— in one so bereft of light. 𒀭

malevolent is so good. but another work of harlan's i see that isn't too talked about (but maybe i'm just not on that side)

DEVISER. OH. MY GOD. I LOVE DEVISER. if you haven't listened to deviser as a malevolent fan.. what are you doing? it's so in depth and such a well established story for just seven episodes. i love a good dystopian concept and deviser just scratches that itch incredibly. imo.. it's so much grittier and horrid than malevolent like? when i first started i was so like.. in shock? the audiowork is just.. UHRHRHHRHR in the best way possible. harlan is such a creative person and i love enjoying anything he puts out.

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but hi hello, boy do i have things to talk about! firstly, how are you all doing? i'm being silly!

I ALSO PLAYED THE ORIGINAL MASS EFFECT TRILOGY AND OOH BOY LET ME TELL YOU?! MASS EFFECT 1-3 ARE PROBABLY THE BEST GAMES I'VE PLAYED ALL YEAR (Lords of the Fallen is also up there solely for graphics and the umbral mechanism) mass effect 3 is probably my favorite just because of how funny it was with the shepclone and that entire mission section. AND I LOVE AND I MEAN LOOOVE GARRUS VAKARIAN, that sassy little turian man he is aughhh. kaidan and ashley can eat shit.

ALSO! how are we feeling about nightreign? i'm not too sure. it looks.. cool but i don't know, guess i'll just have to play it.

SPOTIFY HAS THE DARK SOULS OSTS AGAIN AND IM SO JOYOUS

anyway.. i've been thinking of charon (fo3) a lot lately he's so scrunkly but i'm a huge sucker for the ghouls

i don't get why survivors are such asses to them, some ghouls are literally prewar?? wouldn't settlements or groups find that cool and it would honestly be educational IM LOOKING AT YOU BROTHERHOOD OF STEEL . i have such mixed feelings about the bos. i miss danse btw i miss him so hard ??? danse come back home sweetie pie

i mean sure yeah i get ferals are a thing but cmon?? ferals are so obviously different from normal ghouls and they've stated that so many times

also jason bright and oswald are kind of so similar and it's funny to me, except i don't like jason bright lmao

double also, since we're.. i'm talking about bethesda I HAVE COME TO SAY I ACTUALLY DONT... HATE STARFIELD. IM ON NG+ AND ITS YEAH BORING CLASSIC BETHESDA DIALOGUE WITH BORING CLASSIC BETHESDA QUESTS AND OUTCOMES BUT ?? it's not like ?? idk

i haven't posted on here in SO LONG IM SORRY LMAO

but i got silly and i'm writing one of two things rn

a prom. consort godwyn because.. LORD FROMSOFT MISSED OUT ON IT AND I WANT MORE GODWYN CONTENT and twooo

a joshua graham fic HELOOO

i'm already a few k words in on that one .. might share might not idk yet

(i find this pic rly funny.. it was a comment on an ig post)

i'm relistening to malevolent for like the seventh time and OHHHH MY GOD

never leaves my mind how much of a work of art malevolent is

but HOW FAR MUST I DELUDE MYSELF INTO THINKING ARTHUR AND JOHN AREN'T GAY AND IN LOVE

and and and i heart the butcher, that's all. he's my little cupcake and it's so difficult because i also enjoy kayne too, he's so silly

FUCKING MACEN BARRO AND AVITUS RIX

.. OH MY GOD IM SOBBING THEYRE SO GAY I CANT AND I LOVE THEM PLS PLS PLS MACEN COME BACK TO LIFE AND MAKE AVITUS HAPPY AGAIN MY POOR SWEET AVITUS ??? MACENS VOICE RECORDING MADE ME SO SAD AND WHEN THE SAM ON NATANUS STARTED MALFUNCTIONING AND TALKING TO AVITUS AS MACEN ..

guys i'm not okay .. i love tragic gays and they are the most tragic in andromeda imo

i boybosswd so hard to make avitus the turian pathfinder AND MY BOY NEEDS THERAPY

