Chose The Rose

Thank you for your kind message. I enjoyed the read.

I have conflicting thoughts on it all, to be honest. But the best way to sum it up is to say my spirit here has wilted.

Maybe I am naive for thinking a lavender marriage wouldn't happen. Maybe I was led astray. In any case, I genuinely thought this was a line she wouldn't cross; one she'd be able to avoid. I try my best to separate my emotions from what happens here and I think I do a good job on a normal day. I will say though that when I saw that just married sign outside of MSG my heart sank. I felt dumfounded, confused, and stupid.

I pay close attention here. I spend time documenting what's going on. Because I am fascinated by how different the public narrative is versus my (skewed and incomplete) understanding of the truth. And I have such a high respect for Taylor's artistry. I'd love if one day her mainstream fans develop as deep an appreciation as I have for the layers of her art. Also, I think her love story with Karlie is as beautiful as it is tangled.

But in order for me to be active on here I am sacrificing time in my real life. With my two kids who are with me nearly all my waking hours. And in the midst of a major renovation on a new (100 year old) home. I have no time to breathe yet I am sneaking in a few minutes here and there as my kids relax or get distracted by a toy. These quick moments have typically helped me fill my cup. I get to use a part of my brain I temporarily retired as a burnt out analyst turned stay at home parent. After last night, however, I'm not sure I see the point of spending so much time on here.

Were the bejeweled breadcrumbs bullshit? The friends pilot episode eggs? Am I off base to feel like we were feed this idea along the lines of ghosting or ditching at the altar? To keep us here. Then whoopsie that's not what happened but its okay though right? Here's Abigail walking out of her hotel with a golden clutch named after a volcano term. Here's Ash with a heart on fire emoji on her IG post. You saw the napkin leading to the lyrics "or it's gonna go down in flames" right? (Etc.) We good?

Technically, Taylor could have cold feet and still walk down the aisle before leaving for good. That’s very extreme and I imagine it would be easier to ghost in a way she doesn’t need to put on a masterclass acting performance.

The narrative plays swirling around recently and now are fascinating to me.

First, there were rumors Taylor and Travis will get married in Rhode Island. Being familiar with the area, I always thought that idea was far fetched. I’m curious if the rumor started on purpose or it came to be and they ran with it. I’m leaning toward the former but who knows.

Then, we start hearing about MSG which I initially scoffed at. From our point of view, it felt too on the nose given the “chose the rose garden over madison square” lyrics (that I obviously resonate with). Plus, no matter how they dress it up it’s like getting married at work. And up to 1k people? Inviting the starting Knicks players? What the hell? We’re all supposed to believe the ‘take me to the lakes’ poet wants to get married like this? A circus ain’t a love story.

I figured the rumor would come and go like Rhode Island. But the production is real, as we know now. What’s the goal here? As I’ve said before, you don’t need to try this hard to sell a lavender marriage. So why? What’s the difference between this ridiculous show and getting married privately in some field? Eyeballs. Lots of them.

Because people would believe it if they got married in a private field in the middle of some 300 acre private property and we never saw pictures. So why do you need so many eyeballs? Why do you need to invite every celebrity you’ve ever met (who all happens to have massive online followings)? Why do you need outsiders to be tracking this event like it’s a royal wedding? The only thing I can think of is something will happen and you want the word to spread quickly. Striking a match and feeding the flames. Why would you bother otherwise?

On one hand, it will be surprising if something like ghosting at the altar actually happens. Because it’s just wild.

On the other hand, I’ll be equally surprised if a wedding seemingly goes off without a hitch. Because why would it need to be all of this?

At the same time you have Karlie in an interview, filmed months ago but published now, where she distances herself from the president and talks about how young she was when she got with her now husband. Will that be the angle when Jerklie splits one day? Drifted apart?

Taylor is at Gigi’s again. On her wedding day. With no signs of bridesmaids/family popping in to get ready. Why?

Wednesday, July 1st

(The day before the fake rehearsal dinner)

Taylor supposedly spends 5 hours (!) at Gigi’s home.

Friday, July 3rd

(The morning of her fake wedding)

Taylor heads back to Gigi’s.

The article was published at 10:01 am EST. I’m publishing this around 3:11 pm EST and so far TMZ has not updated to say Taylor left (like they did for the article above) so I assume the narrative is that 5 hours later Taylor is still at Gigi’s. On the day of her wedding.

Another assumption I’m making is that if a bunch of bridesmaids and family were getting ready at the same spot then TMZ would have reported that as well.