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I always think of the description I saw years ago: Self-imposed deadlines don't help me, because I know the person who set them, and they're full of shit.
Ok hold up because I heard a thing that makes the reward work for me.
The framing isnt " I did something good so I get a treat well I can just have the treat anyway". The treat isnt the goal. Its not about the treat.
The way executive dysfunction works, at least to my understanding, is that the brain doesnt make enough dopamine. Reward/motivation chemical. So doing stuff is hard bc the brain chemical that does stuff is lacking. Like if you dont have strong enough muscle you cant lift heavy weights. Dont have enough dopamine, cant work or shower etc.
So what you do, when you dont have enough dopamine naturally, is buy it from the store.
Meaning, other things are sources of dopamine. Treats. Praise. Listening to music. Affection.
Its not about the treat itself. The treat is a vehicle for making your brain cough up the dopamine. And to begin associating Doing Things with dopamine which helps you want to do things bc you kmow it will feel good. You just to have to remember your body isnt gonna produce enough feel good on its own so you have to keep helping it. Good brain you did the task have some dopamine heres a treat. Its the feedback loop. Its fixing the ?broken feedback loop.
It doesnt have to be a treat. My partner and I make a point of praising each other for normal difficult tasks. "Woohoo you took out the garbage, and *before* it became a pile of doom on the kitchen floor? Fantastic! Youre brilliant!" No money needed to create a bit of dopamine!
I reblogged a post yesterday where OPs family calls it "bragging on". "Come brag on me about the kitchen, its sparkly clean", and everyone comes and says wow great job you really worked so hard and it shows!!
Theres no trick. Youre not tricking yourself. Theres no gotcha haha you did the dishes and didnt even notice! Youre saying ok brain, I know you dont have enough dopamine to do this. Here is some dopamine, and there'll be more when we're done. Im on your team. I dont hate you. We're gonna work together as best we can because we're in this together.
Yes. However, the problem is that for this to work you need to be capable of starting the cycle in the first place. Which is harder if you can just treat yourself and. Not do anything for it. Praise and external support ARE very helpful for this! But if you are the gatekeeper of the reward it doesn’t do much.
If youre thinking of it as treating yourself for free, sure. You can treat yourself whenever. Its not about treating yourself though, its about supplementing for insufficient dopamine. Do also treat yourself! As much as I dont believe we can trick ourselves this way, I dont think the stick is particularly effective either, it just creates self hate and what way to live is that?
Youre not withholding treats until the thing is done. Youre adding extra treats to simulate reward chemical. Doesnt matter if youve had a billion treats today, or you start a task with treats, whatever you gotta do. When you finish the task add a treat because your brain is supposed to be doing that anyway its just struggling, so youre helping it out.
Does that make more sense?
No I do get that! And I agree! And it does help in the long term! But it requires repeated action of a sort which can be difficult to get if you’re already having trouble motivating to do the tasks in the first place. You can only do the treat to build a reward path if you’re actually getting it done at all. Which is what people of this perspective are usually talking abt ime. Like you are correct it is an effective tool when applied correctly! But when applied correctly it is solving a separate problem than it is being used for here
One thing it does is build the reward pathways over time, for sure. For me it also very much helps in the moment. I can feel the differrence in my mind, for me caffeine also helps to get started, or sometimes a strong taste, just some significant sensory input. Maybe im framing this a bit wonky bc it is very much a before task get going thing as well.
It might also be that we're experiencing slightly differrent executive dysfunctions. Im thinking, I have a little bit of experience with demand avoidance, and thats a differrent beast to lacking dopamine. And sometimes there just not knowing what the steps are or where to start, a dopamine boosts helps that feel like less of an impossibility but doesnt necessarily create the solution. And probably other stuff I dont know about.
Im sorry I couldnt be helpful for you. Its hard being a person sometimes.
