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Just a reminder that with Percy in btl and tlo it’s not just the possibility of dying, I think he would be ok with that, but it’s the whole deciding the fate of Olympus that has him question staying and distancing himself. Throughout the books Percy has almost no fear of dying, in fact he sometimes wishes he would die. But the choices, being a hero of the prophecy that’s the scary thing. Even Thalia went to be a hunter, partly because of the prophecy, to escape it. So how can we be upset with Percy for also wanting to escape it. With calypso thing, that was about escaping the prophecy, not choicing between Annabeth or calypso. Since the titan’s curse he had this pressure of being the hero, a leader, which something he never wanted. Dying is easy, but living? making a choice knowing it will change the lives of your loved ones forever? That’s the scariest thing I can think of. His mom, Annabeth, Grover, Paul, his dad, every demigod, every god, every person, every being would be affected by his actions and choices. So can we please move on from this conversation, and give this kids some slack because yes it was his decision not to pass it down to Nico, but does that not give him the right to not be scared? to want to run away? he would never let someone else suffer in his place, but that doesn’t mean that he wants to face that decision.. And when on the island, he had no doubts about leaving. It wasn’t until he was told that half a million people got evacuated and he exploded a mountain that he started to question whether he should go. And after he was told that Annabeth is alive and would be told what happened to him after his choice.

But I know. I think it was me.

In my defense I never intended to start a rumor. Many years ago I worked as a cleaner at the school and one evening I had to transport one of those big floor washing machines from the basement to the second level via the elevator. When the doors opened a very confused looking man stood inside. He was one of those slicked back gym-bro IT guys and made no movement to get out. The elevator wouldn’t fit him, me and the machine so I asked “Where are you going? Up or down?”

He gave me a smug shit-eating grin and said “Down?” in a mocking tone.

It took me a second to realize that of course he wasn’t going down, we were in the basement, but his look and tone annoyed me so much I refused to admit I misspoke and instead said “Yeah, down. I don’t know if you’re going to the second basement”

His smile disappeared “There’s a second basement?”

“Yeah but it sounds like you don’t have access to it so I guess you’re going up? I’ll just wait”

I never thought of it as anything other than a funny story to tell about that time I got so annoyed with a guy that I invented an entire second basement, but it turns out he probably refused to believe a cleaner fooled him and the story spread.

i want andrew opening the door to the mas for neil, andrew holding the door to edens open for neil before letting go and following--letting the steel slam in the face of kevin who was close behind the redhead.

i want andrew gifting neil things that he knows neil likes, or that reminds him of neil. i want neil finding fox-related items he's never bought in his clothes. i want there to be a speckled orange ash tray on the balcony when neil comes back from classes on a random day.