Hi. My name is Elsa Fogen, no it's not a real name. You can also know me as Queen of Angst and Goddes of HyperGlass. I love hurting people 😇
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This blog is 18+, be aware (but there is no sexual content, and won't be ever) (i lied, there is like one comic now that is kind of?? you'll know which one)
In this house we respect ace, aro and aroace and it's a safe space for sex- and/or romance-repulsed aro+aces. I'm aroace btw (at least i think so), and tend to headcanon my favs as such as well (shout out to aroace Icy, Bill Cipher, Rumi and Hunter)
Apparently, I'm chaotic neutral. Also i have ADHD, so, bare with me. I can get carried away in the middle of the post.
I sometimes use words like bro, man, dude, girl/gurl, lad in a gender-neutral way, don't take it personally.
Also, english isn't my first language (first language is russian), please be patient with me, when my sentenses sound weird or i make stupid mistakes. I can't consult with google translate over every word all the time 🤣
Sometimes i can be sarcastic or sound passive-aggresive and i'm sorry in advance, i didn't mean to be mean. If i mean to be mean, you'll know it from other context clues. Most of the time.
Currently in my 2nd Hazbin Hotel obsession era. My other fandoms, that you can find here were: Winx Club (Icy), The Owl House (Hunter), Kpop Demon Hunters, Hollow Knight + Silksong, Undertale, Murder Drones, Gravity Falls.
Other places you can find me:
Side-blog about Rain World: @elsa-rain-world-stuff
Blog where i reblog stuff sometimes: @elsa-fogen-2-reblogs
Emergency backup blog: @elsa-fogen2
Tiktok (Second main place for posting art)
Twitter(X) Kinda dead
Bluesky Also kinda dead
FAQ: (under cut)
Q: Can we dub/translate your comic?
A: OF COURSE BAE💖, just make sure to let me know beforehand or once ur done and give me a link to the video/post! I'll put it in the post with the comic. Maybe. One day. IMPORTANT NOTE, i don't have Instagram, so i won't be able to check out your dub if you post it only there. IMPORTANT NOTE 2: Please, DON'T use AI to dub my comics!
Q: I found your art somewhere else
A: Well, if they mentioned me as the author and where to find the original, i'm fine with it (not really, but you can't chase after every reposter and, plus it does bring recognition anyway, so...). If they didn't, please, let them know in the comments. And in any case give me a link, i'm gonna go read comments there :> Also, i have a TikTok now
Q: I really like your idea, can i write a fanfic/make a fanart with it?
A: Yeah! Once again, mention me as the source for your inspiration, and show me your work, i wanna check it out!! And if it's directly linked to the au, i can leave a link to it in the masterpost as well (if the au has one), or reblog.
Q: I asked a question, when will you answer?
A: When i feel like it. Also, i may never answer, if i don't feel like it. Sorry.
Q: Do you do comissions/requests?
Nope (sometimes there are exceptions, but very rarely)
Hazbin specific FAQ:
Q: Who's your favorite character?
A: Alastor
Q: Do you see Alastor as ace or aroace?
A: To me Alastor is aroace, and i portray him as such in all of my works.
Q: How old do you think Alastor is?
A: To me he died when he was 27. The maximum age i can accept for him is 33. This. Don't even try telling me he was in his 40s, no he wasn't, shut up. As someone said, people can ignore him being aroace (CONFIRMED), i can ignore his (NOT CONFIRMED) age.
Q: Does Alastor have a tail?
A: NO. I HATE this headcanon with passion. Why? It's STUPID, and OVERHYPED, and just in general fans turned into some disgusting fetish, and are just annoying. Like, ppl drawing this stupid tail over his coat LIKE, BRO, WHAT'S THE LOGISTIC OF IT, HAVE YOU THOUGHT ABOUT IT FOR AT LEAST 5 SECONDS? Like, if you had a tail like this, YOU WOULDN'T GO OUT OF YOUR WAY TO MAKE IT VISIBLE LIKE THAT. And in general it's just gross. And i believe that Vox wasn't lying for once, when he said that Alastor doesn't have it.
Q: Your favorite ships?
A: Platonic Radiorose, or just their interactions in general. Also RadioSilence (onesided Radiostatic), wow, i said it, i named the thing among my favorites. Also i quite like platonic RadioJoy (Angelic Smile, Alastor and Emily), or their interactions in general. Alright, listen, any ships with Alastor that i can enjoy are either (queer)platonic or onesided. To me Alastor is so deeply aroace, that imagining him having romantic feelings for anyone doesn't feel right.
Q: Your least favorite ships?
