Subconscious on File

Dinner tonight was what I'd like to term 'The Heartstopper' ... To make it (from bottom to top) you will need; bread, butter, sauce of your choice, bacon, fried egg, fried bread, fried egg, sausages, sauce of your choice, butter and a final slice of bread ... I'd recommend you only have it once a month, as it will reduce your life by around 5 years - tastes bloody nice though

So, here I am ... Officially at university and I've just finished my first lecture (Contract Law) - believe it or not I'm actually done for the day now, after only a two hour lecture ... At least I thought I was, turns out there's a group meeting with the personal tutor that I have at 13:00PM, which I would have missed had I not randomly asked when I have to meet her. I think my lecture was fun, time certainly dashed past and before I realised what was happening, the tutor was wrapping up early after having got through his presentation a lot early. Still, I took a page and a half of notes - I've also decided that I'm not going to bother with a pen and paper, certainly it comes in handy in case of activities and the like, but for normal note taking I am going to use my iPad and the Pages app (essentially Microsoft Word for Apple), it saves a lot of trees, space, and stops me bumping into my fellow students when my arm moves to write. So, this wasted about 5 minutes, now only got just under 10 to wait for my personal tutor meeting ... And I notice my tutor has just gone into the room, so for now I will say adieu and go wait outside the room so she knows I'm still here.

It's been a while since I've last blogged, I have been extremely busy and I'm guessing what follows will be enough of an explanation. After moving in 11 months ago, tonight is to be the last night I spend at my old mans. After tomorrow I will officially be living with my new roommate - xxxjimsanxxx - in Brownhills. I have to admit I'm really looking forward to it (not sure if he is because I like to annoy him a lot, but he also does the same), not only because we have a good laugh, or I'll be around the rest of my friends (Bud1992, PEANUTFTW and others who don't have an online moniker so I don't want to mention them personally), but because it'll be a step into my maturity, moving away from parents and taking a step on my own. My induction to university is Monday, and then the second part of my enrolment is on Thursday ... And I officially start next Monday. Student Finance sent my birth certificate back today - annoyingly, as Birmingham want a copy of my certificate I had to order a second copy, believing my original certificate would be away, now I have my original back I seem to have wasted the £10 in ordering my second copy ... Although, I suppose at some point in the future I might need a second copy, so it might work out. Not much more news ... I may blog a bit more next week - xxxjimsanxxx is going on holiday for the week and I'll be on my own - no doubt gaming, building and blogging in between my trips to university. So, until then, adieu.

I was going to write this yesterday, but after one hours sleep in 48 hours, I was completely trashed. My Wales trip was yesterday, I got up at 3am and we were out the house by 4am. I had a list of times and places that we arrived at, but all in all it can be summed up like this - 14hours, 370miles all around the north of Wales. I took some brilliant photos that I posted on Facebook and then went to sleep. I only got up a couple of hours ago and am really just chilling out for a while.

Ladies and gentlemen, boys and girls of all ages, it is confirmed - my student finance online form has been completed, giving me way more money than I ever thought I would have (more than enough to cover any bills and still have loads left over) all that needs doing now for that is to send my Birth Certificate via mail to their offices in Darlington and that's all wrapped up. On top of that, my online pre-enrolment for Birmingham City University has been completed, just need to go in now on the 16th September for my induction and then again on the 19th September to complete my enrolment. I still have a small to-do-list to sort out, the main one being that I need a second Birth Certificate - the uni wants me to take it in to my enrolment on the 19th, but it will be with student finance at that time - thus I need a second one. The other thing is to visit the job centre, I have a meeting Tuesday, where I will have to discuss what happens with them, whether I will have to sign off immediately or if I can squeeze another payment to help pay for uni stuff at the start of the term. As far as finances go, I'm okay - not brilliant, but okay. I seem to have just enough coming in to cover my ass, but I have been informed of a possible small loan from the uni just until my finances come through (applying so late, it might be a month or two before the first hunk of cash hits my account). Plus, Kay and the old man mentioned giving me a pre-Christmas cash lump as it'll be more useful now that in a few months (if they still agree to that then brilliant, if not then I'm not too worried). After all my finances are sorted out, I hope I can work on moving out - I have a possible place sorted out with xxxjimsanxxx (two law students under the same roof, imagine that) but if I'm honest I don't want to place too much faith in it - don't get me wrong, if it works out it'll be beyond amazing, but I'm used to disappointment and I know how bad my luck is. Fingers crossed. Anyways ... I think I might go take a nap - me and the old man are going on our Wales trip tomorrow morning, and we'll be up at 3am to leave by 4am ... I know xxxjimsanxxx has been asking why I'm so excited for just a day in Wales, but for me this is something amazing. It's a day it's just me and the old man, I prefer it when it's just us (I feel he's more on my track mentally, so I can relate to him more than most), plus it's driving in the very early hours of the morning, plus my old man drives at crazy speed when it's just us (just to clarify, the faster the cars travelling, the more relaxed I get). In essence it's going to be the most fun I've had with family in over a year. ... ... I'm going to add a bit of an extra ending here, I've always believed that you have two families - the one you were born into, and the one you chose. You will always feel more comfortable with the family you chose, because ... Well, you chose it - each member is there at your request. The family you were born into however, you have aunts and uncles and in-laws and you have no choice at all, they're forced on you and, personally speaking, that makes me uncomfortable. The reason I'm mentioning this, is because hopefully, soon, I'll be moving in with, and around, my chosen family and were it anybody else, I would forget my other family (I really have little care for them, don't hate me, it's just the way I think) ... Except the old man. About four years ago, we had a stupid argument and I walked out, and ignored contact for three years ... Until last year. When I was in trouble, the old man came to help. Despite the lack of contact and the dick way I had treated him, he helped me out - my mother threw me out ... My mother (whatever her reasons) was willing to see me live on the streets - I understand why now, I was thrown out as a bloke on the doll, no job prospects, and a year later I've had multiple jobs (bad jobs, but still jobs), I've got a place on the ladder to one of the hardest careers at university, and I'm ready to live away from parents ... But the fact remains, she was willing to throw me on the streets - and for that, I will never forgive her. I'm thankful to her for the push, but any respect for her is gone, and she no longer exists in my world ... The old man forgave and forgot, he took me in, gave me a home and shelter with Kay and Mia (I've had the distinct impression that neither of them want me there, Mia is no longer the only child and Kay has an extra mouth to look after - but they let me stay) and for that I thank them immensely. Even though they'll probably never see this, it's my thanks to them. My point in this ending is this, I was stuck with my old man, he was forced on me by birth, he's a part of 'that' family ... But if I could, I would choose him again - he's also a part of my chosen fa,ily. I'm off now friends, later

