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Yknow how Endos are always trying to force their way in to traumagenic only spaces? Like why do you, as a "non disordered system" need to be in a space specifically meant for disabled people?
And now suddenly its "Some of us are disordered too! We're endogenic but still a disordered system!"
Its literal hate group type shit. its a slippery slope. "Let us in!" "No, this is for disabled people. you have your own spaces." "Fine! Some of us are now disordered just not traumagen!" "... What-" "LET US IN YOU FAKERS, ENDOGENIC IS A DISORDER AND YOU'RE BEING ABLEIST!!!" "Also DID isn't real the only systems that exist are us endos uwu"
They're not fucking subtle. They started as a hate group and the only reason they're pretending they aren't still a hate group is so they can hurt us easier with less heat. Don't let them. Get angrier. They've even admitted that they lie and say they're traumagen just to get into disabled spaces because "I'm not disordered but I shouldn't be being excluded" YOU ARENT. They have their OWN spaces. They just want OURS. They wonder why we call them an invasive species.
They also cry about exclusion when they exclude antis from the tag that's supposed to be for ALL systems regardless of ideals or origins. SUDDENLY it means (pro)endos only!
-Blurry
just saw the "tattoo post" or whatever the fuck
for a group claiming to want bodily autonomy for all, why are you against his choice of tattoo?
OHHHH YOU'RE TRANSANDROPHOBIC GOT IT
"oooo he's so misguided, ooo he doesn't understand his own feelings, ooooo he's confused"
and you say trans men are exempt from misogyny. the shit yall are saying about a GROWN MAN'S CHOICE all comes across as... radfem rhetoric, recycled misogyny rephrased to fit trans men, and just straight up transandrophobia
OH btw i forgot to add to my DNI
actually fully fuck off if you try and exclude people from the intersex community because of
A) lesser known/lesser recognised intersex variations (PMOS, mullerian duct anomalies, etc)
B) identifying more complexly with gender (cistrans, intergender, etc)
being intersex is a trip wdym doctors tell me it's "cute" (literally happened to my face btw)

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i don't think people without endometriosis get it so lemme be clear
(also i don't hear people talking about this ANYWHERE so)
. . .
IT IS NOT JUST BAD PERIODS
it is bloating so severe it feels like my organs are pulling on eachother
it's periods so painful i can't stand up straight, i pass out, and i feel so nauseous that i might as well be in my deathbed
it's ovulation pain so severe i've been to the ER multiple times because of it
it's the slow but sure WORSENING of these symptoms as it progresses
it is LIKENED. TO. CANCER.
it's pain so serious that OTC pain meds don't help .. and the ones that do are so strong that i can't function and deal with intense side effects
it's chronic constipation that becomes so normal you forget what it's like
it's numbness and pain not just around your pelvis but it travels through your body
it's such severe pain during/after sex that i can't stand afterwards and there's maybe 2 good days a month where it STILL HURTS just slightly less
it's doctors constantly gaslighting you saying hormonal treatments are the only fix, that getting diagnosed is pointless, that your pain isn't real, spreading literal misinformation
it's that 1/10 people with uteruses have it.... but it's ACTUALLY 1/6 people with uteruses according to specialists
it's that it's yet another underfunded and misunderstood condition that gets pushed under the rug by professionals
it's the slow creeping fear that nothing you love will feel good again out of fear of a flare
it's infertility.
it's cancelling plans.
it's losing hope.
endo posting but it's endometriosis not endogenic because fuck that noise
EVERYTHING TASTES AND SMELLS WRONG
like excuse me why does it either taste like ash/cardboard or completely spoiled... and smell like rotting meat?
mental health so bad i gotta go rewatch eddy burback and ted nivison doing the rainforest cafe and margaritaville tours.
as someone pretty severely disabled by a whole bunch of conditions i feel the need to say this:
a lot of what you see as normal is privileged if you are non disabled or less severely disabled
i cannot physically keep my flat clean without help. tasks take days at a time and i can't even do my rubbish or recycle. i also can't often walk my bins to the kerb.
i cannot do my hobbies often. i can't draw, paint or play music most of the time despite them being my hobbies. so people will say they aren't hobbies because i can only do them maybe once a month
i cannot go to protests. yes i'm being serious. i'm punk but i can't make it to protests or pretty much any public eveny
i can't make phone calls or even pick up of the phone 90% of the time. i miss important things and i can't control it
being disabled isn't just the initial physical symptoms, it's so much more.

