since i have been posting more frequently, i decided to make things easy for those who’re new to my blog or just wanna explore :) i will add links as i post! everything is under construction, and may have outdated information.
meet the shifter (unposted)
. R E A L I T I E S .
home reality
avalon
waiting room
regency romance | serafina
regency romance | amphelisia
dragon rider academy | zeyára
the empire of luvaria | princess carina
pro hero | lady sanguine ; konoko
teyvat | amara
. O T H E R .
dreamy ✨ post
dreamy ✨ the daily prophet [asks]
dreamy ✨ motivation
dreamy ✨ reality shifting
dreamy ✨ journal
. A S K B O X .
— is open :) !
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Your daily reminder that you don't have to wait for reality to change:
Just shifted to a reality where I was mid shift to my princess dr (I never had a princess dr, and yes im a shifter there too how cool is that?), it was dawn, my mom was asleep next to me in the living room and the moonlight was seeping through the balcony, slept on the couch with a subliminal on that I CURATED with a song that doesn't even exist here, THEN I shifted to my princess reality that's eerily similar to the far far away kingdom in Shrek but in 3D (haven't watched it in years btw) and I CAN APPARENTLY FLY?!! It's like a superpower and a curse bc my parents won't let me go outside AT ALL (just like Fiona) then I SHIFTED BACK NOT HERE BUT TO THERE pulled my phone up and it caused my mom to see the light and she started TELLING ME TO GO BACK TO SLEEP AND TURN OFF MY MUSIC bc I have lots studying to do in the morning, I rolled around and went to sleep, and you know what this all felt like? LIKE THE MOST NORMAL THING IN THE FUCKING WORLD, yeah you read that right.
I didn't put a subliminal on, the music in it doesn't exist here (peak song, think Alicia Kara meets Ariana), it was 5:40 PM and i was napping for 15 mins (oh i fw naps), my mom ALWAYS sleeps in her room and I ALWAYS sleep in mine, we don't even have that couch I was laying on, the whole living room isn't even remotely the same, I never had that dr to begin with and i didn't even plan to shift when i layed down to nap here (on this note: THAT RYM THERE NEEDS A RAISE THO SUCH A GENIUS DR IDEA, added it to my drs list now)
IT FELT LIKE I ALWAYS EXISTED IN BOTH OF THOSE REALITIES, I didn't even realize I shifted twice in a row, I thought the living room reality was my actual reality LIKE CR CR since I'm a shifter there too, NO GAPS NO LACKS i fully FULLY WHOLEHEARTEDLY BELIEVED IT, when I started seeing my castle I WHOLEHEARTEDLY believed i was there listening to the same damn song as i was brushing my hair there, when I woke up back here, I laughed so hard cuz the music wasn't playing no more AND I THOUGHT THAT WAS ODD BC I WAS THE ONE TO PUT IT IN THE FIRST PLACE, it took SECONDS IF NOT MSECONDS to shift TWICE with 0 effort, 0 waiting, AND NOT EVEN AN INTENTION IN MIND BABE I was napping cuz I needed the energy break I'm still taking exams that's literally the only reason why I'm not 24/7 in my drs rn.
Please, when you lay down to shift, don't wait, don't think it, BE IT, DEEP DIVING WITH NO LIGHTS ON, drown in it and let it direct you, LOSE THAT CONTROL BUTTON YOU ALREADY FREAKING HAVE WHAT YOU WANT, don't stay still thinking that you'll urge reality to change, realities CHANGE when YOU say so ONCE AND FOR ALL, you dont need to repeat it, you don't need to dwell on it, no need for any work to be done, no separation!! And it truly confirmed the fact that shifting is truly and utterly human = already in your default settings
𝓌hat an amazing run we had. I created my first blog on 2/23/2025. I thought to myself, "there's no way manifestation is being taught like this". so I made a blog called "pellowinksx". my blog did well. I had 200 followers, I taught methods, law of assumption in islam, my journey, and I shared success stories. but...I was still a bit young and didn't know that much.