A: Oh boy. I HATE ship with Alastor and L*cifer, i hate it as much as i hate the tail headcanon, if not more, i hate it to the point where i don't even want to see the name of the ship. Why? Mostly because of the fans of this ship, they're fucking OBNOXIOUS, after season 1 you couldn't post anything with these 2 interacting without it being tagged as a ship. Even if you SPECIFICALLY ask not to do it! Other reason is that anything i saw with this ship twists characters so much, that none of them act anything close to how they realistically would. Also for this reason i don't like romantic/sexual Radiostatc, because Alastor there usually isn't Alastor.
Q: Why are you censoring L*cifer and R****pple??
L*cifer - because it's funny, mostly. Other one because i hate it so much that i don't even wanna see the name of the ting anymore. And i'd really appriciate, if you did the same, when sending your asks, for the sake of my mental stability.
Q: Can i interact if i ship [something you dislike]/if i viv hater/if i [insert literally anything]
If you respect my boundaries and can exist without bringing this up every second (read: you're a normal human being), and you aren't trying ot force me into liking it or smth, then yeah, you can.
Q: You're so rude/childish/[your very smart and unique negative characteristic of me], people can ship whatever they want and headcanon whatever they want
And i can hate whatever i want, this is my blog and i'm not gonna be shy to express openly when i hate something. It's not like I'm going after other creators and tell them to stop drawing things that i hate, so, leave me be in my blog and hate whatever.
Q: How do you feel about [character that isn't Alastor]?
Probably like a tool i can use in the story with Alastor.
Q: What is era 1 and era 2?
Well, basically, it's 2 sepparate times i became hazbin hotel fan, first one is half of the year after release of season 1, and we are in the second one right now.
Alright, that's the end of FAQ for now, i may expand it over time. If you have any questions left, feel free to ask!
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My Hazbin AUs and comics
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Forced broadcast (era 2)
Rise of the Radio demon (era 1/era2)
Turned Humans (era 2)
Podcast Besties (era 2) (no masterpost)
Everything is the same, but Alastor is a woman (era 2) (no masterpost)
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Heyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy guys? Soon im going to continue Forced Broadcast... So here's this little bingo for you to refresh your memory and try and guess what's going to happen
AND ALSO!! There's a little something for you to enjoy in early access
Stages of drunk Alastor (pov Vox)
Pages: 6
Price: ~3.85$
Tumblr release date: TBA
This comic directly related to Forced Broadcast, and even has some spoilers for later plot points 👀👀
Everytime I've thought about bringing this up my dumbass forgot to actually do it for the past like, serveal months
But considering it's been been serveal months, and yet I still haven't seen a single other person mention this, I guess I gotta finally break the ice and be the one to start this discussion.
Baxter and Sir Pentious' former partnership/friendship is so obviously meant to be a parallel to Alastor and Vox that I immediately caught it on my first viewing of this episode. I even said it out loud during my reaction.
While Pentious is meant to be more of a parallel to Alastor and Baxter is more similar to Vox. You still can't truly say it's one to one. There's parts where I get the inverse vibes from both. I doubt Vox would find Alastor's profession "boring" back then since he was so enthusiastic with his partnership offer about combining radio and video.
While he prefers more modern things, he was willing to be open to Alastor's outdated interests at the time. And in return, Alastor was somewhat willing to be open to Vox's more modern POVs. When Vox says he's much more forward thinking, Alastor responds with a relaxed, "I'm listening, pal."
Baxter comments that Pentious was obcessed with fighting turf wars with Cherri, and with his tone it seemed to imply Baxter did not approve of this.
Baxter became more successful and while it seemed to hurt, he was willing to let Pentious go. Pentious also seemed to be completely past Baxter in the present since he barely even brings him up. However he still harbors resentful feelings for Baxter basically just leaving him behind so he could advance his career.
Meanwhile, Alastor doesn't really seem to give a shit about how Vox became more successful without him. But Alastor does still care about Vox enough to not kill him even after 70 years. And... do I even need to talk about how Vox views Alastor?
Another parallel Baxter has with Vox is finding someone new to hang out with that matches his crazy side more then his previous best friend. Baxter found Niffty, Vox found Valentino and later Velvette.
Pentious was seemingly completely alone trying to improve his scary and feared reputation all the way until the Hotel took him in. The difference is Pentious was open and willing to try to start over with one simple act of true kindness from Charlie.
Alastor is still essentially alone as he keeps pushing away any and all of others attempts fo befriend him. It's really only Niffty who he is truly comfortable with, while Charlie seems to be growing on him, her caring way more about Pentious, someone Alastor considers a nobody, when she thought he was gone compared to him, the radio demon, has clearly hurt him enough where his behavior and attitude towards her and the rest of the Hotel has become much more cold and distant.
