Gennella Shoshicki

https://my.w.tt/oAYs4KhoGbb

https://my.w.tt/5w0lhnpoGbb

https://my.w.tt/3RNXgtcwEcb

Jensen one

https://archiveofourown.org/works/28668336/chapters/70278654

Jared one

https://archiveofourown.org/works/28668090/chapters/70277847

Finale rewrite

https://archiveofourown.org/works/28667490/chapters/70276221

And I said Bob…is there anything you can tell me about the character, directions you’d like to see me go in?

You’re not gonna be one those actors, are you?

Producer: Buzz off

Misha: Okay.

take my cash

where are you from

do you know what apple butter is

So okay, first things first — there are tons of different medications out there for a ton of reasons. They treat different imbalances. If you are taking something that makes you feel like a zombie, it’s not because meds are meant to sedate you. It means you are on the a) wrong dose or b) wrong med entirely. 

There’s a reason 300mg of Wellbutrin works for OP, but a fraction of that made me effectively braindead. There’s a reason Adderall does the trick for me, but would fuck up someone else. Mental illness is jacked up because it’s 600 separate illnesses who all came to the same party in identical outfits. That’s why finding what’s right for you can take a lot of work. 

Treatment is supposed to help you feel like a human being. If the treatment is making you feel less than yourself, it’s the wrong one. Same goes for any doctor insisting you stay on meds that tank your quality of life.

Point the second — the idea that mental illness and creativity go hand-in-hand is a dangerous fallacy that started with romanticized stories of tragic artists. It is true that the coping mechanisms and emotional outpouring that come with mental illness can influence our creativity. But it does not cause creativity.

This mentality is damaging in the other direction, too. I knew a girl with bipolar disorder who was, by her own admission, not a creative person. She would write for fun, but she did not have any strong creative pursuits, and she didn’t feel especially fueled to do so. She said once that she was embarrassed because she “can’t even be mentally ill right.”

It goes both ways. Not only is there an expectation that you will lose your creativity if you look after your mental health, there is a similar belief that mentally ill people are automatically creative geniuses. When in point of fact, we’re probably just more likely to pursue creativity as a form of escapism and venting.

is not the same as

My coworkers to me this morning: Oh, glad to see you're still alive!

Me: After getting stung by wasps?