Tired, tried to dedicate myself to sleep. Woke up to Wampus laying near my head. Cats are usually at my feet or side, so she gave me a jumpscare.
Didn't get back to nail polish in the middle of the night or today. I still like the glitter neutrals plan. Just one coat with 3 of the colors still tickles my brain. It's neat to see the silver and rainbow sparkles, with such fine glitter.
Fatigue might be pms, but it's more likely the adrenaline from Monday's dental thing finally wearing off. Not being able to relax for sleep is also a recurring issue.
Had a weird dream with one vivid image. Someone transform after taking a pill and left a cartoon outline as they jumped through the wall. 😬
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My plans changed with my nail polish adventures. I'm going with beige-tan shades of glitter from ILNP, along with the silver. I was just too sloppy and careless with how I applied my black. I'd feel better if I just wipe 'em and start over.
Took quite a few photos, but they're in my drafts for now. They need typing and maybe links. We're about to have dinner soon, and I need to not risk smudging. I have already smudged, but it's just the first coat. Still trying to repair a smudge-scrape from my base coat on my pinky, too.
We're just havin' a tough time today, haha.
Edited to add: need a nap after dinner. Will revisit either in the middle of the night or tomorrow.
New nail polish swatches: black combos and pink jellies
-- June 12, 2026
Sally Hansen, Xtreme Wear - Black Out
OPI Wicked - Ga-Linda
Cirque Colors - Soda Shoppe
ILNP - Teddy
LA Colors, Color Craze - Eternal Glow
ILNP - Velveteen
ILNP - Pink Lemonade
ILNP - Malibu
More swatches for the big box of polish from @etooz.
I've been gravitating to the shimmers and glitters in the first two pics. Thought I could try them over black, so I've indicated which gets what. Had to add more black for opacity, so they're not done.
Third pic is two jelly formulas from ILNP, Pink Lemonade (with glitter) and Malibu. One coat here; the gold glitter is pretty blinding. Looking forward to combining them later.
To the left, you can see I tried applying one of those shimmers. One coat didn't go smoothly, so I'll add 2 to even it out.
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Some days you want to dance naked in the open air with your friends, and some days you'd rather wear a comfortable slouchy robe in your own yard, so you're glad both options exist.
Very much agreed! Still having sensory issues sometimes, but having options helps me cope. I've come a long way in 2 years. It's not easy to just sit still and enjoy my accomplishments.
Another nail polish night. Trying to not get too ahead of myself with the swatches for the box bottles. But I did just use a lot of the ones I already prepared to combine with glitters. Still trying to limit things, so I only used 2 on that group. I guess it's not easy to explain without pics, hm.
There's also a batch of black, each paired with a different glitter. I got attached to some of the ILNP sultry nude glitters, so I'm using 2 of those. The others are 2 pinks and a green; haven't worn any of them yet.
As for my hands, I'm not planning to finish it all tonight. I've got my base coats on and one pinky. There's a bottle by NCLA with Cyrillic script* but no other info. It's silver with rainbow shimmer. It will be a cool accent to the others as black with glitter, as mentioned earlier. (Saving the green for later. Spring green nails is over, sadly.)
*Bookmark with info is on the laptop. Not enough bandwidth today, so I'll try to include the link later.
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I'm a little spaced out today, with the weather being either warm during the day and clammy at night. Still can't wear pj pants for sleeping; too uncomfortable. Sun allergy sensations are better, thankfully.
Wampus has been visiting my room and bathroom more often during the day. Little concerned about this change in personality. She's 12, but so is Moscow.
in case nobody told you: i am proud of you! in a society that's becoming more openly hateful again, it takes lots of courage to be yourself. to not let anyone silence you or feel forced to conform to some made up "norms." i'm so proud of you for being unapologetically you!
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I wasn't out in the sun much on Monday, but I've mildly felt the effects of my sun allergy. (Side effect of my meds.) The skin on my forearms has felt a bit tingly, up until sometime this morning. My face was tingly at the end of the day on Monday, but I chalked it up to the soap I used to wash my face. Could be both, but the allergy doesn't help either way.
I forgot some of the other shirts I didn't photograph at Goodwill. Band tshirts for The Ramones (modern, not vintage) and 30 Seconds to Mars (yikes!). "I am Ken-ough" from the Barbie movie. (I haven't seen it yet, so I didn't feel comfortable wearing it.) A few grandpa text shirts.