However, there are still way more than enough parrells for this to obviously be intentional Baxter is younger and interested in newer technology, Pentious prefers older technology and doesn't want to change what he likes to work with.
Baxter also heavily pushed Pentious boundaries and advanced his techniques to the point where Pentious began to find his methods "Too violent and cruel." That part is interesting to me because unlike Baxter and Pentious, we don't have the entire Radiostatic story. We just saw the ending from Vox's POV.
Another point is Alastor speficially refers to Angel as a "Tragic viticim of circumstance," in the season 1 recap song. That means he doesn't blame Angel at all for the situation he's in and shows some level of pity. Sort of a "damn dude that fucking sucks." thing imo. Alastor won't do anything about it, nor will he lend a open ear, but somehow it's Alastor of all fucking people is the person who viticim blames Angel the least compared to basically the rest of the cast and most of the critics and even the fucking fans lmao.
It's this scene for why I hold on to the idea the fact that Alastor thinks Vox goes too far with his cruel and violent methods, too far even for him.
Since people are still debating Alastor calling Vox a "creep." I'll put my two sense on here. Vox and Alastor are both creeps and while it is a obvious plot point that Alastor IS a hypocrite, Vox is still a completely different kind of creep compared Alastor.
Alastor is sort of more the scary halloween monster sort of creepy. He's got more of a evil cryptic legend sort of creepy engery.
Vox has next to none of that. His physical appearance is much more goofy and silly the vast majority of the time. Honestly the most creepy thing about him is his full demon form. Most of his creepy aspects his from his behavior, not his physical appearance.
Vox perverted kind of creep. Vox has an excessive and obsessive surveillance setup not just on on his turf but in all of Hell. Angel says he 'gets off' watching others pain and suffering. To put it this way, not only has Vox covered pentagram city in Flock cameras, Vox also actively watches and stalksall the flock cameras, gets off to some of the stuff he sees, Vox is the CEO of the Flock company, and he can become a fuckin flock camera himself to target people.
Both of them are creeps, but in different ways.
Anyway, I'm getting off track here, but what I'm getting is that the Madsnake backstory is something that I wish more peoplent talked about, especially considering it's so obviously a parrell to the radiostatic backstoru. There's way more to the radiostatic backstory than what we currently have. And I think the madsnake backstory can be worth noting for theory crafting and speculation.
Someone tell me why the fuck Alastor is blamed for all of the shit that went down with Vox. (TW: MENTIONS OF RAPE AND SEXUAL ASSAULT.)
"Oh but he likes it tho!" "He poses for Vox's cameras!" Have we ever considered that he does a grand total of 0 posing after season 1? The first time Alastor and Vox "interact" in season 2 is in episode 3, where Alastor, instead of engaging Vox like he did in season 1, immediately teleports away. I think he's annoyed at how obsessed Vox is with him. He looks nothing but annoyed to be in Vox's presence.
I'm standing by the truth that Alastor is DEEPLY affected by Vox's psychosexual obsession with him
Which, by the way, VOX IS PSYCHOSEXUALLY OBSESSED WITH ALASTOR, because of his comments at the end of S1 ("Oh Alastor, I can't wait to watch you get FUCKED!" "I am so hard right now!" "Fuck you Alastor, ahahahaha, this is better than sex!"), filming him, tying him up and gagging him, drawing his ass, claiming he does not have a fail, which means he probably took the liberty to CHECK, he forced Alastor to watch him and Valentino have sex (which is a form of sexual assault, ESPECIALLY if Vox attempted to include Alastor in the sex, and keeping in mind we don't know what happened during the sex. Alastor looked extremely pissed and disgusted.) and then there's the entirety of DYFR, which has EXTREMELY rapey lyrics (my house, my rules, my room, my tools, at my mercy, cursed to watch me take it all (take Val when they were having sex) , run dry and how you look so small (which insinuates that Alastor was not only unaroused, but was actively disgusted), try to squirm and struggle and it wouldn't do a thing, master and bottomest bitch, though the radio's gone dead you know, the show must go on (Insinuating Alastor was dissociating while he and Val were going at it, or, if we take the darker path that Vox actually did rape Alastor, Alastor went limp, or fell unconscious, and Vox still continued.))...
Obviously that would affect Alastor. I'm pretty sure he's a sex-repulsed asexual. The few sexual advances made towards him have made him very very very very very uncomfortable. First Angel Dust's offer to blow him, which he was very taken aback by, Angel Dust's offer to have sex with him, which he was also disgusted by, and his entire reaction to Vox's advances in episode 4. Coming from someone who is aceflux and has times where I am sex repulsed, I mean it is physically repulsive to think about or do. And adding on the fact that he believes he is heterosexual, and does not understand his own asexuality, he is likely feeling extremely confused, disgusted, and uncomfortable with the entire situation.
