Glassypze

I don’t now my narrative voices

Hi I need to vent about my gender and this is the only place I feel heard :)

So I allegedly identify as a trans boy with he him pronouns (occasionally they them if I feel funky) and recently I’ve been embracing my suppressed femininity. With that I’m okay dressing both femme and masc but my question is the next: today I had my high school graduation party, and one of my friends brought another friend with her (a girl) I found her pretty but that was it… until I received the knowledge that she liked girls… I immediately went and tried to pursue her, which made me wonder for a moment why I was doing that if I didn’t identify as a girl.

Now, I’m not on hormones so I look like a girl and I wore a dress to the party, so I looked cisgender to everyone there, but all my classmates know I’m trans and my friend who brought the girl knows it too and she is one of my best friends so I assume that my friend told the girl previously about my gender. Knowing this I still tried to get with her.

And I don’t know why I did it if I’m suppose to be a man.

I’ve always felt like my gender was something mystique and extraordinary because I don’t seem to fit anywhere else.

I use he him pronouns and get dysphoric with things a trans boy would be but I like to express myself femme and masc but I’m also pansexual but I like gay girls and gay boys. It doesn’t make any sense.

It’s like I transform into what each person wants the most but at the end of the day I’m still a boy. It doesn’t matter if I’m flirting with a gay girl, I still identify as boy.

I feel like I’m low-key doing that because I don’t pass but I don’t know.

Even tho I don’t flirt with boys because I know they see me as a girl and not a boy and if he’s gay it would be the same. BUT IM A BOY.

It’s just so complicated because I’ll always prefer girls over boys (at least now that I don’t pass) but I like gay girls and not straight ones.

I feel like I will not be able to flirt with anyone unless I pass as a boy.

Today this user contacted me because allegedly they had reported me by accident

I searched for my username and variations but nothing appeared nonetheless I believed this person and I went and contacted the discord user

They asked me for birthday and then for my country to which I told them

Then told me a bunch of things and finally addressed me to solve the issue

And finally asked me strangely for a screenshot of my bank account.

I only sent the numbers and nothing else. Then they deleted the account and the tumblr user doesn’t answer me

Edit: my 5 bucks are safe btw

Be careful and report their acc pls.