A Work in Egress

it's hard to explain to people that there's a point where fatigue genuinely causes severe suffering because the natural response is "couldn't you just sleep?". But sometimes you can't sleep. Sometimes you've already slept for 16 hours and you're too restless to sleep more. Sometimes you have insomnia. Sometimes the amount that your body wants you to sleep is dangerous because it doesn't leave you enough time to care for yourself. So you're just stuck in this limbo between being awake and being asleep where moving feels so horrible, your body is turning on every alarm bell it can to get you to stop, but you've stopped all the things you can stop. Pretty much all I can do when I'm like this is lay still and watch youtube videos and even sometimes the sensory input is overwhelming.

truly the future is stupider than anyone could have imagined