Here, there, everywhere.

I was thinking about Jord the other day and realized that there's a certain similarity between his situation and Laurent's in Ravenel that helps make more sense of Laurent's reaction when Jord shows up to beg for Aimeric.

On the one hand, we have Jord, who loves Aimeric and tries to protect him, even after learning that he killed his old and dear friend Orlant.

On the other hand, there is Laurent, who has fallen in love with Damen despite knowing that he killed his beloved brother Auguste.

At this point, Laurent is ashamed and angry with himself for falling in love with his brother's killer. He probably feels that by letting Damen kiss him (and enjoying it, despite the tension) he is betraying Auguste's memory. And then Jord shows up, expressing concern for the well-being of his friend's killer. And all the hatred Laurent feels towards himself (along with his fear that Damen's feelings are not real, but a trick to get what he wants from him) is redirected towards his former captain. Evidence:

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Furthermore, it is interesting how Jord's plea resembles Laurent's in KR. And how the motivations Jord attributed to Aimeric are, in fact, true for Damen.

P.S.: It's a shame Orlant never got to see Akielos. He would have loved it. 😢💔

Pile 1 - Pile 2

Pile 3 - Pile 4

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Things that will happen between day 1 and 28 of June. Or, what will happen in the next 4 weeks?

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Pile 1

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Most people in this pile recently took their braces off. Or are just in the process of getting braces.

Most people here have superficial goals . Me: Before anyone gets into their feelings … superficial goals are goals related to your looks, maybe your ambition, that are not necessities (like starting a side hustle or even a business), or going on a trip. But you know that essential goals need to be achieved before superficial ones, even if you are not that excited about them; example: moving (shelter) or taking care of your health (remember, babe, dentist before lip injections) because those are related to an inevitable sector in your life , that you need to be able to survive.

You may be environmentally conscious regarding a lot of things. You dont give money to fast fashion, you dont give into consumerism, you are very politically aware, and I can go on and on.

Hangover.

Funny enough, letting loose is the recommended thing in your pile. We often advise the spiritual community to cut off any and every distraction, but at the end of the day … life needs to be enjoyed. That's my opinion. We are not meant to be perfect humans (Me: I have a whole manifesto about how the search for perfectionism in humane morals is one of the main reasons in our inevitable self-annihilation  …anyways. Let me not bore you. ). I believe if our soul took the incarnation of humans, something so carnal is because we were meant to enjoy it. We are meant to give in to a certain extent and let go of radical shame (I precise : RADICAL SHAME (Shame is still necessary for so much more than just the illusion of peace. It is also a means essential for our safety). We have been flawed since the beginning, and I don't believe that is the search for perfection that shall serve us.  Instead taking a moment and studying the extent of good and bad that live in us. Therefore, creating a world that is a reflection of our beings. If I ‘’I think, therefore I am’’ .Then shall it not be better than to just die , than to forever torment myself about what I am. Anyways, all this to say that Plato won't like me much, but that ain't nothing new. They tend to enjoy little boys over grown women anyways… What I understand for you is to stop trying to aim for perfection to fill a void that does not exist to begin with. Rather, try to understand how such  void was even created in your life. Why are you scared to be too much of anything ? Too loud, too sexy, too demanding, too critical or even too happy. Instead, find joy in all the ways you are too humane (too flawed). Love the fact that you are too sensitive, love the fact that you are too curvy , love the fact that you laugh too loudly to be considered ladylike, or even love the fact that motherhood doesn't interest you. Do not let your unorthodox soul take away the stamp of womanhood out of you . Let the patriarch go. There's nothing we can do as a collective (women) that can ever be enough for the system  (if only some women realize there's no winning in that system, I BELIEVE (PERSONAL ) that we would have been way further in our fight).

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Write

Don't forget to leave a mark. The way to bring our ideas alive is to mark them down. Is the first step ever to bring whatever we can't seem to fully grasp into our understanding. Maybe it is time to journal, maybe it is time to actually take notes  with pen and paper at school, or maybe it is time to show gratitude in love letters and poems. Text your people, letting them know how much u love them.  Allow freedom to be given to you in a form of writing. Don't be ashamed to let out everything you feel in the digital form of a diary if needed. Don't run away from the conversation of your thoughts because of perfectionism, because such a thing is a burden to the human mind. Also, giving yourself the freedom to fully exist and having even the smallest proof of existing (writing) is so liberating to the soul. You don't believe me … try it !