𝒾 remade my blog and changed the username to "sairaverse". that theme change did amazing. I had well over 1000 followers, a twitter, a subliminal channel with 2k followers, and I learned non dualism. but I was still learning who I was too.
𝓪fter learning non dualism I realised god cannot exist because it's impossible for there to be a "creator" if I am awareness and everything is within. I panicked and I thought about it for weeks, until I realised religion can't be true.
𝒾 tried coping several times and saying "allah created awareness" but it was just stupid. (by the way, @divatakesontruth someone sent you an ask about this. it was ridiculous hahaha, but shortly after that I understood that couldn't be the case and god cant be real, I was just coping back then.) the more I learned non dualism the more I realised religion wasn't for me. I knew I was meant to learn non dualism because of the way I thought as a child. it was weird- but it felt like I found myself. as a little kid, I would constantly think to myself "what if isn't really true?" "what if this is just a test?" and I was right. it really was.
𝓲 deleted my old law of assumption posts and started fresh turning it into non dualism focused instead. the more I taught it- the more I understood it as well. and then I finally made my decision.
7/19/2025 𝓲 left islam. I didn't know how to feel. I felt numb and honestly scared. I almost went back because I was scared but I realised of course I felt fear when I left everything I had ever known. I let myself cry, I let myself fear, I let myself feel everything that came to me. the worst of it was being overwhelmed by my freedom. I could take the hijab off, I could change my manifesting approach, I can stop begging god for things and instead tell myself I'm the creator, I could stop being scared of things and instead just be unapologetically me. I felt like islam was flawed and held me back in way too many ways. my future felt depressing and everytime i tried to imagine it I felt unhappy. the thought of wearing hijab for the rest of my life made me feel incredibly miserable and depressed. so when I abandoned that belief- I didn't know how to feel.
𝓪round july/august I made a post about it. talking about my traumatic experiences with religion and why I left it. I knew I had to post about it because my old blog was law of assumption in islam. I felt a little nervous but to my surprise you all supported me. I didn't know where to go from there, but I did change a lot. I cried so much that day. I was shocked how many people related to my story, how much activity the post got, and how I didn't need to feel guilty for wanting to chase peace and comfort.
𝓲 left islam for peace. religion ruined my mental health and I just couldn't bear it any longer. especially as a girl...no matter how much I tried to cope- islam really didn't seem like it favored women much. I didn't feel like myself in the hijab, I didn't understand why I had to wear it other than because of my gender. no matter how I tried to twist it I just felt degraded and like an object wearing it.
𝓼eptember 2025 I kind of gave up manifesting. I felt so overwhelmed and my mental health was terrible. and I was also grounded for a month...everything collapsed and went downhill right when I changed my beliefs. that scared me and I thought allah was punishing me. so I did what any other believer would do and I went back into the bubble. I mean I can't blame myself even now. I wa scared, and didn't know what I wanted.
𝓭uring the time where i had "given up" I journaled, cried, made plans, scrapped them, and slowly but surely I started to feel better and more confident in my decisions. I learned islam myself a bit more- with an open mind and heart, and no matter how much I tried I just couldn't believe in it. I finally made my decision and stuck to it forever.
𝓾nfortunately, my living situation was not that great at all. we got kicked out of my grandmas house and had to live in a hotel room. yes- all six family members had to live in a singular hotel room. I wanted to kms almost every single day during that time. we lived like that for 8 months. I went back to manifesting but with a whole different mindset. i didn't even want anything anymore- I was just numb to everything that happened to me. however I was uncomfortable with my living situation. so at first I manifested moving to california. we still lived in a hotel tho and I kind of gave up persisting, I was so drained and just tired. sooo I manifested we moved to malasiya we already were going to go anyway because of my brother but that was like "in a few months or a year" kind of thing so I manifested we move within one single month. it took me ONE DAY for this to happen and we ended up moving 4 and a half weeks after I said one affirmation
𝓵ife in malaysia was amazinggg. we got a house finally lol. my dad got a good job, our family business made a shit ton of money, we went shopping and sight seeing all the time, in the malaysia success story I did say I was going to school but then I decided to stay homeschooled and talked to my mom about it because I had an even better idea.
