McFucking Losing It

Wake up babe, new octopus just dropped

In a nerd

~A MESSAGE TO J.K. ROWLING~

When I was young, your writing inspired me. It made me hopeful. I hyperfixated on it for years, played Harry Potter Trivial Pursuit, drew my Patronus, and infodumped on my dad for hours on end. I turned my garage into Honeydukes for my eighth birthday, and put a drawing of Moaning Myrtle in my family's bathroom. My grandma and I watched the movies together, staying up late and complaining about the fact that Peeves didn't make an appearance. I idolized you.

Then I realized I was a transgender boy.

I read about what you'd said. How we were predators and r@p1sts. How trans women were just 'men in dresses'. How there were no trans kids. I lost that spark of happiness I used to get from seeing Platform 9 3/4 pins on people's bags, from finding fanfiction on ao3, from my Snitch replica that hung from my ceiling. My Harry Potter paperbacks, well-worn from taking them everywhere, were left to gather dust on my shelf.

And now this.

I am not looking for attention. I am not trying to "let complete strangers know I don't fancy a shag." I am not pretending I'm oppressed. I AM oppressed. Yesterday, I marched with thousands of people, to fight the people like you, who ARE oppressing us, who want us to disappear. I can't believe I loved you, I wanted to be you, I trusted you. And you betrayed me. You betrayed us. I don't understand how you sleep at night, knowing what you've said.

So I'm weeding our ancient and terrible collection of children's books for the first time in possibly ever, and I'm making a decision about a book about migrant workers by Sandra Weiner, called Small Hands, Big Hands. And I'm not 100% sure and I go to just see if there's anything out there about this book's being notable in any way so I do an open web search for

"small hands big hands weiner"

And then I look at my results for a moment

In mathematics, you often consider the two-dimensional plane - you know, the idealised flat two-dimensional object that extends infinitely - which can be real or complex (doesn't matter what that means)

On this, you can perform a mathematical operation called a "blow-up" (resulting in a more complicated geometry)

I needed to look up a formula related to this, so I confidently typed into the search bar:

"Blow up real plane"