halonic rage

“I’ve only ever heard words like ‘fate’ and 'destiny’ used to justify unimaginable cruelty. People used to tell me all this suffering 'was for the best’, encourage me to do nothing about it all- I don’t believe that anymore.”

[ cw: vague description of sex acts, sad horniness ]

[ a loose followup to this and this ]

[ @throughthemanorwindow​ @janijaire​​ @redmatches​​ @atomicdeke​​ ] 

“Ishgard may be a closed-minded, backward city at times, but the opera is a place for those with talent to shine. Muscular or not, you would look gorgeous gracing the stage.”

yeah, okay. they never let me be a soloist, she’d told her, and her estimate of when the regretful text shows up is off by bells. of course they don’t want her, and she’s a stupid bitch for not snapping this idea in the elezen’s hopeful throat the second she voiced it. theater mirrors a city. ishgard’s soul is shit.

but so is radz-at-han’s, where they fucked her in character. only in character - 

Yeah so um I decided to make an oc ask meme based around angst. Some of these I came up with myself, others are from other ask memes and I just picked the angsty ones so here goes:

1. What’s one experience your character had that made them very afraid?

2. Does your character have a deep and/or dark secret? If so, what is it?

3. Have they ever lost a loved one? What happened to them, and are they the same as they were before they lost them?

4. Has your character ever been hurt or betrayed by someone they thought they could depend on? What happened?

5. Would they ever turn on someone they just met in order to save themselves?

6. Have they ever committed a crime, or something they felt was wrong? What was it?

7. If your character was allowed to murder one person without any consequences, who would it be and why?

8. Does your character have any enemies? If so, who and why?

9. Is the character a victim of abuse?

10. What were the character’s parents like? What was the affect the parents had on the character?

11. What are your character’s coping mechanisms?

12. Do they like to suffer? Like to see other people suffering?

13. What does it take to make your character cry?

14. What is your character’s biggest relationship flaw? Has this flaw destroyed relationships for them before?

15. What is their biggest fear? What in general scares them? How do they act when they’re scared?

16. What are your character’s vices and bad habits?

17. Is your character afraid of death? Why/why not?

18. Would society call your character a good guy or a bad guy? what would they say they are?

19. What is your character insecure about?

20.  What was something they struggled with greatly and how did they overcome it?

21. Does your character have anyone that they really care about, to the point that they would give their life for them? If so, who are they and what is your character’s relation to them? If not, do they wish they did? Is there anyone they wish they could build such a relationship with?

22. If they could change just one thing about themselves, what would it be?

23. Is your character more physically or emotionally strong? Why is this?

24. What is your character’s most important possession? Why?

25. Do they find that they care what others think of them? Or do they not really mind how others view them?

26. What, in your character’s life, puts the most pressure on them?

27.  What would be the worst way to die, in your character’s opinion?

28. What is your character’s greatest strength?

29. What is their weapon of choice, and what weapon do they dislike using the most?

I'd read so many stories about you and I'd imagine you were here. That I was by your side.