So why he fuck is he the one who is blamed for it all? "He deserves it because he was mean to Vox!" EXCUSE ME? NOTHING JUSTIFIES SEXUAL ASSAULT. Yes, Alastor's rejection of Vox was extremely harsh, but that does not justify Vox ASSAULTING HIM.
Are they just as bad as each other? Yes and no. They're both extremely toxic people, and they kill and they hurt others. But towards each other? Yeah, I'd say Vox is worse.
Let's see, what has Alastor done to Vox?
Rejected him harshly, called him pathetic, weak, disappointed, embarrassing
Insulted him and poked at his reliance on the other Vees.
Fought him
Lied about him publicly and taunted him
Sliced his wires off
Threw him against a building
Threw a truck at him
Collapsed a bridge on top of him
Attacked his friends
Threatened to send him to his broadcast
Hmm, and what has Vox done to Alastor?
Threw a tantrum over him coming back, causing a city-wide blackout
Made sexual comments towards him
Called him a furry, called him gross, has a weird fixation on his "triangle ass", called his staff a dildo.
Spied on him
Openly slandered the Hotel.
Mocked him.
Fought him
Electrocuted him
Bound and gagged him
Got his friends to fight him
Paraded him around hell
Announced on live television that Alastor did not have a tail.
Drew a crude image of his tail-less behind
Went on a weird ass smoothie date with him
Forced him to watch Valentino and Vox to have sex
Flashed him
Invaded his personal space several times, particularly touching his shoulders and face
Forced him into several sexually provocative positions
Caused Alastor to drop his smile
Threatened to slit his throat
Threw him halfway across the Pentagram
Called his massive death shark, that then went on to nearly bite Alastor's arm off
Tried to kill him with an angelic cannon
Was quite literally ready to kill everyone in the vicinity just to see Alastor hurt
Istg, if it wasn't for Valentino's comment, id assume that DYF(R) was cover-up song for Vox raping Alastor, similarly how Easy was covering actual sex Chaggie had lol. Every other word is a metaphor for sex, and people just plainly REFUSE to admit it and say that I'm "reaching" and "seeing things".
When i say that possibility of Vox actually raping Alastor at some point isn't zero, people start fighting back so much. "Vox would never" Except he did in every way but actual sex. "He would never hurt Alastor" He LITERALLY DID! AND DON'T YOU DARE TO SAY ALASTOR IS A MASOCHIST, IT DOESN'T WORK THE WAY YOU THINK IT IS! "He respects Alastor" WHAT??? Oh, yes, so much respect to make Alastor go on TV and claim that he basically stripped him down and saw his ass. So much respect in the entire DYF(R), where Vox was posing him and manhandling as much as he wanted. "He respected when Alastor pulled away" Except HE DIDN'T, literally less than a minute later he touches Alastor AGAIN. Istg, some shippers watch some different show.
I have a theory that Vox DID rape Alastor somewehe in episode 6 after Vox asked Val for Angel, because in the end of the episode Alastor looks extremely dissatisfied and angry, seemingly for no reason? And people dying on the hill of "Vox would never" make me wish that this theory was proven right, just to rub it in their faces.
PLEASE i wanna see it so bad. i want him to be annoying about it. i want him to laugh in vox's face explaining thet they were neve meant to be, and that the milkshake forced date and cuck chair are the only things vox gets in forever. I want him to be truly at peace with himself, because i'm sure, that he has that tiny voice in the back of his head saying that the fact that he doesn't feel romantic love of sexual desire is another sign of him being always meant to go to hell, but once he learns, this voice dissapears. I want him to be pissed about it, like, what do you mean it's not my superpower and i'm not a demon at birth, but just an ace and there are many more like me???? I want it all so bad.
HAHAH fr!! PLEASE VIV I NEED THIS, I NEED ALASTOR WITH SUNSET FLAG IN PRIDE MONTH MERCH AFTER SEASON 3, PLEAASEEEE, or apothirose, or ansexual.... ansexual is just him in his pilot outfit LOL
Yes! That's why all the screams like "[shipname] will be canon in season 3 trust" pissing me off. From both sides btw, like, ive seen enough people who hates the ship convinced that it was basically confirmed fact by viv herslf, after listening to some loudmouth spreading disinformation. Babygirl calm down, Viv didn't say he's going to stop being asexual, she said exactly the opposite, actually. He'll be even more asexual than ever before lol. Seriously, the amount of people misreading Viv's post as "Alastor won't be ace anymore" is just scary. And i get it when non english speakers do it, like, fine, it's not your first language, whatever, but i saw enough english speaking people who had the same take. Plus, you must fucking know that sexuality or asexuality isn't a choice! like peope understand it when it's about being gay/bi/trans, but when it comes to asexuality and aromantism, you can suddenly "decide" if you want to be ace or not.