I seriously believed that getting onto my university would be the hardest part ... As it turns out, it's going to be the financing of my new home which I am to be sharing with xxxjimsanxxx that's going to be a bit harder ... Hopefully though, with student finance we should both only be paying about £200 a month on bills and still have enough for about £400 in our back pockets

Quick note here to say that I wasn't offered my HND course - instead I have been offered a place on the LLB ... So instead of going to college for two years and then two at the university, I'll be going to three years at the university. I just have to sort out my student finance, and then after that I should be moving out of my dads and in with xxxjimsanxxx (who is in the second year of the HND). That's the plan at least, there are some deciding factors but we'll see when it comes to it. That's all for the moment - I'm pretty sure we're all going for a drink to celebrate the birthday of a close friend ... If I can get up the energy. Later folks

Well today I got my application forms, RPA form, references and results copies all wrapped up in a nice little email and sent off to the university ... All I can do now is wait for their reply - which is the part I hate the most, I want it done now. Apart from that I've had a slow day today, I did all my clothes washing and got that out of the way, I cleaned up some of my nest (though it'll be a mess soon enough, so it was probably a wasted attempt) - then tonight it's just been me and the little sister, Kay has been at some market research thing in Birmingham. It's quite amusing, when the old man or Kay send her to bed, she throws a hissy fit and refuses to go up, and then constantly comes down the stairs with some excuse ... When it's just me, I take her up, say goodnight and leave - no fuss, and she is completely quiet. It's not her bedtime for another hour, but I told her to go up at half past and then she can play for an hour ... She's up there now, not a peep is being heard. I'm struggling to decide what to do now ... I feel like playing a video game where I have complete and utter control over the lives and creation of a city - something like Age of Empires or The Sims ... Which without a games console I can't, for a few months with any luck. No doubt I'll have a relaxing evening, I have classical music on in the background and I'm thinking of taking a bath soon enough, then I'll probably get a coffee and chill out with a good film ... Maybe I'll try something new so I can post a new review? Hope you're all having a good night

It's the Sutton campus of City Uni :) and yeah - I'll do two days at Sutton Campus and then a day at City, til next year which is the opposite and then third year is just at City Uni

Sorry for not posting for a while, only got back home late last night after spending another week with xxxjimsanxxx ... I swear it'll be so much easier getting onto my uni course, I won't have to keep ferrying back and forth. Anyways, since last posting I've gotten back into playing my 3DS, got xxxjimsanxxx to buy Monster Hunter 3 Ultimate so we can go questing together and make it a bit easier. So I've been playing that, also went out with another friend Bud1992, we went out in a group over the fields shooting and had a good time - then he got locked out of his house and we had to walk around randomly until I got bored and just went back in. The game of Dungeons and Dragons that I posted about last finally got underway, however one level took us about three hours, after about two hours setting up ... It's kind of confusing to start with, but after a few battles you start to get into the swing of things - overall much fun and something I hope we do more of. What else, what else ... I think the only other thing is that I've finally got my university forms, all my results are scanned into the computer, the application form is complete and one reference is done, just waiting on my second reference before I can send it off ... It's still about a week early but I am kind of anxious, I want it to be done as soon as possible so I can stop having to think about it. Anyway, that's all for the moment - no doubt I'll post again some time soon, especially now I'm back home. Hope you're all well

Two years at Sutton Campus and then another two at City - and I want to look into furthering it after that, mayhaps look at getting some kind of PHd ... But four minimum

Birmingham City - with any luck, lol

Probably - I broke up with my fiancée last week, so I don't think I'm that interested in another relationship for a while ... Plus, my law course at university should be sorted out soon and I want to be able to focus on that

Just a quick note, more for myself than anybody else - I noticed as I was taking a bath that the kitten had entered the room ... Nothing surprising there, he's a young child dying to go wherever he can ... So he comes to the side of the bath and jumps up onto the side - which is where things got weird ... Or rather I got weird. I noticed as I was lying there that I had started telling Merlin what I was washing and why - I decided I had to stop when I found myself saying 'this is how we clean our genitals' ... That's all for the moment, I just wondered if I was the only one who does this?