𝔀e moved April 29 2026. I learned so much about myself since then. I didn't manifest my whole family being rich and then me moving out with their money is because I didn't want to be rich with them. I wanted to be the first millionaire in my family. I wanted to prove them wrong, especially because once my mom said to me "manifesting didn't even change your life anyway." I was so angry and ticked off by that everything I manifested was in spite of her saying that to me. everything I did was motivated by hatred for my childhood, for the life I was forced to live, for the things I was robbed of having. I was so angry and hurt and confused, I couldn't not give myself everything I wanted. I instead of moving out at 18, I really thought about everything and the things I really dreamed of. I didn't think realistically or what made sense for myself, I thought about things my heart truly desired. this is a really dumb and silly story but, one time i was listening to music and i caught myself daydreaming myself preforming the songs, i would dream I was doing some cool acting scene with that song playing in the background or I would dream of preforming at the grammys. but what I didn't realise is that's what I truly wanted even if I never really let myself be it. I thought about my goals and I got disappointed. I just wanted a way out but I didn't have a purpose. I wanted to become a singer! I wanted to preform, and wear glittery outfits and have cameos in TV shows, I wanted to shock everyone and just show up on screen one day. and when I realised that, I felt like I finally knew what I was doing.
𓏲 ๋࣭ ࣪ ˖
𝔀ell...at first my plan was moving out at 18 after manifesting several hundred thousand dollars. but I decided to take a step further. I cannot provide all of the details but I found a way I could leave without turning 18 yet. I did it guys. I no longer live with my muslim family. I no longer wear hijab. I no longer pretend. I'm not lying anymore and it feels like a thousand weights were lifted off my shoulders. im financially stable, I am around people I love, people that make me happy, I'm so very proud of myself and what I've done. and not only that, I can start my dream career now :) because I now have connections and no one is here to tell me it's haram to live life. I have my flight ticket, I'm fucking going to new york! I'm so nervous, I'm going in 2 days and I already packed and stuff. every hour that passes makes it feel more real. I also don't know how I'm going to sleep because my entire body can't stop shaking (yes it is that serious okay I've wanted to move out and live by myself and leave islam for years) I don't know if I should cry or scream or throw up or all of the above.
𝓌hat matters is now I'm happy and I've literally succeeded. the law is real guys. every single part of it is real. all you need to do is decide you have what you want and you'll be fine. and if "just deciding" is too vauge for you tell yourself subliminals, robotic affirming, sats, or any method works. personally I wrote a list of every single thing I wanted in life and assumed I had each thing one by one. guys I can't stress this enough, the law cannot fail you. whatever you assume/decide reflects into your reality. and you can seriously manifest whatever! you are LIMITLESS you are GOD you are the creator of your reality and nothing can stop you. You're either your biggest enemy or your biggest supporter. you either stop yourself from getting what you want or you decide you have it and succeed. You either have it, or you don't. you can quit and say it doesn't work, but remember it's your future you're putting at risk. can you imagine what life would be like right now if I stopped persisting when I lived in the hotel? I'd probably be in a homeless shelter right now if I kept manifesting bad outcomes and not good ones. I know not everyone's situation wasn't as bad as mine, but I also know there are tons of struggling people my age who just want to be successful as well. and I'm telling you to just pick a method you like and do it until you see results. or assume results right now and don't look back. no matter how terrible the 3d looks you must persist. persisting in the assumption you have what you want will never fail you either. law of assumption is a law of the universe. saying loass doesn't work is like saying gravity isn't real because you can't see it. I've said this before but, if you can believe Issac newton you can believe nevillie goddard. both taught us the laws of the universe and you doubt one but not the other? it's real guys. even Michael jackson said affirmations to himself. It's not a coincidence that so many celebrities swear by affirmations and good self concept. they all manifested their success. I'm confident my advice will help at least some of you out and manifest the life of your dreams just like I did. Even if you doubt me, you'll see me. The proof will be my fame and success, and I bet at least one of you will recognize I'm the same girl you used to follow on tumblr years ago.