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Virgo in Uranus

There's a fight in you to become annoyingly knowledgeable and simultaneously serve society in an ultimate way : motherhood. One part of you wants to celebrate single women within you, a master of science no matter discipline. Craving the idea of having your own research and owning a PHD in your respected field because you have a genuine thirst for knowledge. Living alone, practicing your spirituality and embracing your womanhood to the rhythm of Sade music. While another side of you want to be pregnant, have a husband and most importantly be a mom. Enjoying the gift of giving and creating life in the most humble way. Watching the very form of love between your partner and you,  running around the house he built for you away from the city. Watching your kids becoming their own little selves is one of the most exciting things for you. Being forever grateful that those souls gave you the great honour of allowing you to guide them. With the cards laying a font of me … your spiritual team or whatever you believe in; even your higher self is telling you … you have time. You don't have to choose; you have time to enjoy both. Believe me, babe, right now, you can  follow your  first oath with no fear in your heart. One day you will get bored with such a lifestyle, which aint wrong. It will be just signalling that you want something different, and life will allow the second novel to begin after the ending of the first one smoothly. Isn't it great to be a modern woman and have the right to exist in our multifaceted ways ?

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Take a deep reset.

You are also asked to maybe put money on the side to invest in some kind of spiritual resort. Some of you dream of enjoying the forest of Japan. Then put it in your bucket list because there's going to be a big difference in your perspective after accomplishing such an event. Otherwise you may want to backpack your way into Europe … do it. There's a lot of growth that is going to find you there.

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PS: Throughout this whole reading, I wanted to write softness everywhere. Especially about stuff that you have never tried yet . Don't worry, babe, trial and turbulation are something of your past. If you remain intentional, then even the hardest heartbreak shall be kind to you.

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PILE 2

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You have to accept being a hoe. Nah, dont leave me out here; I just have a natural habit of vulgarizing my thought process. What I mean is that there's a reason hoes end up having it all in life. Is it because they are selfish about it? In a world where society forces women into submission in many forms (me: you would be surprised that everything and I MEAN EVERYTHING is built to force us to submit) where shame is the punishment for those who won't bend a knee… You decide to fuck shame in the ass and spit it on anybody that thinks you shall be more ‘’womenly’’ in your own way. In this pile I am sensing a lot of bimbo babe and hyperfeminine one. You are selfish, you do everything for your highest interest and don't give a fuck about the rest. Why ? BECAUSE YOU FUCKING CAN. Who is going to check you if you don't pay them the time of day because you are way too obsessed with the babe in front of you. To worry about what the next bicth think of you. In a way, you are like New-York ( Tiffany Pollard ) but in a much more classy way. You are very charming and delicate in appearance, but lord are you a smart, cunning bitch under all that. In your case, you are a wolf in sheep clothing, and I LOVE THAT FOR Y’ALL.

You are young and turnnnnnnnnnnn. A lot of people don't understand that there's protection in being turned. Is going to save you from becoming a bitter bitch in the future. Most older women that hate you for no reason are bicthes that live for validation and just realize how much of themselves they have wasted. While you are living it up and having the same opportunity as them. That's why they are so livid. Anyways … BOW ! BOW ! BOW ! IS THAT BOOTY MEATTTTTTTTT!!!!!!

Unconventional hobbies

Before I even dive into dissecting the message, I heard : ‘’BUT IM SCAREDDDDDD’’. Girl, if you dont pick your head up and do what your soul seeks… don't piss me off. You were off to an amazing start ! Some of you want to pick up witchcraft but are scared to be disrespectful to people's culture or, even worse, to deities and be turned into a frog. You are scared that by giving in to the occult, you fuck it up and instead of giving yourself 10 years of extreme luck. You curse yourself to 10 years of bad acne. Listen to me, first take whatever you see on the damn tiktok with a grain of salt. Practice first protection over and above any fucking thing. I am not joking, mama, PROTECTION FIRST; big booty spell second ! Pick up a damn book and take a stroll in your spiritual shop. Ask them for advice; they shall know more. Tumblr before tiktok, repeat after me; Tumblr before tiktok. You shall be fine. Other of you is heel dancing. You don't want to look dumb … everybody looks dumb before they try any fucking thing. Is the whole point of learning. Is to look less dumb. Another is a more nerdy hobby, maybe collecting figurines or getting into cosplaying. I know nerdy people are not the most friendly and often can be awful human beings (there's an easy link between nerds and red pill content), especially if you are a pretty woman. Heck, men have been hating on pretty women since the beginning of time. You shall be damn that you would let them stop you from enjoying the fruits of YOUR money. Fuck them and their daddies .

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Enjoy your isolation.

