taxidermy doll

this blog contains:

CSA. trafficking.

body horror. identity loss. dissociation.

and other things lodged in my brain that I can’t clean.

About me

I make art about what happened to me. it started early. and went on longer than it should have.

this is a traumagenic DID system.

I live with physical disability, autism, psychosis, and an eating disorder.

all of this is documented and diagnosed.

this isn’t a place for fighting or argument. I am not here to prove anything.

I lived with ideological grooming, and was part of a non-commercial trafficking ring. I was filmed, assigned roles, and trained to perform.

Expectations

i block based on my own thresholds. it is not personal.

this space is for processing, expression, and memory work.

not for legitimacy discourse or identity policing.

i will not engage in syscourse arguments.

if you are here in good faith, you are welcome.

reblogs always allowed

blog structure and common tags

rot report — raw entries, vents, updates

rot fragment — short pieces with intent

visual rot — poetry, edits, collage, digital work

ledger entry — longer reflections

You word everything I think about so well. I have felt endlessly alone, like I’m at the bottom of the sea post apocalypse and nobody else like me has ever or will ever exist. And you word exactly what I am thinking, perfectly. Thank you, for posting what you do. For saying things the way you do.

it’s not weird at all. I started this blog because I felt that way about someone else’s. im just a random survivor with a blog. and I wanna see more of us on here.