JuiceGremlin

pt.152!!

<pt.151

possibly the first MonstersPost since the start of this au 😭 at long last 🌵

would allison text andrew? no. but☝️i do believe she is a Car Guy hater and has oft been heard saying someone has a car instead of a personality. and, despite his many flaws, she simply cannot make this case with andrew, because if he had no personality then where would he store the disorder

also aware that under No circumstances would dan get in the car with andrew (reread son nefes the other day so my heart is ubercharged with how much they all canonically can’t fucking stand each other. i love it so much and deeply regret that i’ve made them tolerant of each other in this au) HOWEVER. the logic here is that Dan wants to go in the fast car and Andrew doesn’t care if they crash

rare cat appearance!! bc i need to get back on the sunshine grind 💯

We're here to see the Trojans, and then the sun's chilling...

It's really warm!! A little more and there will be a blooming green May

Repost if you want to see a sequel

“They sighed. The stars moved overhead. The world felt enormous, both past and future, with their slender present hovering in the middle.

And then Neil leaves. Neil leaves, and Jean shatters into even more pieces than before. His partner—the one and only bright spot in Evermore's relentless sea of bad—has gone back to the Foxes, a group of people that would never treat someone the way Jean has been treated. Jean has been abandoned, yet again, by the only person capable of being there for him. Kevin got out. Neil got out. They find homes and lives and families while Jean is forced to stay and let Riko beat him into the ground, day after day after day. What makes Jean so different? So unworthy? Why can't fate hand him the same cards?

He watches Neil flourish from behind black walls, watches Kevin grow and heal and thinks why not me? And he's glad they are safe, but Jean can't help it—he wants them back. Wants someone to bear witness to his pain, even if it means putting them in danger. And is that so awful to crave? A partner in punishment? Someone to promise him hope when all he can see is black?

Kengo dies, and what little bit of hope Jean had allowed himself to cling to dies with him.

I am going to die here, Jean realizes, bleeding out onto the dormitory floor. I am finally going to die here.

When he spots Renee, he thinks he has died. Who else would come for him but an angel without wings?

But no, this is real. Jean is alive, and this is real—after years of battering, it is finally his turn to be saved, and it's all because of Neil Josten. Jean may have been left, but he was not abandoned. He was in the back of Neil's mind the entire time. Jean watches from behind the Foxes' safety net as Neil takes Riko's resolve and dismantles it with unforgiving hands, as Neil helps return Kevin to his former glory. Watches as Neil drags Riko's life to a screeching halt. Neil cuts a deal for Jean with the Moriyamas—gives him a place outside of Evermore for the first time since Marseille—and Jean can barely breathe under the weight of himself. It's real, but it doesn't feel like it.