𝒾 don't even know what to say honestly. I love you guys so much, I can't believe I'm fr leaving for good, I'm going to cry again. Thank you all for the experiences, thank you my favorite bloggers for teaching me the law before I made my own blog. thank you @eliisiconic (ESPICALLY YOU ELI) @itsrlymine @priestess777 @cinefairy @luckykiwiii101 @angelsinluv and @salemlunaa for introducing me to such an amazing journey.
𝒾't's all almost too good to be true. you might not believe any of this, you might think it's bullshit- that's fine. but you can't deny how my story will add up. and I bet someone will recognize me, find this blog when I get famous and all of you will know it's me. And tbh, now that we're on this topic think about all of the crazy success stories you've seen on here. (mainly during 2022 - 2023) how many influencers and celebrities do you think were on tumblr giving success stories as anonymous? especially that one girl who said she manifested being a kpop idol and just disappeared forever T T. there are so many deactivated blogs after they write farewells and success stories lmao and some of you guys STILL don't get it. script, affirm, listen to a subliminal, assume, do whatever the fuck you want to do. As long as you're planning giving yourself everything you're on the right track. Think BIG, be greedy, be spoiled, unlearn everything toxic and just manifest whatever the fuck you want!
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the timing is honestly incredible. just a few days until my life changes for good, all because I kept persisting. just decide you have it and don't take no for an answer. nothing more, nothing less. yes, you can do it. there is nothing you can't do. there's nothing you can't have, and if you can speak it into existence, you can have it.
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++ here are fav posts by me to help you manifest anything you want and realise who you are. (you can also scroll my masterlist but I feel like this list is more to the point and kind of like a guide)
mega manifesting guide (all you need 2 manifest and 2 understand the law)
wake up (motivation + tough love)
the law is BORING. (stop chasing magical feelings!)
I have nothing left to say
𝓶anifestation is objectively the easiest thing you can ever do. because it doesn't actually exist. it is impossible to "manifest" because everything is already created. it's like how you can't imagine a new color. everything you think you created from scratch in your mind is just something reimagined from resources that are already provided. unicorns might not exist but horns do and horses do. you put those two very real things together and created something "new" but the foundation of how it was created was already made with already existing things. therefore, unicorns can exist if you decided they do. because horns, and horses exist. and because those two things exist, it was already manifested. just like everything else in this world. you are just using already existing materials provided for humankind for your own benefit. this is why using the words "I'm manifesting" is foolish and absurd because it is impossible to create something that doesn't exist yet. anything you think of, genuinely anything you see in your 4d reality has already manifested. which is why when you create a process to get it you are just being a fool. it is already created. you contradict law of assumption by saying you are manifesting something. you contradict non dualism by implying you are in the process to get something. nothing is separate, nothing is impossible. which is why I said it's so fucking laughably easy. because your desires are very stupid, trivial things. why desire it when it's already manifested? you are just remembering you have it and you're confusing it for longing. I'm going to be honest, when I finally understood the law fully, I felt like I was returning to something. not like I learned something new. my theory is that this knowledge is already there, programmed into us. it's just some of us remember and some don't. when you ask "how" to get things you just confuse the law. what do you mean "how" do you get something that is already created? already within your 4d reality? have you forgotten the 4d and 3d reality is not separate from eachother? all you need to do, literally all you need to do is exactly what nevillie said.
"an assumption, though false, if persisted in, has no choice but to harden into a fact." -neville goddard. this is the law of the universe. this is not a theory, this is not some witchy, closed practice, it is a law that every single living creature in this universe must abide by. even if it's subconsciously, we all do it. do not confuse yourself by creating all of these new things like "law of attraction" or "law of detachment" all you need to do is return to the foundational sentence that started this all. remember that an assumption is a claim made without proof. persisting is continuing to not look for proof of your previous claim. all you need to do is make a claim and not look for proof of that claim, your reward is that claim finally being proven to you. if I could go from being homeless to finally fulfilling my dreams of being a performer, you can manifest that fucking text back.
