aspoonfulofalice
iāve been this size before, but things were very different then š
last time i was: āØalways covered up āØdisconnected from my body āØmasking sadness with humour āØscared to smile properly because of my double chin āØonly wearing āflatteringā clothes āØconvinced nobody could ever find me attractive
this time i am: āØproud of my body āØsmiling from ear to ear āØfeeling worthy of love, desire and respect āØwearing clothes that make me happy whether theyāre āflatteringā or not āØno longer doing everything to make myself seem small āØfree to be my authentic self
there are 11 years between these photos. i might be the same size in both, but inside i couldnāt feel more different. that 11 years has seen me gain and lose weight several times, fully accept my sexuality, get my heart broken, find true love, learn to put myself first, stop drinking my way through life and so, SO much more. and it SHOWS. i never thought i could be this confident at this size, or that iād go entire days where my body barely even crosses my mind. i took it as a given that my body was āwrongā and that it was somehow my fault it looked the way it did ā but now i know this is just the way iām supposed to be, and iām okay with that š
gaining weight in a society like ours is always going to be challenging, and iām not saying i donāt have tricky days because that would be a huge lie ā but looking back on my journey shows just how far iāve come āØ
i just wish 20-year old alice could see where she is now. i think sheād be pretty buzzing about it!




