Sorry babe, when looking at the card I dont see crazy community. Maybe you are not close, or you are no longer in contact with your family, and I can confirm it may forever stay like that. There's no effort on their end to try and understand you. Also, you don't have it in you anymore to betray yourself to please them … soooo focus on your love (Me: Swear , the song my love is all mine from Mitski started playing in my mind). Instead of crying over everything you never receive and being saddened over everything you have given. Rejoice in everything that is yours, is not because some could not appreciate the love that you gave that is not worth celebrating. It’s still all yours and all good. So it's still sooo worth it.

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EAT WITH ENTHUSIAM

When I was dissecting your message, a light message of ED came through, but I let it go.  But here she goes   again. Babe, don't let the happiness people project on you stop you from eating. I know people give more respect and dignity to the slim one, but starvation can not be your solution. Because you can’t allow people's approval to be more important than the peace of your mind and soul . The bitches are always going to hate or find a way to project their insecurity, but you owe it to yourself to let their ego stay outside your bedroom. Don't let their bad thoughts follow you in your dreams. They ain't worth all that space in your life. On the other hand, food addiction is a real thing … I know, you know,  little mama; running away from this reality isn't the solution. Food can kill but should not. Stop the crazy diet; you are killing yourself even more. Go get help, talk to the therapist, because the trauma you are hiding under all that food deserves a better outlet. I know there may have been a moment in your life where you could only control what was in your plate, but you are not that girlypop anymore. Honour your scars and go get the balm they need. Let the little girl in you finally speak to you. You may not believe it anymore, baby, but you deserve to be here as much as anybody. Even though the mirror doesn't reflect it, you deserve health and happiness, but for that you shall free yourself from shame. I know it is hard, but if you have survived everything that happens to you. Then you have it in you to find empathy for yourself. Because there's a time for strength to survive. Then comes a time for empathy that brings healing that you are seeking very much.

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Allow yourself to hold close to your heart your dearest thing.

You keep everything at a distance. As if just the fact that you are touching it is going to spoil it. Or anything good ain't worth being around you because you will end up fucking it up, like you always do. In your case, you would forever choose dying over talking. You are so sure you must be the reason for all the evil around you. Not because you are wicked, but since all you know is evil and everything that happened was some kind of abuse, you don't think any good can be yours to enjoy. In a way, it is a form of protection, because before it can destroy me, I shall run very far away. But babe you also deserve a shelter. You cannot have a fever on the run. You will die running away from anything and anyone, full of regrets. I am not going to tell you what to do because whatever you have been through is yours and yours truly. All I am asking you to do is to find a shelter. Allow yourself the benefit of the doubt that it shall be different. I am not going to tell you to put trust into new habits or new perpectives, but please find shelter in the things that comfort your heart. I think that can be a good beginning. Just a first step, not just for me but for the peace you seek so much and deserve as much.

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PILE 3

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Babe, ain't no way you are still hanging on that damn breakup. Nah, I don't want to hear it. Let me tell you how to get over a men … HAIR DONE ! You need to give in to that damn self-care. Do that crazy hair colour you always wanted. Let’s change the energy that your hair may hold. Get your lashes done, get your nails done and swing your hips when you walk. Fuck, you need to stop looking like everything you been through. For sure, you can't move on; every time you look at your damn reflection, you still look like the bitch he left behind. Your reflection should be the baddest bitch he could NEVA have ! You heard me ! Then get into the damn GYM! It is about to be March (July (now…lol))  and you already forget all about your January goals. Mama, it ain't right. A little bird said they haven't seen you anywhere near the gym except for activating that membership. Girl, don't make me slap you through the damn screen … now. GET YOUR DAMN MONEY UP ! You've been saying you want that promotion, but u stay calling in sick.  Clocking  in late and looking funny at work. Nah, I am sorry but I have to grab you by your damn edges ( You: Nah sis, you were way nicer with the other pile. Me: *SLAP* Nah you playing with my damn time. Pile 3, you ain't got no big issue; you just want to act like a damn bird. Enough, I don't see you flying around so stop with the embarrassing birdy personality … While you are at it, instead of pissing my big booty up, go get Mariah the Scientist over here; I got a couple words for her. Since y’all want to be in the same damn club. )

If necassay than let the necessary occur; post the new fucking arm ! If after all this you ain't over than bicth is time for some new dick. I am serious in your case because you are spending wayyyyyy too much time in your damn sadness that is affecting your blessings so much. You have no idea. Babe, you were supposed to be on a whole other level by now, but nah, you still hook on some old dick. I know your mama ain't gone through 24 hours of labour for you to still be hooked on some damn ex (Everyone (even your spiritual team) : (whisper) Damn, she ain't going to let her go … y’all let's leave quietly  before she catches us).