I'M SORRY I HAVE TO.. i've been really into mass effect andromeda and the outer worlds lately and i'm so so distraught with all the shit those two games get???

i actually enjoy them both so very much. i just love space games done right .. AHEM.. not starfield. and i'm not sorry for saying that lmao starfield is so dogshit??? ANDROMEDA AND THE OUTER WORLDS IS WHAT STARFIELD COULD HAVE BEEN .. AND THOSE TWO GAMES WERE INCREDIBLY RUSHED FROM WHAT I KNOW, AND THEYRE STILL BETTER

the main problem i'm seeing from everyone with andromeda is like "ohh it's not like the main trilogy" NO SHIT?? ITS A DIFFERENT GAME?? AND THE MC IS NOTHING LIKE SHEPARD AND DOESNT HANDLE THINGS LIKE SHEPARD 😔 poor ryder, bro was just tossed into being pathfinder and is doing the best they can

i will admit, in some places the dialogue can be .. wonky or cringe but oh well?? i think the companion chrs are so personable and fun and likable (except cora.. i wanna throw cora into a volcano) AND THE CHRS ARE SO GOOD OH MY GOD.. i have a few in mind right now that i just ADORE

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i will throw hands for the outer worlds.. i think it's so so fun and looks great.. esp the salty petty "from the creators of fallout" in their ads UHHH YES? you go obsidian

yeah sure some things are unfinished or not. continued but that's fine? i loved the story and i feel it progressed fine enough. i haven't played the dlcs but i really want to ughhhhh AND THE AFTER END CREDIT SCENE? SOBBED

it's a beautiful game that actually has INHABITED AND FUN TO EXPLORE PLANETS ahem.. STARFIELD TAKE A HINT (sorry i'm so.. i dislike starfield so bad. i feel like i wasted time playing that game lmao)

i can never think of anything wrong with bloodborne aside from the fact that i can't smooch some of those men.

this has been spurred by the comics coming into my possession 😇 AND THEYRE SO YUMMY??? the comics are probably the most beautiful thing i've ever seen, it perfectly captures the essence of the lovecraftian inspiration and makes it into it's own thing

and let me tell you... i fw lovecraftian works HARD ! i love me some horrid eldritch creatures being silly (ahem .. aside from oedon who just seems to like making babies 😭)

[crds; i don't remember:( ]

HES SO FIND I WONT HIM

i love joshua graham so much

oh how i wish to play new vegas hh for the first time again

SORRY FOR BEING MIA .. IVE BEEN WRITING A BB FIC 😭 AND IM ALMOST DONE W IT (i love my silly little creation even if it's embarrassing)

and i actually rly enjoy writing so i'm doing it MORE 🫡

a certain someone (sys) posted it on ao3 and i'm going to strangle him BUT it's.. there unfortunately and i dare not disclose or i will literally explode

ALSO MY ULTKL SILLIES HAVE RETURNED AND NOBODY IS SAFE I LOVE THE TOXIC YAOI (gabv1el) SM I HAVE A GAY PLAYLIST FOR THEM still very sad that it's not on console yet 😭 my laptop will die if i try to run games on it,, i also have words to say ab the burned man OH MY LAWWWD

ooooohh radagon when i get my hands on you

AND ARTORIAS. LIKE UHHH? HELLO?

but romina can smd, i don't know why out of all the bosses she's the one i'm struggling with? i've noticed her hitbox is so absolutely ass, things that should have definitely hit her didn't (idk i probably just need to get good)

i for sure messed up the dlc storyline because of my need to open the map before i do anything lmao. but i did help ainsbach ofc

i heart the daedric princes so much. i always make time in all of my playthroughs for the daedric quests — plus their lore is rly good??? but i just love elder scrolls lore in general because of all the details and grgrgrgrg i wanna eat it?? i'll probably make a separate post for my elder scrolls babbling

i will now drop my daedric prince tier list !! and would love to know your favorites :D [ my opinion and not a ranking of power ]

- sheogorath / jyggalag

- clavicus vile 🫶

- sanguine

- azura

- mephala

- boethiah

- vaermina

- hircine

- .. meridia

- nocturnal, never finished the questline to keep the skeleton key :p because who doesn't do that???