LABEL is a choice. And you can like, call yourself, for example, a lesbian with low libido, or an aceflux, it doesn't change who you actually are. Just gives you more specific thing to define how YOU are feeling about yourself and your desire. i didn't know asexuality and aromantism existed, but the signs were there all along. So, saying that Alastor will stop being ace and find himself a partner is just aphobic.
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Part 2 of my favorite @elsa-fogen frames from Incompatible Frequencies because tumblr doesn’t let me post more than 10 images on a post on my phone
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I personally love over the shoulder shots like this because it somehow makes the comic feel real. Like we’re actually peaking over their shoulder to see everything unfold. And the bruise and the folds in his shirt are really good and make it more real
And the eyes on the top frame are REALLY good. Best close up of his eyes in all of Elsa’s comics
Plus the sketches are SO Alastor
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Elsa did a wonderful job at showing the passage of time in these two frames. But that first one is REALLY really good. The green magic, the reflection in his eyes, his hair hiding his smile, the floating dates, the black background and the actual dates, all of it! Very cinematic <3
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I’ll never not laugh at this frame
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Elsa captures the complexity of how Alastor is feeling in that moment SO PERFECTLY. He’s not happy. He’s relieved that it’s over but he’s sad because he’s doing it to someone he used to love and care about once upon a time
And the coloring is just beautiful
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Again, the coloring and conflicted expressions are SO spot on and realistic
And weird side note…I loved the way Elsa drew his teeth. I don’t know why but it feels the most natural out of all the comics/artists I’ve seen that show his mouth open and all his side teeth
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Boy what a frame. The colors, the shading, the expression, the stitches. Beautifully capturing the radio demon with a personal conflict
Anyways, that’s all. Going back into my hidey hole to finish Archivist’s Oath
I heard we’re sharing our favorite Alastor expressions or frames in @elsa-fogen comics. And I’m happy to oblige because I know that wonderful feeling of my readers commenting on my work (I promise the next chapter is coming soon!)
I’m doing IF (Incompatible Frequencies) WARNING! Please read the labels and trigger warnings for this comic.
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First off, THIS was my favorite frame because after all the abuse we see Alastor go through, it was so nice to see him be the big scary Radio Demon again. Like YES, let me see more of that side of him
Also the broski thing was hilarious when you said you didn’t realize at first 😂
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Next, this frame is just straight up artistically wonderful and scary at the same time. No expressions needed.
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I love Alastor’s “bitch excuse me” face
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The cute faces of course
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I liked seeing Alastor focused on something. It’s really nice when we’re observing him “without him knowing we’re there” kinda thing. Without him looking at the camera. And I know this is after a tense moment, but it’s simple and Elsa really captures his whole character in this one frame
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Saving the best for last. He looks SO attractive in this pose. Especially after giving Vox a lesson and literally stepping on him. About damn time
Also, fantastic job with the window colors. I dunno why but I liked the window touch instead of a bland wall background
1. Yes! This scene was part of the first draft and i didn't change it a bit since then. Alastor is really strong and still can hide his feelings very well to the point where by the outsider HE is seen as the bad guy. Of course his reputation adding to it. But basically this scene is supposed to show that Alastor is still Alastor despite all the abuse and we only see him crying and expressing how hurt he is because the comic is Alastor's pov, unlike in the show, where we don't get to peek into his head and heart.
But media illiterate morons will still scream how Alastor is a cry baby here and blah blah blah. Cough. Sorry. Sore spot.
Last moment mentioned is also from the original draft but the perspective of the shot was changed. Originally point of view was straight forward or even slightly above and Alastor's pose was less confident. But i changed it, because it wasn't conveying the right emotion. I didn't realize how much of a thirst trap this will end up to be LOL. what do you want from me, I'm ace!
But the amount of people who thought that simply switching positions would be the solution... Is concerning, to say the least. What do you mean you read through the whole comic and DIDN'T understand that the problem was the sex itself, not that Vox was topping
Sometimes i look at simple Alastor art where he's just... Just Alastor, and i think about the future and wonder if there is anything going to happen that would make all of us look at him differently... Like what happened to radiorose. Something like.... reverse nostalgia? Thinking about time in the future when i will think about current times and think "man, we all were so naive, i wish we could go back" Does this make sense?
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Hi, hello, yes, your call has been heard @elsa-fogen! You definitely didn't bait me into praising you more...
I know you said include more than IF but this is just such a masterpiece how can I not! I might make another post for another comic.
Okay first off this.
ThIs!
FUCKING THIS, ELSA!