𝒾 wont be back on this blog, but you'll see me on a big screen somewhere.
here is my old guide. I have pinned this post now :)
In order to speak about “the science” of reality shifting in our world, we need to know at least the basic facts of Quantum Mechanics. Many of these can be understood through its history. What is it, and why was it born? (long post ahead)
Intro ᯓ★
Quantum Mechanics didn’t pop out of nowhere. In our world, the birth of QM was a necessity of physics. That happened because physics evolved; our understanding of how the world behaves became better and better as we experimented and studied it further. And one day, we experimented way too much, and discovered a phenomenon that challenged our previous expectations of how the world behaves.
The application of physics involves math, and it tries to understand the world in order to make predictions. Then these predictions can be used in technology and other fields of science.
In the 19th century, physicists thought they understood the world perfectly. They thought: our models, explained by Classical Mechanics (Newtonian Physics), are extremely useful and we can conclude they’re very accurate. We can conclude they describe the absolute truth of reality.
They treated the world like a giant machine, like a mechanical clock. If you knew the initial position and velocity of every particle, you could theoretically calculate the entire future and past of the universe.
That was until… an event called the Ultraviolet Catastrophe occurred, and classical mechanics completely broke down at the atomic scale.
The Timeline ᯓ★
Quantum Mechanics rests upon a very specific question: What is light?
In 1704, Isaac Newton said: light is a particle. He called these particles “corpuscles” (ugly aah name, I know). Not everyone agreed, but they went along with it because… damn, it’s Newton? Hello?
In 1801, however, a rando named Thomas Young wanted to test Newton’s idea. Such is the rise of the Double-Slit Experiment, which I’m sure you already know about (if not, what are you waiting for? open YouTube and look it up).
In summary: If light were made of solid particles (like Newton said), you would expect to see two bright lines on the screen directly behind the slits—like bullets passing through two gaps and accumulating on the wall. But instead, Young saw a pattern of multiple alternating bright and dark bands, and called that an interference pattern. Young was also studying the behavior of water at the time, and he saw this is exactly what happens when two water ripples pass through gaps and clash into each other, overlapping and canceling each other out. He compared the two and concluded light behaves like a wave.
This experiment single-handedly settled the debate. It proved mathematically and visually that light behaves like a continuous wave, not a particle. By the late 1800s, James Clerk Maxwell wrote his famous equations showing light is an electromagnetic wave. Case closed.
At the end of the 19th century, the Ultraviolet Catastrophe occurred. This was an event that shattered Classical Mechanics. Physicists had come up with an hypothetical object called a blackbody (I promise it’s relevant just hold on). This object absorbs all electromagnetic radiation that falls on it, and then emits it back into the world. Because it absorbs all light, when it is heated, it also emits light, called thermal radiation. This light is emitted in the shape of a curve, and this curve changes the frequency of the light itself based on the object’s temperature. Blackbody radiation is related to the glow of stars, and even the glowing heat of a stove!
The curve is the important key here. Long story short; our models predicted a curve that didn’t happen. This meant our math was wrong and we had to update it. Classical physics thought that the intensity of the radiation would go on forever, approaching infinity. For thermodynamics this meant that the object would emit such a high blast of energy that it would basically destroy the universe.
Well, thank god this wasn’t possible! But physicists were a little angry at that, because it meant their predictions were wrong. So much so that they called this the Ultraviolet Catastrophe. What we observed is that the wavelengths that were supposed to go on forever and blast the universe, actually just hit a spike when reaching the Ultraviolet Spectrum, and then went sharply downward. In short: there was a profound gap between classical math (climbing to infinity) and reality (dropping to zero).
At the turn of the 19th Century, a physicist named Max Planck solved this problem. He did so by cheating the math. He imagined that instead of light traveling in a continuous stream like classical physics assumed since Thomas Young, it moved in discrete packets or “envelopes” like Newton thought.
He called these packets quanta (plural of quantum).
In other words, he imagined that energy could be quantized. This was… unfortunate for him, because to his surprise it worked wonders. But he hated it because this discovery reopened the debate on whether light is a wave or a particle. He hated Newton’s idea that it was a particle—he wanted to make Young’s predictions true. He spent the rest of his life trying to disprove Newton, to disprove his own model of quanta, calling the math only a “trick”.