Connect with Gaia.

In your case, I dont very have anything to dissect with this message. Is quite literal. You have to find a way to create a link with her because she has a very important message for you. She is also related to the womb in your case. I may be understanding that you may have had an abortion because you were not in the relationship you wanted to welcome the kid. Maybe it hurt you because you really wanted your baby, but you did not want to burden the baby with such a bad father. There's a message related to your womb that she has for you regarding your situation.

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Venus in Scorpio

You need to start dealing with people that are as crazy and obsessive as you. You aint wrong, friend, I understand what you tried to do. Since you are so intense, you try dealing with people that are more chill or even nonchalant. Not because you want to change them, but for them to calm the crazy girl in you down. That aint the solution to your issue but the very reason for it. You are sacred if the women you may become if you let the crazy women in you become. I am not just talking about love. You have a very taboo personality. Things that inspire you and intrigue are very taboo topics in society. Instead of allowing a safe space for your desire to be met you prefer killing them because in your mind you must be crazy to even want that to begin with. Instead I see you become a real life Mortica Gomez in your own very way. I think the issue is that you don't know how to safely create the space for you to exist (Me: Argh … I got to shuffle some more in the middle of writing. You better not tell me I don't love you …).

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I got the 5 wands (reverse), which means compromise, harmony and conflict resolution. What I am understanding is that you need to stop trying to prove to the girly pop that they are wrong. You must just admit that they are right. Maybe you grew up in a religious household. Where they predicted that you were going to fall into the sin of homosexuality, or promiscuity and enjoy talking with other spirits that ain't the Holy Spirit. What's even more fuck up is that they preach that on you when you were nothing but a little child. Not only to terrify you but also to isolate you. So you spend most of your life fighting the allegation, but here you are reading a tarot reading. Here you go messing with men when you are only really attracted to women. Fuck, you DO enjoy the bliss of a good orgasm ! Some of you, they don't even deserve your forgiveness because they put so much shame upon you that you end up hating your guts. Ready to live forever as the ghost of yourself because people could not accept you in your truest form. The only way for safety is acceptance. Damn, which makes me think I would love to see a Mortia X Mortica couple Halloween costume. Lesbians, it's time to step y’all cookie up; the fans are yearning.

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Practice safe sex

Mama, a little birdie told me that you may have some adventurous sex. Maybe a little unicorn moment or even a 3some with your bff and a random man at the club. Look at you all blushyyyyy. Stay protected, stay tested and make sure your boundaries are respected. Is time for you to let your grown body enjoy grown people activities.

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Unlock the throat chakra.

Enough with that shyness ! Speak up ! Nah really babe… Bitches in the street are saying you ain't doing enough. They are also saying that they don't remember you because you ain't nothing to remember, just a very basic ass bicth. Friend, you going to let them … That's what I thought ! They done disrespect you … so now is time to be overly damn LOUND ! Since bitches wanna act like they need that ! GIVE IT TO THEMMMMMMM. Is time to be over the top. Is time to gag the bicthes with all your wins. Post that new body, post that new arm, post that new job, post that new style and let none of the bicthes slide. Anybody that tries you, gets slapped. The issue with you is not that you are shy because you don't know what to do. You are shy because you won't allow yourself to do what needs to be done. Fuck you are a grown women, so why are you acting like you're still in a child's place? Time to use that grown privilege and remind bicthes that respect goes both fucking ways! Don't be ashamed of your voice. Some of you may have a raspy voice, and you don't want people to make assumptions about you because of it. Fuck the assumptions, mama ! Is better to have respect than to worry about reputation. At the end of the day, the girls are always going to find something to say, but let them know that you don't play about your self-respect.

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marble bust studies but capri style based on sculptures that i saw in milan back in feb

see my photo ref + sketch from the museum under cut :]

Quick little Lamen sketch I did for a fanfic I've been writing where they (finally) marry in Akielos.

Needed to draw Damen on a chunky horse as well, after all the ones I've done for Laurent.