The way The Most POWERFUL Overlord is broken down like this here. Reverting back to trying to find a safe place, French coming out. Showing how much this affects him, it's just incredible! And Rosie, his owner, friend? who he serves, can't do anything to help him. I love LOVE their relationship especially in this comic. Ugh I'm just biased and just love RadioRose so much!
Next up!
This whole fucking sequence!
Woooo, it's a lot.
Alright first page. The reveal of how this whole deal has affected him, how much weight this deal has placed on his shoulders. It's the first time he's realized it himself. He's seen how not okay he truly is. This deal is the only thing that's ever made him drop his smile.
I'll be honest the first time I read through this chapter, I didn't notice it. I didn't notice it was gone, dropped, disappeared, no where to be found. I think this is a great reminder of how yes, his smile is something to be expected and is practically a subconscious thing he's forced into the back of his mind. But! With so much weight, so much pain and hurt that Alastor has experienced, ESPECIALLY from the previous chapter, this is something I think a lot of people look forward to in the show to show that he's not the invincible Radio Demon he has built himself up to be.
Alright second page here, he's fighting with himself, trying to find that determination to keep fighting, keep showing everyone, especially himself, that he's just as fine as he's always been, unaffected, nothing can change him. 50 years, and his composure is torn apart. Ugghhh! His eyelashes here, they're more pretty than mine! ;n;
Page 3...
Yeah that's a losing battle... My poor sweet baby who's never harmed a fly. Ugh, the feelings he is feeling in these panels. I'm so sorry my sweet boy. I mean what else is there to say? He found a way to continue smiling. Also just wanting to point out his ears/hair here. They are just pinned to his head. Also the use of shadows over the eyes in this entire comic, it just puts that much more of an emphasis on his broken? smile.
Page 4
Just like his little puppets, he is also sewn. Creepy magic time, "healing" himself. Everything should go back to normal after this right? Right?
Ahh page 5
He's beyond broken, this man is shaking like a leaf. "But it's only once a year!" Yeah but that's one time waaaayyyy too much. Vox is such a heartless, merciless, vile thing. Ugh the marks all over him, it hurts me. ;n;
I also think him seeing these deep marks across his body that haven't healed yet, kinda helped drive him to understand this. Seeing how much he has gone through, how much he has suffered.
Anyways I just... I've said it before but I'll say it again. This comic is such a masterpiece and we are so so SO lucky that you fed us so well with it! Thank you Elsa! I'm glad this turned out longer than you originally planned!
This scene of Alastor having a panic attack was inspired by a dream inspired by IF where i was in Alastor's place 🙂👍 (i think i said it when i posted the part). But like, the dream didn't get to the worst part (or i woke up right before), but the waiting for it was awful, and that feeling of absolute dread inspired that scene.
more under cut, because it kinda got long too lol
Also, can i rant a little bit here? This comic got a couple of popular edits, and ofc they had a lot of comments. And i'm damn disappointed in russian speaking fans, because like. The amount of times i saw people calling Alastor an "crybaby omega" (closest translation)... istg, if i could, i would probably start chocking the next guy who says it. Omega term especially (referring to omegaverse obviously), and like. I saw someone saying that IN THIS COMIC he's an "omega in heat" and... like... IT'S THE OPPOSITE?????? DUDE. MEDIA FUCKING LITERACY WHO. I suspect ppl who says it didn't even read the comic, they saw crying Alastor in the edit and didn't care to read.
And when you're trying to reason with them, it's always "Alastor wouldn't cry like that" or "he's a psycopath, he doesn't have emotions" FIRST OFF, Alastor ISN'T a psycopath, he wants to be seen as one, but he isn't. SECOND, psycopaths HAVE emotions and feelings, they just feel differently and are struggling with EMPATHY (understanding other's people's feelings). And yes, psycopath would react differently to rape (mostly with anger), but a psycopath wouldn't be unbothered!
Also, they're like "Canon Alastor would lock in and break the deal, he wouldn't go cry to Rosie", HAVE YOU NOT NOTICED THAT ROSIE FORCED HIM TO TELL?????? HAVE YOU NOT NOTICED THAT SHE INSISTED ON HELPING HIM?? Yes, later he talks to her without being forced, but just because she already knows and Alastor is still a human who needs support in a difficult situation. But he still pushes her away when she oversteps. And i wrote the dialogue in a way to make sure that Rosie doesn't give him the solution, only helps him with explaining technicalities and rules. She voiced the idea of breaking the deal by sleeping with Vox twice in a year, but it's clear that Alastor already had this idea in mind and just didn't want it to be the way, because obviously. He still gets himself out on his own, he still is a bad person, he still rips Vox's soul apart and broadcasts his screams. ugh.
