I feel like I havenāt seen much said about Chloe or Sam or Sophia or Marcus, so I wanted to give my take that itās about ārealā closeted Taylor talking about Brand Taylor and her fandom.
Your hologram stumbled into my apartment
Hands in the hair of somebody in darkness named Chloe or Sam or Sophia or Marcus
And I just watched it happen
As the decade would play us for fools
And you saw my bones out with somebody new
Who seemed like he would've bullied you in school
And you just watched it happen
Real Taylor is watching Brand Taylor continue to beard or be shipped with random men and women and she did nothing to stop it. Sheās dating Travis now who seems like he probably bullied gay kids in high school.
If you want to break my cold, cold heart
Just say, 'I loved you the way that you were'
If you want to tear my world apart
Just say you've always wondered
This is directed at the fandom. Sheās wondering if they would have accepted her as her real self, and she hopes theyāve wondered about her queerness through all the hairpins dropped over the years.
You said some things that I can't unabsorb
You turned me into an idea of sorts
You needed me but you needed drugs more
And I couldn't watch it happen
I changed into goddesses, villains and fools
Changed plans and lovers and outfits and rules
All to outrun my desertion of you
The drug line directly correlates to WAOLOM. She says she puts narcotics in all of her songs. The fandom wanted her (Taylor), but they needed the drugs aka songs/brand/hetero narrative more. She changed her aesthetic through her eras, different beards to keep them entertained as she deserted her true authentic self and true love. People view her as a brand (idea of sorts) instead of a person.
Too impaired by my youth To know what to do
So if I sell my apartment
And you have some kids with an internet starlet
Will that make your memory fade from this scarlet maroon
She was too young when she made these decisions, and theyāre still affecting her now. So if she leaves Taylor the Brand behind, maybe the fandom will find some new internet influencer to obsess over.
She ends with this heartbreaking thought, will you wonder, cause I will always wonder. What would have happened if she lived her truth instead of hiding. This song shatters me.