I donāt expect anyone to read this but Iāve been having a hard time lately and I just feel like screaming into a void or something and this is the next best thing.
So I live with my grandparents because they live really close to uni and dorm fees are high so yeah. It was nice and loved living with them but in April my step-grandpa filed for divorce in April because he didnāt want to deal with my family anymore ( my disabled uncle who is totally bedridden who lives with us, my mom and dad and brother who do not live with us but come over all the time because I lived there and grandma is my dads mom) because my parents ate his food when they came over and when ever they had a hard time with my dadās social security and or disability checks my grandma helped them and he hated that, so when he got a job in another state he packed up all his stuff when he moved there and the plan was he move to Colorado and make big money and give my grandma money to take care of the bills here, but one Saturday morning in April he calls my grandma and says āhey I filed for divorce yesterday.ā And this shit was out of the mother fucking blue. He told my grandma I love you when they talked on the phone the day before and said nothing about the divorce at all until that Saturday morning. Fast forward to June/ July. Instead of taking the time to take care of her self and figure out who she was outside of marriage and kids and stuff, she started online dating. At first I thought she was just going to use it as way of getting over him, she falls for some guy she met on Facebook dating. At first they talked on the phone then they FaceTimed and shit like that. That lasted for a couple of weeks then she went to meet him irl to go on a date. Then he came over and stayed the week. Why a week? Because the fucker doesnāt have a car or job just a small disability check. I was cool with it a first. They only did this every other week because she would take him back where he lived which was like 2 hrs away on the weekends and then when my grandma got off work that Friday she would go get him and so on and so forth. But recently with out me knowing he moved in. I wasnāt asked it just happened. I donāt know this guy and I pretty much stay in my room because Iām not comfortable around new people, and it takes me a little bit before I do. He walks around without a shirt and he doesnāt look good okay he kinda looks like the principal guy from grown-ups 2. And he recently got a new tv and sound bar. This sounds like itāll be awesome but my room is right next to the living room and the dude is deaf as fuck like only one ear works. And my wall is thin and my bed is right next to the wall that is shared between the living room. I try not to say anything during the day because I usually play games at my computer and watch tv, but at night I want to sleep. I have to go to bed at 9pm because the fall semester starts next week and I have to get back on my sleep schedule, so last night I asked him, can you please turn it down so that I can sleep, and afterwards he exhales, like like clearly pissed him off and I shit you not this was his face š . So that pissed me off. The dude doesnāt usually go to bed until 11:30 PM and even though I asked him to turn it down I could still hear it/ feel it so I couldnāt go to sleep until midnight or so and I had to get up at 5 am to practice my sleep schedule. So Iām tired yāall. And as of right now 8 am heās in there watching tv on high volume and I canāt say shit because this morning I told my grandma what happened last night and I had her talk to him about it and his response was ā she acts like she the Queen of Sheba, ( because of the tv) and at first he was told that he has to keep the tv down when the semester starts because she has homework but rn she has no homework. ā And I apparently talk to him with a condescending voice. Iām like wtf does that matter if I have home work or not. I just want to be respected and I want to be able to sleep rn but I canāt because Iām a bitch. Like what is it with men that when women do or say anything that isnāt what they want were automatically called a bitch?!? Iāve tried to be respectful but how respectful can I be when Iām sleep deprived?!?!






