I mostly don't engage with these comments anymore, but the "omega" comments are pissing me off SO MUCH that i really feel murdery when i see them. Ahem. Anyway, sorry for this rant.
obligatory fun fact: scene with Alastor sewing his smile on was one of the first added to the original draft. Yup. First draft didn't have it. Also, first draft of this scene didn't have any text either, but... over the course of posting the comic i noticed that media literacy is barely breathing, so i added the thoughts.
Also, this scene had 2 different readings in the comments, that are like literally opposites. First one, obviously, was selfharm, and, i guess, in a way it it. But the other was self-enpowering, and i think despite it being painful and kinda bloody, this is closer to truth. Because smile to Alastor is power, it's his shield, as i said before, and getting it back in place - it's him in a way recaliming his body after losing his autonomy the last night. of course to Alastor it's just having his smile back, he doesn't think about any deeper meanings. In a way, i think it's both selfharm and enpowering.
Yes aromantics CAN still be in a romantic relationship.
~BUT~
If I say I'm aroace and/because I don't want either of those things, your first reaction shouldn't be to tell me I can still have them. I understand that people CAN, but they can also choose not to. Let people have their own reasons for identifying with labels. If I don't want sex or romance because I'm aroace, I should be allowed to say that without people using sex/romance favorability to invalidate my identity. That's not helpful. I don't need to be told I CAN date when I just told someone why I can't.
If I make a point about how not being able to be in relationships or not being able to feel the things other people do makes me feel isolated, your first reaction shouldn't be "but you can though."
Sure, I could, but I'm sure both me and the other person involved would be miserable. Just because I sometimes wish I could doesn't mean you can use an identity I don't belong to as an excuse to invalidate me.
I am not sex-favorable. I am not romance-favorable. This was not my choice. I have accepted that I will never be in a romantic or sexual relationship. But some people like me haven't. And we need to stop collectively treating them like they can just become sex/romance-favorable if they try hard enough.
Another thing is how my identity is pitted against those who are favorable. It's really sad, because it's not my fault some people use me to invalidate them, and it's not their fault people use them to invalidate me, and we need to stop pretending like it is.
I think a lot of the aro/ace community's problems would be solved if we just treated sex and romance like they were just another thing people do sometimes. You can have them, but they shouldn't be EVERYWHERE and you should be able to avoid them if you want. Like yes, you can have sex/romance and engage with material like that, because it's just a thing people do sometimes. And yes, you can block one or two tags and not have to see that stuff, because for YOU, it's gross and uninviting, but it's just a thing people do sometimes.
Anyway, this was my somewhat long and nonsensical rant, sorry.
SEX IS OPTIONAL, RELATIONSHIPS ARE OPTIONAL, AND IF SOMEONE DOESN'T WANT TO HAVE THEM, THAT'S NONE OF YALL FUCKING BUSINESS!!!! WE DON'T SUFFER FROM NOT HAVING IT IN OUR LIFES! And aro/aces who are sad about not being attracted to anyone are victims of internalized aphobia! If they weren't pitied for not havingvit, or had examples of people living happily on their own without having relationships, they would be fine with it (This is why representation is important)
I'm so tired or "aces can have sex" Yeah, tgey can, because it's basic biological thing that any human body can do. It doesn't mean that the owner of the said body wants to.
"Asexuality is a spectrum", an I'm on the end that doesn't want to fuck like, never.
It doesn't bother me irl, because im a hermit who lives only in the internet, but in the fandom with certain, clearly sex-repulsed asexual (and possibly aromatic) character it's getting annoying, because this phrase, that originally meant to be for including sex-favorable aces in the spectrum, is now used to invalidate sex-repulsed aces and to write said character as just allosexual, only once mentioning that he's a demi/graysexual (in the tags only) and never actually addressing it in the writing. Just fucking say he's not ace in your fic, don't mislead people!!! Experiences os sex-favorable aces are still different from experiences of allosexuals.
@elsa-fogen I know you said expressions but I actually want to talk about this little part of there dynamic.
These 2 parts where they basically go 'You can't be mean to me I'm just a baby." To eachouther.
Which yes Alastor is actually just a baby and Vox us being evil evil man but Alastor is still actively trying to weponize how cute he is aginst Vox. Vox is also like if I just give big puppy dog eyes everything will be ok.
And I like this most becuse this is something we see them both do in the show but like not to eachouther at the same time.
Alastor does it to Charlie befor they make there deal and abit to Rosie befor he lost his composure and then don't you forget. Vox does it mostly to Val especially after Vox populi to get out of trouble. He also does it when he's trying to play nice with Charlie. They both think Charlies bleeding heart will fall for there big puppy eyes.
