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The main reason they think they don't have PTSD usually has to do with flashbacks and nightmares, either they have one but not the other or have neither. But here's the thing, those are only two symptoms out of the 23-odd recognized symptoms. Flashbacks and nightmares are two of the five symptoms under Criterion B (Intrusion), which you only need one of for a diagnosis. The other three symptoms are unwanted upsetting memories, emotional distress after being reminded of trauma and physical reactivity after being reminded of trauma (i.e. shaking, sweating, heart racing, feeling sick, nauseous or faint, etc). Therefore you can have both flashbacks and nightmares, one but not the other, or neither and still have PTSD.

In fact, a lot of the reasons people give me for why they don't think they have PTSD are literally a part of the diagnostic criteria.

"Oh, I can barely remember most parts of my trauma anyway." Criterion D (Negative Alterations in Cognition and Mood) includes inability to recall key features of the trauma.

"Oh but I don't get upset about my trauma that often because I avoid thinking of it or being around things that remind me of it most of the time." Criterion C (Avoidance) includes avoiding trauma-related thoughts or feelings and avoiding trauma-related external reminders, and you literally cannot get diagnosed if you don't have at least one of those two symptoms.

"Oh I just have trouble getting to sleep or staying asleep, but I don't have nightmares." Criterion E (Alterations in Arousal and Reactivity) includes difficulting sleeping outside of nightmares.

"But I didn't have many/any trauma symptoms until a long time after the trauma happened." There's literally an entire specification for that.

Really it just shows how despite being one of the most well-known mental illnesses, people really don't know much about PTSD. If you have trauma, I ask you to at least look at the criteria before you decide you don't have PTSD. Hell, even if you don't have trauma, look at the criteria anyway because there are so many symptoms in there that just are not talked about.

I've been a Presidential history nerd since I was a little kid, so of course I wrote to them in hopes of getting a response. I did it when I was like 13 or 14 years old, and I'm pretty sure it was around that time because I recall that President Nixon died before I got a response from him. Looking back, I'm disappointed I didn't write to Nixon sooner because I've heard over the years that he would often personally respond to letters and sometimes send autographed books. However, around the same time, I also sent letters to the post-Presidential offices of President Ford, Carter, Reagan, and George H.W. Bush, and a letter to the White House where President Clinton was in office.

Every single one of them responded and it was very cool to get the envelopes with their signature replacing normal postage because of their franking privileges. President Ford was the very best. He sent a letter and a photograph, both of which were clearly personally autographed. He also included information about himself in the form of basically a list of Frequently Asked Questions. President Carter sent a photograph that was personally signed and a folder with information about the Carter Center.

The other letters were signed by autopen, but the Presidents all sent 8" x 10" photographs. President Reagan's office sent a magazine-style book about the White House with profiles of each President from the White House Historical Association. Bush 41 and President Clinton both sent photos and short letters on index card-sized stationery that was thick like card stock. The letters from each of them had Presidential seals embossed in the fancy stationery they used.

You are not going to pass a skillcheck against a rip current once it has you.

Waves will not bow to your physical prowess no matter how impressive.

Shock does not care that you used to be on your school swim team.

If you hit your head, being good at swimming isn't going to turn you face-up while you're unconscious.

One category I've been exploring is lace, because I always seem to revert to lace. Knitted lace often has lines of decreases, which distort the vertical columns of stitches into emphasized diagonals. Here is a small swatch of a lace diamond pattern, fairly bog-standard except for the cable crosses at the points of the diamonds. The top half of each diamond shape is framed by its decrease lines, while the bottom half grows vertically out of the YO increases.

By using some False Decreases, it's possible to add diagonal framing lines to the lower edges of the diamonds as well. Now they look more symmetrical, and have a nice kind of crispy-edges effect.

Here are charts for both stitch patterns:

i was working at a little cafe where I could deny service over bad behavior, harassment etc. & mask mandates had just ended a week before & already people were being weird about me still wearing mine—an N95, the kind shaped kinda like a duckbill.

so this man walked in, looked at me sooo scathingly, laughed at me, and said “damn. never known a woman to choose…practicality over looks.”

And I just said, “oh. you can go, you’re not getting a drink.” And he said, “what???”

I said, “sir, you just walked in at 6 am & called women impractical and me ugly in one sentence.”

Warden: fine.

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Happy pride month to all my rainbow friends (and rainbow-adjacent pals) 🤩🏳️‍🌈