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"always following behind you"
i am SICK my heart breaks every time i remember Killua exists as a character
related to him so hard (abuse and all) and i havent found a single character like him that i relate to in that way (Kurapika comes close tbh but... my god)
also he's in my head but that's besides the poiny
in all of the body acceptance movement i haven't heard people use the word bloating positively/as it should
i get told i can't say i'm bloated because i'm skinnier
i have endometriosis and i dress strategically around my bloating to avoid discomfort
bloating is not a bad thing
anyone can be bloated
i hate people calling it "endo belly" because i want to be able to call it what it is. i personally find it disgusting that we're steering people away from using the proper language because we shame anyone who has chronic bloating issues like myself
why are we attributing negativity to something so normal *STILL*
on todays episode of what does my partner do in their sleep
a random load of seal belly slaps?
... big loud fart
muttering incoherently as usual
they are secretly a seal
ocd is like ... terrifying and all but also i sometimes feel like its just this annoying whiny little asshole going "oooo ur gonna suffocate if u sleep"
like go home already i didnt ask ur opinion
love how people have pretended for years my puberty and everything was normal
anyway "second" puberty at 20 despite no changes to my lifestyle whatsoever and this is genuinely so fucking odd

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i hate when endos use the whole "outside of tumblr and in the real world you won't see people debating us they just accept us"
uh
every person i have ever encountered in the wild has been horrified by the thought of endos trying to be a thing
they just don't go round saying it cus it's not a tumblr blog where they post their vents and negative thoughts or viewpoints all the time
because they have actual conversations
I want to talk about the side effects of programming that aren’t actual programs. There’s so much more to the trauma than that, such as:
- refusing to form relationships, especially if local, because of the fear that the new person knows or is affiliated with your abuser(s).
- being able to identify exactly what you are feeling, but unable to express the emotion. happy but can’t smile. sad but can’t cry. angry but can’t scream. scared but you’re not shaking.
- letting people hurt you, or hurting yourself, because you enjoy it. not even thinking you deserve it. you genuinely enjoy being hurt, because it’s all you’ve known.
- avoiding certain buildings, rooms, parks, roads, and places because they feel vaguely familiar, but you don’t know why.
- on the contrary, driving straight to those places for the same reason. you don’t know why, but you have a connection to this place, and you have to go.
- always assuming the worst out of loved ones. your partner forgot to text you before they left? they hate you and are plotting how to leave for good. friend gave you a gift? they’re testing your reaction to see if you really like them.
- struggling with hygiene. not because you deserve to not be taken care of, but because you don’t know how to take care of yourself. you don’t know how to brush your teeth. you don’t know how often to change clothes.
- not knowing the difference between good and bad smells. you’re sweaty and people keep looking at you funny? it’s fine, it’s not that strong. someone says your clothes smell dirty? they were cleaned a week ago, so they’re fine.
- finding people who are positive or happy either weird or stupid. i hate that girl, she’s too bubbly. that guy smiles too much. they’re too nice to me, they probably don’t even know what it’s like to suffer.
and it’s never on purpose. usually it’s never even noticed. this is how we survivors have lived for our whole lives. this is the environment we grew up in, the place we learned to survive. and it’s hard to adjust to a world where you are seen as weird, gross, or mentally unwell. it’s hard to open up and get help from people who think you’re too far gone.
another one along the lines of the going to and avoiding places...
wanting to leave the city it happened in but feeling so terrified of being too far from it