I think whats worse or better depending on how you look at it is this is when there like both being genuine. Moments before disaster am I right. Anyways there one moments of almost healthy communication where there still being a little manipulative and it ends terrible. That's great I like it really cooked with that one.
(Also how the fuck do you draw Alastor's little hooves that good)
It's fun because i didn't consider this dynamic at all, lol. I guess they're doing it to each other unintentionaly? Maybe Vox is intentionally, but Alastor on the second one is just... Surviving at that point. And his survival tactic is fawning. Learned from his life especially childhood, tes when he was absolutely powerless and the only way to make his life little bit easier was to make the abusers (or whoever had power over him) to like him....
Also, I'm WEAK to imagery of Vox holding Alastor in his arms, especially like here, it's just UGH 💔💔💖 and Al here looks so fragile too... One of my favorite frames from the whole comic.
(Tip for drawing hoof pattern on Alastor's shoes: 1. draw a thin long heart; 2. split it in the middle with a straight line; 3. done, you're amazing)
Okay I don't have a favorite frame, but I love the headcanon that Alastor absolutely hates paperwork.
It doesn't entertain him at all, like people who also don't entertain him, he tries to avoid it. I can't find the post but I love that whole exchange between him and Carmilla. The fact that he most likely didn't have an education so he had to learn how to write because of racism in the 1930s. Also how he reasonably gets offended when people get mad they can't read it because he had to teach himself.
Arghhhh it's my favorite headcanon and I wish more people drew it/talked about it!!
Also this whole exchange in IF au!!
(All art is done by @elsa-fogen)
How she's concerned because he isn't saying the paperwork is horrible and boring because something is clearly wrong.
YESSS THIS IS MY FAVORITE HEADCANON AS WELL!! It's so random, but makes perfect sense for him!!! Like, people always headcanon him to be managing hotels papers, taxes and so on, and being perfect at it, and, me too, but I've never seen anyone make it that he HATES doing it. He knows how he can, but he hates wasting time on it (that's why he learned to do all the papers perfect first time)
Well, technically Carmilla forced him to learn, since she's a documentation demon LOL
At some point she was just being petty (because Alastor was in his "feral" phase) (and she started enjoying ragebaiting him lol) and she was finding reasons to not accept Alastor's papers... So he started making 2 versions, one perfect, one with some obvious mistake that Carmilla could point out. Few years later Carmilla figured out this scheme and said to Alastor that he can give her the normal version of his papers right away, she'll stop studying them under a microscope. That was the end of the great Paper war between Alastor and Carmilla
AND YES BABYYYYB HE IS LEFT-HANDED!!! I'm pretty sure he is in the show as well! He uses left hand for magic and gestures most of the time. I think during his life he was forced to write with his right hand (that contributed to his bad handwriting and hatred towards paperwork LOL), since during that time left-handed people were believed to be possessed or servants or the devil. So yeah. Here's that.
Also, some people (in Tiktok mainly) insisting on shipping Alastor and Velvette... quote: "she was worried that the magic would take time of his life, i count it as a sign of love" and "i hope she will fall in love with him" to which replied with a pic of Alastor earlier from this chapter saying "good thing i love crushing hopes :D". Anyway.... it's just the radiostatic shippers in IF situation all over again.
i procrastinated and haven't done the next part, instead i updated prologue, first and third chapters of RotRD (Rise of the Radio Demon) and changed Alastor's monocle to be glasses LOL (also in prologue had a few especially goofy looking Alastor's faces redrawn). I'll update chapter 2 some time later too (i wanna get back to work on this comic, but i need more motivation, so if you wanna see it back i'd really appreciate some feedback under that comic too)
Also, i think i'm going to start working on Forced Broadcast now, and make that and RotRD main priority, since they're headcanons, and Breakfast is an AU, that i can continue any time.
Also, today i had a dream that we have a countdown to season 4 for some reason and it was 1247 days or something. So, um... sounds realistic, let's come back here in 3 and a half years and see if i somehow was right and i actually have futurevision.
also i spent like an hour organising the taglist, now from the desktop it should look nice, neat and straight (and no dead tags) (not perfectly straight, i'm not that ill, but no super big gaps either) (at the moment of posting) (does anyone do that too, or).
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i love queerplatonic relationships where one of them is aroace and the other isn't. i love when the allo character has a crush that fades over time. i love when they don't care what they are to each other as long as they're together. i love when romance is an option that they don't choose. i love when both aros and allos feel fulfilled without romance or sex.
no no i actually think it’s super fun that you took that aro/ace character and bent them over backwards to make them gay!!!! we all know being gay is more #progressive than being aro/ace so i’m so glad you freed them from having a storyline unconnected from romance and shipping!!! you go diva!!!