- namira

- malacath

- peryite (only because his quest glitches for me almost every time 😭)

- molag baal, mehrunes dagon kinda tied bc.. yeah

and last and definitely least.. hermaeus mora BECAUSE THIS MF TALKS. SO. SLOW. AND YOU CANT SKIP HIS DIALOGUE AND ITS TORTUROUS I SWEAR (him and miraak got freaky.. i take no other considerations) i would've put ithelia but canonically she was wiped from existence (basically) sooooo??? but she would have for sure been pretty high up because she's super cool 🫡

TIME FOR ELDEN RING BABY OORUDHHEHDBR

as much as i love all of the soulsborne soundtracks, i truly adore the ost for elden ring. it's an absolute masterpiece in my opinion, never before has a soundtrack brought me to such emotion as elden ring. and i'm sure that sounds really silly but i'm a very musically inclined person so when i hear certain tracks i quite literally cry and stim lmao AND I'LL BE TALKING ABOUT THOSE TRACKS RN

— starting with elden beast. when i tell you this song brings tears to my eyes bro.. in the least dramatic way possible, elden beasts theme is the most delicious song i have ever eaten. the absolute despair and defeat in the vocals? the sadness as if coming to terms with actions long past and consequences ever quickly catching up. something i saw once which really sticks with me is that the vocals in elden beasts theme is marika herself. her lament, it's her desperation and sadness you're hearing. as you're fighting elden beast, you are hearing the final remnants of marika echoing through the liminal space of the erdtree and the beasts domain. something she herself has become intricately intwined in.

next up is a double whammy, messmers theme and radagons BECAUSE THEY PARALLEL EACH OTHER AND IM SCREAMING AND CRYING. — messmers theme is sort of orderly in a way, cold and brutal, in representation of his siege on the land of shadow. it's second phase opening is signifying his disconnect from marika, the descent into the base/abyssal serpent. there's an audible decline, him losing himself to the serpent, as foretold. and the strength of the instrumental is just so overwhelming and powerful, fit for the empyrean he is. the firstborn or second child of marika. (i'm a messmer simp, can you tell?) BUT with the comparison being made to radagons theme/ph1 of the final battle, they sound similar. messmers being cold and calculating, whereas radagons is just straight aggression and the feeling of finality. the implication of pure power and violence in the tones of it. AND if you listen, there's sounds within it that sound like the shattering of the elden ring. the actions that led to your encounter with this being. this man who wastes no time to dispose of your trespass. obviously radagons second phase being elden beast, that just adds to the story. and listening to both messmer and radagons themes consecutively you can really hear the relation between these two men AND RUAGHHHHRHDHTNG I LOVE THEM

onto mohg, lord of blood. the phase one of his theme is just.. it seethes with grandeur and the fantasized ideal that mohg has been fed (with information from the dlc i am fully confident in saying that it was all due to miquella so i'm saying fed) and that feeling of superiority carries on into his second phase, especially in appearance as well with mohg getting a set of whole ass wings lol. i love mohg's theme, that's all

and finally (for now 😏) THE PROMISED CONSORT OH MY DEAR GOD .. CHAT THIS SONG. honestly all of the dlc songs are bangers but for a "final boss" theme?? the bar is so high now. starting with phase one, we finally FINALLY see the strength and wholeness of radahn that we saw a fraction of in base game. the just.. dominating power of the phase one is so indicative of how truly great and formidable radahn is but in audio form. and as it transitions to phase two, we get that 'holy' eminence of miquellas influence. it quite literally sounds like godly interference. the grace of a god descending to deal with something themselves and as the instruments pick up again with the vocals, there's the sounds of that strong power being used by this holy influence. the fact that there's quite literally almost a prayer/hymn in the middle of ph2 is so INCREDIBLE to me. this is just.. such an amazingly beautiful piece OH MY GOD.