Pile 1 Pile 2 Pile 3

𓂃𓂃𓂃𓊝𓂃𓂃𓂃𓊝𓂃𓂃𓂃𓊝𓂃𓂃𓂃𓊝𓂃𓂃

Pick any one picture that you are drawn to, from left to right. This is my first pac reading and it took a lot of time, energy and effort. Take what resonates and leave what doesn't. 𓂃𓂃𓊝𓂃𓂃𓂃𓊝𓂃𓂃𓂃𓊝𓂃𓂃𓂃𓊝𓂃𓂃𓂃

Pile 1:

Cards pulled: 3 of wands, ace of swords, 2 of swords

The message from your spirit guides is that it’s time to take action. You need to stop procrastinating and delaying things any further. Your mind is full of plans, ideas, and ambitions, but you often find yourself putting them off or waiting for the perfect moment to begin. Spirit wants you to know that the right time is now. You already possess the strength, courage, honesty, and inspiration needed to turn those ideas into reality. Trust in your abilities and have confidence in the gifts you have been given. The opportunities you seek will not come from standing still—they will come from taking that first step forward. Come out of your shell and show the world how worthy, capable, and talented you truly are. Do not hide your potential or allow self-doubt to keep you from shining. Many opportunities are waiting ahead of you, so do not be afraid to speak your mind, share your ideas, and express yourself authentically. Now is the time to use your voice and allow yourself to be heard.

Focus on the ideas, concepts, and projects you are currently working on, and prioritize your own growth instead of constantly worrying about others. While caring for people is important, spirit encourages you to invest more of your energy into your own goals, dreams, and personal development at this time. It is also time to look at the world from a different perspective. Be open to new ways of thinking, learning, and approaching situations. By doing so, you will place yourself in a stronger position to embrace success, achievement, and victory. Do not listen to people who try to make themselves feel superior by putting you down. Their opinions do not define your worth. Distance yourself from toxic environments, unnecessary negativity, and individuals who drain your confidence or discourage your progress. Learn to stand up for yourself and protect your peace. In some situations, the wisest choice may be to take a step back before making an important decision. Give yourself the time and space needed to gain clarity, trust your intuition, and move forward with confidence. The path ahead is opening for you, but it requires courage, self-belief, and a willingness to take action..

Pile 2:

cards pulled: 6 of swords, wheel of fortune rev, 10 of swords rev

The spirit says that now is the time to move on from anything that no longer serves your highest good. Let go of old patterns, unhealthy habits, and people who drain your energy. Focus on healing yourself and your inner child, and allow that healing to guide, strengthen, and support you throughout your journey. The difficult times are almost over, so hold on a little longer and trust yourself. You are on the verge of becoming the best version of yourself, but first, you must be willing to help yourself, embrace change, and welcome the growth that lies ahead. Right now, you may be surrounded by people whose energy brings negativity, misfortune, or unnecessary burdens into your life. These draining influences may be causing you to forget your true worth and drift away from the path that is meant for you. Be mindful of who you share your thoughts, feelings, and dreams with. Not everyone who wears a kind smile has good intentions at heart, and not everyone deserves access to your energy.

This is not the end of your story. There is still hope, light, and new opportunities waiting ahead on your path. Once again, spirit encourages you to release the regrets, mistakes, and decisions of the past. There is no need to carry those burdens any longer. The lessons have already been learned. It is time to let go, move forward, and step onto a brighter path. Pick yourself up, believe in your strength, and begin again. A new chapter is waiting for you—one filled with healing, growth, self-discovery, and the potential for a brighter future.

Pile 3:

Cards pulled: King of wands, the chariot, the devil

You possess strong leadership qualities. Use those strengths to inspire, influence, and help the people who look up to you. Trust in your ideas and use them to create opportunities for both yourself and your peers. Stay true to your word and remain committed to your moral values. Do not allow negative influences or people with poor intentions to drain the discipline, integrity, and principles that make you who you are. Protect your energy and stand firm in what you believe is right. Show respect to those who genuinely respect and support you, as they will be a valuable source of guidance and assistance throughout your journey. Try not to become overly perfectionistic and neglect your creativity in the process. Trust that what you do is already more than enough. Your efforts and abilities have value, even when they are not flawless.

There may be challenges ahead, but do not allow them to hold you back. Stay steady, disciplined, and patient. If you continue moving forward with determination, the obstacles preventing you from achieving your goals will gradually fall away, leading you toward success and victory. Stop becoming so obsessed with making everything perfect that you forget to examine the root of the situation. Take the time to understand the deeper causes behind your struggles rather than focusing only on the outcome. Spirit also encourages you to let go of habits, addictions, or attachments that no longer serve your highest good. These patterns may be holding you back and preventing you from moving forward. Sometimes you wonder why things are not going your way, yet the answer may lie in the very behaviors or mindsets that need to be released. Look closely at the cause of your challenges. Ask yourself what it is that you have been unable to resolve, what needs to change, and what lessons still need to be learned. Do not focus only on the big picture—pay attention to the small details as well. Often, the key to overcoming a major obstacle can be found in the smallest adjustments and realizations..