No it’s okay!! This actually IS very helpful for ME!!!!! My executive functioning has improved over the year making shit Less Painful in a way where this IS really good advice for me. It’s more that I was saying this methodology requires a certain level of function as a sort of buy in and, OP and others I know, don’t have that. I preciously didn’t but I’m at a place where this shift *is* helpful and I am gonna apply it :)
Not sure if this helps, but I decided to share this post with my spouse, whose academic field happens to be the neuroscience of individual differences in learning, motivation, and reward, because he's always complaining that dopamine signalling is being misrepresented in popular discourse. This was his reply:
"So, it’s unlikely that there is simply “not enough dopamine,” and getting a treat or eating a special food is not going to magically fix that by just “adding dopamine.” Treats can trigger dopamine release, but the key issue isn’t the absolute amount—it’s how and where dopamine is signalling in the brain. What matters is the timing, location, and whether that signal is effectively received. What dopamine does can also vary depending on where in the brain it is acting.
It’s also important to note that dopamine is not a pleasure molecule. Other naturally occurring molecules in the brain (e.g., opioids—which share structure with drugs like morphine or heroin) are more directly related to pleasure. In terms of reward, dopamine levels very quickly increase (especially in an area known as the nucleus accumbens) when a reward is unexpected or surprising. However, we eventually learn that certain things predict reward (we call these Pavlovian conditioned stimuli, or cues). Once these are learned, it is the cues that trigger dopamine release, and the reward itself no longer produces much dopamine. Therefore, dopamine is a reward-learning signal, at least in the nucleus accumbens.
Now, some cues are especially attention-grabbing or meaningful. These cues can increase dopamine even more. This can happen to an excessive degree, to the point where it becomes problematic, causing us to act in certain ways even when it is not beneficial. This happens in addiction, where cues can excessively increase dopamine and motivate someone to consume drugs. It can also happen in other disorders, where cues can become overly meaningful and even evoke fear (this sometimes happens in schizophrenia). We refer to how much the brain tags something as important or attention-grabbing as its level of salience.
Importantly, just because dopamine levels increase doesn’t mean that it has any consequence. For dopamine to communicate something, the signal needs to be received. There are different types of dopamine receptors, and some of these can have opposing actions (some can be excitatory and others inhibitory). In some mental health conditions, people may not have enough of certain receptors, or the balance between these receptor types might be altered; this affects how well the dopamine message can be communicated.
In addition, the brain can be very effective at clearing away dopamine after it is released. In many mental health conditions, including ADHD, this clearance process may be altered. This doesn’t necessarily mean it is always faster or slower, but it can affect how long and how strongly dopamine signals persist. If the signal is too brief or poorly timed, it may not have much impact. So even if dopamine is released, the message might not effectively get through. Medications for ADHD can help, in part, by strengthening or prolonging dopamine signalling, making it more likely that these signals are successfully communicated.
So what is this message? I previously mentioned reward learning, but dopamine is important for other behaviours and psychological states as well. For example, in an area of the brain called the prefrontal cortex, dopamine (alongside other messengers) helps us to be flexible, switch tasks, plan ahead, and inhibit unhelpful actions. In other brain regions, dopamine helps us develop habits, where behaviour can become more automated.
Bringing this back to the original point, the issue with executive dysfunction is unlikely to be simply “not enough dopamine,” but rather that dopamine signalling isn’t effectively tagging certain tasks as important, rewarding, or worth doing. This can feel like a lack of motivation, but it reflects how the system is functioning, not just the total amount of dopamine available.
Finally, it is important to note that many of the behaviours I’ve mentioned involve acting in a certain way. Dopamine is also critical for regulating movement; this is why movement is disrupted in disorders like Parkinson’s disease, where dopamine production is lost. More broadly, dopamine plays an important role in helping us adjust our behaviour—being flexible, adapting to changing circumstances, and updating our actions when situations or goals change."
The first rule of fandom is have fun. The second rule of fandom is find an enabler and become an enabler. Yes you should write that fic. What if it was even hornier? What if it was angstier? What if you wrote it just for me?
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Today I learned that in 1972 the International Chess Federation was obliged to issue an official ruling that you can’t castle with a newly promoted rook, and the more I think about the implications of that ruling, the funnier it gets.
