oil reservoir. Mining for more durable minerals for his death machines. Grinding meadows away to build another missile bunker. Scraping out a massive trash pit just because. If Robotnik was poking around in the dirt at all, something was wrong, and where something was wrong, the Freedom Fighters weren’t far behind to try to throw an entire toolbox’s worth of monkey wrenches into things.
But there was something extra “off” about this one.
“Stop squirming,” Sally whispered.
“Can’t help it,” he protested. “My skin itches.” He dragged his fingers through his quills as if to demonstrate.
“Then maybe you should bathe more often.” Sally leveled one of her iciest glares at him.
It didn’t work. Never did. Didn’t stop her from putting on her Bossy Face and trying anyway.
Sonic kind of liked her Bossy Face.
Sonic also wasn’t about to admit that out loud any time soon.
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I know most of my moots aren't into Sonic stuff. That's fine. I'm still tagging you because it's fiction I wrote. ;)
(You can let me know if I should skip you on the Sonic stuff.)
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You, a fool, when characters state different or contradictory things about backstory events or how the world works: This is a plot hole!
Me, wise, enlightened: Not so, neophyte. Have you considered all the exhaustive possibilities in which one of these characters simply has no idea what they are talking about, or better yet, is a fucking liar?
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