Illusion

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English is my second language but I can manage it well.(There's maybe some grammar mistakes in the contents ╥⁠﹏⁠╥Sorry.)

Updates are irregular, it depends.(Translation: laziness▼⁠・⁠ᴥ⁠・⁠▼).

The content of the posts will mostly consist of my thoughts. Hope you like them^

Feel free to leave your thoughts, and I'll write about anything that interests me~^⁠_⁠^

Interaction Rules

You can request any content you want to (mainly about Call of Duty men).

I'm unlikely to write Smut.

But also please pay attention if you see MDNI or NSFW annotations in my work.

MDNI: Minors Do Not Interact.

NSFW: Not Safe For Work.

本人是中文母语者，欢迎用中文提问！

不吃腐向，所以这个账号专更乙女向。

Principal Masterlist:

[Ghost x recruit! you] - Ongoing

Chapter 1

Chapter 2

[Analyses and Examples: Would they use dirty talk or sweet talk during sx?] - Feel free to request your favorite characters.

Krueger - Analyses | Krueger - Examples

Nikto - Analyses | Nikto - Examples

Keegan - Analyses | Keegan - Examples

Horangi - Analyses | Horangi - Examples [Character Profile] - Ongoing - Feel free to request your favorite characters. - Horangi - Keegan - Oni - Krueger - Konig

Intro Update

I've been playing The Freak Circus too, and I might release contents related to it.

怪马的内容会采用全性向的表达方式！这个游戏本就是全性向哦！

Makarov, actually, I still hate you.

I still think someone like Soap wouldn't die so easily. So many battles, so many times fighting side by side, it was so close, yet that bullet still struck him.

I really love this picture.

Gaz and Price are both present in this scene, but it's different now.

Ghost, or rather, at this moment, he is Simon Riley. Does he remember saying, "You'll do better than me"? Does he remember that rainy night in Mexico?

Simon "Ghost" Riley: "I'm not just watching you grow old; I'm someone who's sinking with you in the flow of time."

John Price: "'Young and beautiful'? Y/n, these are not hard and fast standards for being loved, nor are they the reasons why I love you."

John "Soap" McTavish: "An extra line at the corner of your eye means you've smiled thousands of times; the weariness in your eyes means you've lived life to the fullest. I'm actually very proud of you."

Kyle "Gaz" Garrick: "When we are no longer 'young', we will have shared wrinkles and shared memories, which are more enduring than any youth."

Keegan P. Russ: "The answer is affirmative. For someone like me, promising forever is too difficult, but making you afraid of growing old alone is my fault."

Kick: "We will create a new kind of love—called 'allies'. When the world starts to ignore us, we will become each other's only audience. That kind of love isn't pretty, but it's strong."

David "Hesh" Walker: "I don't love 'the you when you were young,' but rather 'the you who is becoming more and more like yourself.' Besides, have you ever seen a star shine because it was 'young'?"

Logan Walker: "I will love you until the day you no longer need to ask this question—because by then, you will have proven to me who you are over time." Alejandro Vargas: "The one I love hasn't reached her 'most beautiful' moment yet. That day will never come, because I will love you even more tomorrow than I do today."

Rodolfo Parra: "I cannot guarantee 'forever'—because 'forever' is a lie. I can only assure you that love is not youth frozen in a photograph, but a habit that flows through the days."

Phillip Graves: "Will I still love you? Darling, I only fear that you won't need me anymore when you finally find peace in your wrinkles."

Kim "Horangi" Hong-jin: "Young and beautiful is a bonus, but you are the core. When the bonus fades, the core remains. That’s what I signed up for."

König: "I don't know. But I'm sure I'll love you even more then than I do now, because we'll have decades more stories to tell. And you? Will you still be willing to listen to my ramblings then?"

You suddenly feel a pang of emotion and mumble, "You're so good to me."

Keegan might only pause slightly, then pull you closer.

If his memory is good enough, he'll remember your face, your voice, your smell, your touch.

Justice, loyalty, warmth, steadfastness—these qualities make up John Mactavish.

Betrayal, bloodshed, loss, steel—these qualities make up "Soap."

But in reality, he will never forget you.

"'If' I return safely from this mission, I will definitely marry you."

"'If' you like, it doesn't matter whether we have children or not."

"'If' you are happy, then I can accept my unhappiness."

"'If' only we had met sooner."

"'If' the world didn't need my protection, I could safely protect only you. But I can't."

"'If' 'until death do us part' is a vow, not a prophecy."

"'If' I can make you feel safe and secure when I'm with you, that would be a greater achievement than saving the world."

This is probably the most romantic thing Nikto could say to you. No, it's not even a romantic phrase to them. It's a promise, a creed, a cage that will accompany them for the rest of their life. But they don't see it as a cage. They're willing to be in it.

Until you had the rings that symbolized your love.

Legend has it that there's a special vein on the ring finger that connects directly to the heart, symbolizing the connection between love and heart.

But Nikto wondered, if it were a collar, pressing down on the body's most vital artery, would it be even more loyal?

It's when Ghost recounts his life to others, and it feels incomplete without mentioning you.

It's when he realizes he's grown accustomed to your presence.

It's when he's horrified to discover the unfamiliar feeling, the sense of loss, when you're not there.

It's when he's charging into battle, even started to fear his own death. He's not afraid of death, but he's afraid that if he dies, you'll shed those sorrowful tears when he's so desperately wanted to bring you joy.

You are that bright, shining light in his dark, damp life.

He hated it. And he can't let go.

His feelings for you will carry a protective instinct born from his age and maturity. He's been through so much that he knows how to protect what he has.

Perhaps calling you "baby girl" isn't meant to belittle you, but simply to remind himself that you are incredibly precious and worthy of being cherished, especially by him.

Price, in a moment of leisure, recounted an embarrassing incident from his youth, eliciting laughter from everyone.

Soap: "So even the captain makes silly mistakes." Ghost: "Everyone does." Gaz: "The silly mistakes we make now will be talked about many years from now." Price: "Time fades most things. Like me now… I just find it funny." Y/n: "Like you now, you make silly mistakes too. It's just that no one dares to say it." Price facepalms: "That can't stop you." Ghost: "But she's right." Y/n: "And I'm not going to apologize." Soap: "Y/n, are you never going to apologize?" Y/n: "I apologize when I've done something wrong." Nikolai: "You don't seem to have apologized at all." Gaz: "Not in the known records." Y/n: "So I haven't done anything wrong."

Price stood up and patted Y/n on the shoulder.

Price: "Would you mind getting me a coffee? As compensation for that rude comment you made."

Y/n glanced at him, stood up, and turned to walk towards the coffee machine.

Y/n："Aye. Drinking too much coffee will yellow your teeth, though."

A brief silence.

Happy birthday, Sebastian Krueger.

This is the third year since I met you, and I hope to spend many, many more birthdays with you.