Just. The lengths to which you have to go to untangle TV World enough -- a Dark World specifically made of Kris' thoughts and feelings and memories and intentions -- just to get here. The way it feels so tamped down into this small, inoffensive space, how it's so much simpler and unlike anything else you experience, and yet stepping in here strips Kris of their armor. Leaves them uniquely vulnerable in a way no Dark World has done before or since thus far -- not even the rest of this one which is marinated in the messy aftermath of something much more complicated, much more violent, and also so painfully familiar. How the Flying Aces all talk over Kris here while assuming things about them that were never said. How The Literal Actually Called That Egg Man leads them in circles and if they say just the wrong thing the conversation ends before getting the egg, almost as if he's uncomfortable broaching the topic of eggs For Some Reason. How halfhearted the non-men sign feels compared to everything else.
It feels like a secret buried deep in the bedrock of Kris, to them a horrible and terrible truth they did not want to confront, did not want anyone to see, but they cannot remove and cannot truly escape.
This is it. This is how it feels. Add on the dissociative perspective and abilities of the player and I don't know how this can possibly be anything else except precisely what I experienced as a child, saddled with and fumbling dominant societal roles I never asked for and can't understand. This is the thing that kept me awake at night and caused me unending misery, hollowed me out and blasted away at my surface until there was nothing left but rubble, haunted me like a banshee. And yet felt like I could say nothing about because how could it possibly be that something this simple was one of the major causes of my grief?
It's maddening to me that this has gone largely undiscussed for two full months. Even if we had people reading it in the equal and opposite direction from me that would at least be engaging with what these rooms are clearly about and I wouldn't feel like I'm in a room with people who all decided to talk without using the letter E before I showed up.
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