So, you aren’t allowed to castle if there is anything inbetween your king and rook, or if any point the king travels through is attacked by an enemy piece. It’s also the case that neither your king nor your rook are allowed to have moved at any point in the game if you want to castle. Additionally castling is usually taken to be the king moving two squares and the rook coming to meet them on the other side… The only way that ruling makes sense is if someone promoted their kings pawn and tried to castle with that. I.e. Not trying to castle horizontally but vertically, moving their king directly into the centre. This would almost always be a terrible move and is the culmination of several other terrible moves (promoting to a rook and not a queen (the only reasonable alternative to a queen is a knight), leaving the centre undefended, for some reason wanting to make your king more vulnerable etc.) and yet… If this were a very specific endgame scenario, I can actually see this as working out to be a good move, and the most galaxy brain take I’ve ever heard of… I have to say, I endorse it and the chess federation made a mistake in their ruling.
the interesting thing about this to me is that my intuition is that such a move would already be invalid by the “rook must not move” clause - since a promoted rook would have moved many times (while it was still just a pawn)
but I guess this depends a lot on your ontology of chess pieces, and whether continuity-of-identity is preserved across promotion; I guess it’s the intuition in situations like this (source, in case anyone’s curious) that promotion replaces the pawn being promoted, and the promoted rook is an entirely new piece with no movement history
That source is excellent! And exactly the kind of endgame I had in mind. (also, correction to what I said earlier: a rook may be a preferable promotion to a queen if the queen would create a draw)
The question of persistent identity through promotion is interesting and akin to that of the caterpillar to the butterfly. All onions welcome as to what I should believe here btw!
The FIDE’s true cowardice lies not in ruling out the move, but in ruling it out with a kludge that declines to take a philosophical stance on whether pawn promotion preserves continuity of identity.
The rook of Theseus
A German regional court has ruled that Google is directly liable for the content of its AI search overviews. According to the court, previou
Let’s fucking go
This is HUGE.
1. The court holds Google responsible for statements made by its AI, considering them Google's statements (search engines have limited liability for results in their engine as they're the words of other sites/companies/people), meaning when their AI lies/hallucinates they're liable for the defamation/harm resulting from those statements.
2. Google's defense that customers are generally aware of the lack of reliability and are responsible for fact checking was dismissed. As the court pointed out, that would "significantly diminish" AI Search's stated purpose and it can't be distinguished from Google's business practices/statements as a search tool.
3. Studies have found about 91% of Google's everyday AI responses are accurate, leaving millions of searches per HOUR with potential liability for falsehoods. 56% of correct responses weren't supported by the sources the AI listed. Both of which mean Google is now liable for a LOT more AI "errors."
4. Google was held liable for 80% of court costs in this case and this precedent is expected to reverberate around the world. This is a massive shift from the 3rd-party search provider role Google has previously played and it comes right as they've tied ALL searches to their AI search.
TL;DR Google reeeeeally stepped in it this time.
grace and rocky get to erid and both of them are hitting every eridian squarely in the uncanny valley because they've both absorbed so much of each other that they feel both too eridian and not eridian enogh. rocky faces in the direction he's paying attention to and it feels like he's trying to hide something, the way he and only he of the eridians seems to always be showing the same face of his carapace when he speaks to somebody. he speaks in metaphors that only make sense to somebody who understands light-based vision. his intonations are funny, rising on questions when they otherwise wouldn't, falling flat, his sarcasm goes to space dry and restrained and comes back with such force it almost feels like he's lying instead of joking sometimes.
and grace who is so alien, but reflects eridian mannerisms that they've never considered strange before but coming from a creature so soft and strange, it just doesn't feel right. grace who stomps his foot twice when he asks a question, and it rings out flat and dull instead of the strong, sharp sound of an eridian hand on the ground. grace whose voice is so alien, so one-note, so full of articulations that are sharp and round and everywhere in between, but who echoes the melodies of eridian poetry and music, sometimes on accident but sometimes perfectly in time with what rocky translates him as saying, and later, perfectly in time with his keyboard.
rocky and grace who mirror each other more similarly than they mirror their own cultures. who speak to each other in a strange pidgin eridian that nobody else quite understands fluently. who share jokes from movie and tv shows from earth filtered through eridian folktales, plays, and musicals until they only make sense to the two people who know both cultures. they're not strange to each other, but it puts other eridians on edge. even adrian, at first. they've changed each other, you see.
rocky learning about last names is one of the most stressful days of grace's life on the way to erid.
it starts with them watching a movie, maybe the devil wears prada, and a little way through the movie rocky asks why miranda has two names. is it because she's more important?
grace, already anticipating a long conversation, says no, all humans have two names. everyone's just scared of miranda because her two names are really well known.