Living near Acadia National Park, there were quite a few things related to that. I haven't seen as many such items in Bangor or Ellsworth, though, and Ellsworth is closer to Acadia.
The shit bit is that I got a little excited to think I could wear an unintended ST "Even in Arcadia" reference each time I saw the word. Nope, slightly different spelling! No luck.
sorry for being annoying [remembers that practicing gratitude instead of shame is better for my mental health and my relationships] thank you for letting me be annoying with you
I went over our time for counseling today. Like usual, I've got a good handle on stuff, so there wasn't much room for big critiques anyway. Logically, I know I'm doing well; it's just harder to feel it in my bones, as I like to say. Just feeling powerless with the dental stuff. I wanna get it over with, but they have to play phone tag first. Emotional residue is also a factor; ran out of time before I could ask about that.
Posted the thrifted Tonner doll to my collector group on Facebook. They loved it, of course. The negative side of myself thinks I'm assigning too much meaning to finding this doll, especially as a "reward from the universe" (ie my hard work with counseling and dental). The rest of me is like, "Chill out, you jaded teenager. We're clinging to this whimsy, goddamnit, or I'll turn this car around."
I handled today's warm weather well, keeping the house closed up. We may put in the AC window unit after tomorrow. It's still 70F outside, after being 83F today. I might open my windows overnight, since the humidity is still low. (I hate when we hit the dew point, and it feels clammy.)
Nail polish talk below the cut.
I think I mentioned it before, but some of my nail polish swatch sticks are deteriorating. I used a 20+ year old top coat, since it had helped with some smudgy/deviant colors. Now, it's turning to dust. Even when wipe it, the dust will return; thus, I know it's a chemical thing.
This gave me the chance to cull through my previous swatches. I made some redundant copies of colors and combos. So I added a coat of purple glitter over top, just to justify not having to scrap the whole thing. I was also trying to use NEARLY EVERYTHING as a sheer coat over stuff. A lot of the combos weren't worth keeping, but the experience was still good for learning.
Hoo boy, having the numbers assigned to the polishes made for easier notes. I wrote out a list of the "quarantined" ones: dusty ones, non-dusty ones that used the same top coat, and combos I don't like anymore. I also wrote out the numbered lists, so I have a physical copy of the numbers on-hand while I work.
Made sure which combos I want new copies of, if I can't salvage things. If all else fails, I can wipe them with acetone, I think. I have plans to swatch a lot of the glittery polishes from etooz over black. The black should cover things well, if the acetone clouds the plastic. It worked well on another thing I did, before I got the big box.
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I sorted them with bare hands, trying to see if the ones that didn't seem dusty felt different. Didn't think to glove up before going to the dusty ones, and now I'm feeling the itchy consequences, ugh.
I washed my hand and gloved up, but it might be too-little-too-late. Def not doing my nails tonight. Probably going to stop soon, anyway. I've been working for about 4 hours or so.
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Not quite related, but I started writing in a new notebook to document these nail polish notes. I must've gotten it in 2021 or earlier. It was the last custom-photo notebook I got from Snapfish, when I realized they no longer carried the A4 size and gave an A5 (smaller) instead. After that, I remember making a point to pick up A4 notebooks on my trip to NH. That trip was autumn 2021, so I must've gotten the smaller one before that.
It uses the photo of my doll Jude, posed with miniature knitting needles and the embroidered pillows I made. I have the same image on my calling card (business card, but just with my email and name).
So yeah, two journals have now been put to use. I mean, this thing was still in its shrink wrap! Feeling kinda proud of this, putting craft supplies and stationary to use.
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I’m excited to see Robert Tonner’s latest creative endeavor, Olivia Chase. This will be my first Tonner doll with the newer RTB-101 body. The wigs are probably what I’m looking forward to the most - along with how she looks without them.
The dressed dolls have rooted hair. Each outfit ensemble is available separately from the doll, so you don’t have to buy the dressed doll just for the outfit. I really liked the Mixed Media dressed doll, with short red hair and black boots.
This is the "newest" Tonner doll I referenced in my thrift post. She arrived in 2022. Tiny tiny head, quite hilarious how she drowns in MH wigs. She's pretty, but the rubbery hip piece still bugs me, along with the inelegance of her hands.