Im playing tomodachi and I made rupaul

I dont want to die but I want to dissappear so bad and have all my memories and subconscious absolutely wiped and just live in the woods by myself forever and ever. but that cant happen so every day I just ask and think really hard to be in a really bad car accident to whoever might listen up there

I just dont trust anyone and I dont want to be here

You'll get the courage to say youre thinking about hurting yourself or youre depressed or suicidal whatever because you need to talk but dont want to get institutionalized again sland people around you will be like But You're Selfish And What About US like yeah im telling you so I dont do it but youre reacting in a way that makes me shut down and now you wonder why I dont talk about how im actually feeling

Everything is stupid also because your loved ones, support system, friends, whatever idk will be like talk to me and then you will tell them youre thinking about suicide and they get offended like ok whatever you told me to be honest...

All I want is mercy

All I want is mercy

Literally how am I supposed to keep going after literally everything that has happened....bruh

I start dbt this weekend I dont wamt tooooooo but I have tooooo

Theyre putting me in a groan tube

I feel like im rotting always