"grace have another name and not tell rocky?!" rocky asks, incensed. "what names mean, question? why two?"
"well," grace explains, "your first name is the name your parents give you at birth. usually people call you by your first name, especially if you're close. except in... some situations, i guess," he says, remembering stratt's vat. nobody had called him ryland there, but he still felt pretty close to all of them.
"and second name?" rocky prompts.
"right - last names correlate to your family. when you're born, you take your family name so that people know who you're related to. it also helps differentiate between two people with the same first name."
"so what grace last name, question?" rocky asks. grace blanches a little.
"uhh... grace is my last name, rock," he says, sheepishly.
"what?!" rocky yells. grace winces. "grace not tell rocky grace first name? grace not close with rocky? grace hate rocky?"
"no!" grace protests. "of course i don't hate you! don't say that!" maybe it's stupid, but grace does actually feel a little hurt by the insinuation.
"then why not tell rocky?!"
grace sighs. "i don't know, rock. i mean - when i met you i barely knew up from down, much less what my name meant to me. and i kept getting these memories and everyone kept calling me grace, and i just, i haven't been called ryland in so long it doesn't really feel like my name anymore."
rocky ruminates on this for a moment. then: "...ryland is grace first name, question?"
"yeah."
"rocky like grace better." grace deflates with relief. "yeah, me too, buddy."
"but," rocky says, "rocky want last name too now."
huh. okay, then.
"i guess i could figure that out," grace agrees. "we could give you movie rocky's last name? you wanna be rocky balboa?"
"mm, no," rocky says.
"okay, well we could go region based, i guess. where'd you grow up? i can make up something fitting, or i can look something up on my computer, i'm sure there's places on earth that are similar to places on erid -"
"no," rocky interrupts. "want grace."
"...huh?"
"rocky want grace last name."
grace is suddenly feeling very, very flushed. "you what??"
"last name is family name, question?"
"well, yeah, but -"
"and rocky grace family now. so rocky want grace family name!"
...well, when he says it like THAT, it's so much more innocent. grace... well, he agrees, because what else is he gonna say? that rocky should know that that that's as good as a marriage proposal?
no, that takes too much cultural context, and a longer conversation than he wants to have right now. easier to just let rocky have it. it's not like there'll be any consequences to bite him in the ass, right?
(wrong.)
the "rip ___ you would have loved ___" meme is inherently more fun with ancient characters. rip clytemnestra you would have loved morse code. rip theseus you would have loved the airtag. rip callisto you would have loved wearing shorts.
rip Icarus you would have loved parachutes
Rip Cassandra you fucking loved Maury Povich

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That comment is spot on AND sciatica stretches are legit. The best treatment for sciatica is get stretchy.
Signed: Willem Defoe fan with sciatica
For anyone who doesn’t know, Sciatica is pain due to compression of the sciatic nerve, which runs from your buttocks down the back of your leg. The reason this stretch is helpful is because the sciatic nerve, after leaving your spinal cord, immediately runs just underneath - and may get compressed by - the Piriformis muscle deep in your buttcheek, which helps you externally rotate your hip. (If the muscle is super tight, your toes on that side might actually point further out when you lie down compared to the toes on your other foot, jsyk).
If the above stretch ain’t compatible with you for reasons like having bitch ass knees, here are some alternative and amazing stretches for the muscle in order of easiest to hardest (but imo least to most helpful) to perform:
However, just keep in mind that none of these stretches will help you if you have a herniated disc, which compresses the nerve roots that protrude from the spine itself! For that you’ll for sure need some different medical intervention.
Have fun!
i've been phasing the phrase 'google it' out of my vocabulary and going back to 'look it up'. fuck you youve lost your generic trademark privileges
seconding these tags by @ragsy: #if the social consciousness has decided that duckduckgo is the Only Othet Search Engine#might i suggest 'go duck yourself'
No I’m not attracted to you. Quit your evil putting your finger under my chin to make me look up at you. I know I’m your nemesis and all but we really need to set some boundaries when you’ve got me tied up like this.
