Miles to Go Before I Sleep

I wanted so much more of that character, ugh.

Yet, as I go through therapy, I've started to find myself rewatching those shows as I revisit that time in my life. Seeing them differently. Enjoying them more.

I have this moment every time I rewatch Supernatural (every few years) in episode 5 (Bloody Mary kills killers) where the last girl's "bad deed" in my mind is not that her boyfriend threatened to kill himself and she left and he did and she blames herself. My memory always says in this story that she had an abortion and that's why she was being punished. She "killed" her "baby"

I do not feel this way. I didn't feel that way then.

Every single time, I forget what actually happens, and I almost skip the episode because I don't want to support a "pro-life" agenda. And then I watch it, and I'm like, oh? is this always how it went? Did they change it somehow? Refilm due to fan outrage?

But, that's not the storyline. That was my mother's prediction seeping into my thirteen year old head to take root, forever staining the episode.

yes, i am rewatching the show....again