restless like the sea

emily never had a real thing because she doesn’t think she’s loveable in that way, the only time she was truly loved was when she wasn’t even herself…it was when she was Lauren.

ok well im going to build a good future for myself whether i like it or not

You can give a little relief to future You. What a gift!

can someone invent a type of letting go that actually feels good instead of feeling like your soul is getting ripped out via large intestine

i don’t know. i’m barely a person. i just want to be kind and hold someone’s hand. eat an ice cream cone. stare at the lake. feel the sun on my skin. lay in the grass. run through a sprinkler. it’s so easy to forget life is supposed to feel like a deep breath and not a gasp

At some point "fanfic can be as good as professional writing" became "fanfic should be as good as professional writing" and that's caused major damage to fandom spaces.

karma got fitz’s ass every damn time. when the kids were supposed to visit the white house but mellie canceled leading him to chew her out for being a cold mother and not loving them only for mellie to reveal to him that the kids repeatedly called her begging her to cancel their visit because they didn’t want to see their father? when mellie didn’t want to get out of the car to attend fitz’s 50th birthday celebration and he refused out of spite even though he didn’t want a celebration in the first place and then immediately got shot upon exiting the vehicle by someone trying to assassinate him? nothing was more satisfying than seeing that man get his just deserts

rewatching scandal season 7 really is like. if mellivia didn’t fuck then what’s the point. the way that having too much power led to all sorts of reckoning and realization, the loneliness at the top with just the two of them, the isolation of it all, there’s only them. mellie saying that because she’s a single women that made her different from the previous men who held her position, the way the power scared away men and the restraints she has to live under, the way that olivia says she’s has to be on the seat arranging duty because mellie has no first lady to do the task, all the power and all the loneliness at the top all the “there’s only us, we alone have it all”, literally if they didn’t fuck what is the point. what is the point. when mellie is talking about how she can’t even smuggle an orgasm into this place ……. like. olivia is right there. i’m going crazy. their hand touches. olivia telling others “mellie is mine. mine to advise. mine to protect.” olivia telling mellie “there is only us” “you are never alone. you have me.” i’m going to scream.

i love scandal because what other show will have you saying that the president’s chief of staff pimped his husband out in an effort to out the religious and conservative vice president’s husband but it backfired and led to the disintegration of his marriage and the vice president murdering her husband in cold blood which he then had to help her cover up. the same chief of staff also put a hit out on his husband, a journalist, at one point because he was getting too close to going public about the conspiracy to rig the presidential election that got the current president in office, of which the chief of staff was naturally involved in. they just don’t make tv shows like that anymore