No look I get it. You’ve got your evil plan, you’ve gotta get me out of the way but you also want to see me suffer as I watch the world burn, I know. But like, I’m not into this. Sexually or otherwise. Wait, you thought I was doing this because I liked you? I’m trying to stop you from using a death laser. No I don’t think death lasers are sexy what on earth are you talking about
Wait. That’s why you dress like that? I thought that armor was impractical. No I don’t find our relationship to be homoerotic I find it to be tedious. Look, man. We all keep trying to get you into therapy. No I’m not kink shaming you I’m saying you’ve completely misinterpreted this relationship. I actually do think you should answer for your war crimes. Yes, really. No you’re the one not listening to me in this situation. Yes that is the alarm the others will have cut all your wires and called in the fbi by now.
What do you mean you thought we had something special? I have other enemies. You’re not the only one. No I’m not doing kinky things with them either I blow up their nefarious devices. Speaking of which, you might want to move like… ten feet to your right.
No, enemies to enemies. And then still enemies.
Cannot stress enough how lovers will never be part of this equation even a little bit
The henchmen in the tags who have been assuring the villain since the beginning that “of course he likes you back, why else would he keep coming to destroy your death lasers”
The henchmen have been reading too many romance novels.
Awfully defensive are we? I think the henchmen are onto something.
You know I didn’t intend for this character I made up to be aromantic but this whole post has turned into being arospec at a family reunion simulator
Enemies to Queerplatonic
this in: middle-aged mans first known encounter with flirtatious remark (confused)
Whoever wrote this, slayed so hard with all these statements, truer words have never been spoken

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My darlings, listen to me. I am cradling your face in my hands right now.
You are not fundamentally broken.
You may be in pain, in distress, exhausted by the pressures and injuries inflicted on you by society and loved ones. That pain is valid and your anger is justified. But you need to know, from the bottom of your soul, that you are not somehow built wrong.
Fat is not a moral failing. Neurodivergence is not a system flaw. Disability does not define you. Queerness is not a sin.
Are you fat? So am I. People and animals love cuddling with me because I'm soft and cozy. There have always been fat people, and people have always found them beautiful. The Venus de Willendorf was carved 30,000 years ago. Lovingly. Reverently. Don't let the incredibly narrow 'standards' being pushed in our faces today in the name of manipulation and profit make you forget that your body knows what shape it needs to be. Don't let society convince you that your shape makes you unlovable. I love you. I know others do too.
Are you neurodivergent? Me too. Neurodiversity is a benefit to our species. Different kinds of brains mean different strengths, different perspectives, and different ideas. Big picture thinking, planning ahead, noticing problems, keeping things organized, innovating, experimenting, we need all of it. Modern society tries to push the idea that we should be good at everything, but that's not how it works. We survived because we banded together and used our strengths to help others, and let others help us where we struggle. Find the tools and people that help you do the hard thing, and revel in the joy we feel when we do the thing our brains love. I'm here for you, and I know others are too.
Are you disabled? Girl, I feel you. It's really hard to have limitations like we do and not feel broken, particularly if it's due to a traumatic injury. But the things you can't do are not what define you. You are a whole person. You are here, and that alone makes you worthy of everything this world can give. You may be dealing with pain, but you're not obligated to be miserable. Get a cane in a color you love and put stickers all over it. Turn your hearing aid off when people are being annoying. Add fun patches to your service animal's harness. Enjoy the front row wheelchair seating in theaters - even if it was a pain in the ass to get there. You are more than your disability, and you have something wonderful to bring to the world. Find that thing and let the rest fall away. I believe in you. I know others do too.
Are you (possibly, maybe, trying to figure it out) queer? Big same. There is no wrong way to love people, no matter what society or family says. Gay, bi/pan, straight, ace/aro, poly... the important thing is that you have your people. What matters is the love and care shared between you. Whether the love is sexual, romantic, or platonic doesn't matter. The kinds of genitals involved, how many sets are involved, homemade or store bought, or if none are involved at all... all of that is just details. Important details to be sure, but none of them are wrong. Find what feels right. Find the community that loves you as you are. I'm part of it. And I know a lot of others who are too.
We all have to listen to mama Dolly Parton: "Find out who you are and do it on purpose." The most miserable people in the world are the ones who are trying to force themselves into a shape that isn't theirs. So instead, find out what shape you are, and lean into it. Find the joy in it. Find the community that fits around it and loves you for it.
Happy Pride, y'all. In all its forms.
i hate it when people ask me to "explain my thought process" like hell if i know
"what's going on in that head of yours?" nothing i want to be a part of