1905 and here comes Albert Einstein. Albert Einstein looked at Planck’s desperate mathematical patch and realized something revolutionary: the packets are real.
Einstein applied Planck's quantum math to a different riddle called the Photoelectric Effect (where shining light on metal knocks electrons loose). He showed that you could only explain this effect if light wasn't hitting the metal like a continuous wave, but rather bombarding it like a stream of localized, individual bullets.
Einstein officially named these packets of light photons (particles of light).
So, he proved that Newton was right: light is a particle. But… hadn’t Young proved light is a wave? What’s up there?
Well, this ultimately forced physicists to accept Wave-Particle Duality: the idea that light behaves as both a wave and a particle depending on how you measure it. But here’s the shattering implication: this isn’t only about light.
In 1924, a French physicist named Louis de Broglie proposed a radical hypothesis: if light waves can act like particles, then material particles (like electrons, protons, and even atoms) must also act like waves. This was proven in laboratories. Scientists used the same experiment they did on light but with other particles, and they discovered de Broglie was right: material particles also behave like waves.
This is what happens in the experiment: like Young did, we fire individual electrons at a screen through slits. You’d imagine the electron goes through any slit (left or right) and lands like a dot or a bullet on the screen. But this doesn’t happen. Instead, you fire an electron through any slit and… it forms a pattern as if it had crossed both slits. This is extremely puzzling because it means the electron somehow traveled through both slits simultaneously and landed in that pattern. Something that is not possible in classical mechanics.
In order to solve this, physicists started imagining again that matter behaves like waves. And to avoid problems and having to start from scratch or completely discard classical mechanics (because it does apply to macroscopic objects) they said; “okay, let’s say matter is both, a particle and a wave, like photons.” Particle-Wave Duality started being about all atoms and all matter in general not only photons.
Now they needed a mathematical equation to track that, and Schrödinger stepped in, giving us one. His equation tracks the “particle-wave” as it ripples through space. This mathematical wave is given the Greek symbol psi, called the Wave Function.
Now physicists have the math, and it works, but they don't know what it means for reality. If an electron is a spread-out wave function, did the electron physically dissolve into a smear? What happened to it? (Here’s where metaphysics steps in).
Later in 1926, Max Born looks at the math and figures it out. He proposes the wave isn't a wave of physical stuff. Instead, it is a probability wave. He realized:
Wherever the Schrödinger equation shows a high crest in the wave, that is a location where the electron is highly likely to be found.
Wherever the wave is flat, the electron is unlikely to be found.
This creates a massive historical crisis (again). Because in the lab, this doesn’t show. Whenever we try to measure it we only ever see a particle. But when we don’t look, the particle leaves a pattern that shows how it behaved when it was left alone. And this pattern is something only a wave could create.
This left us to assume that when a particle is left alone—not being measured or interacting with its environment—, it doesn't have a fixed location, speed, or spin: like Born said, it behaves like a wave of probabilities. However, when we measure it, it collapses. It becomes a particle. A solid thing.
The implication shattered our understanding of reality because it means physical matter, at its most fundamental level, does not exist as solid, localized particles. It exists as a wave, spread out in multiple places at once. And we don’t know how it collapses and suddenly becomes the solid world we experience. But this entire odyssey taught us one thing: the world as we see it isn’t fundamentally real. It’s just an appearance.
In other words: the universe is non-local, but we experience it as local. We don’t know how this happens or what it involves. But there are many theories that try to answer this question, and we’ll look at them on the next post.
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You have never struggled with shifting. Your ego has.
when you are finally staying consistent with shifting and allowing it to show itself to you…
when you feel that you’ve finally got it…
do not change your focus to “failure” ❌
remember that you are the creator of this reality!!! all paths are available to you. and you can accidentally use your brilliant creation against yourself out of fear and identification with the self.
and you won’t even realise that you’re doing it.
shifting to your desired reality is an incredibly NATURAL thing. but to the ego that doesn’t remember anything but its version of reality, it feels like it’s dying when you very closely entertain the idea of “leaving”.
so what it does is try its best to convince you to redirect your attention to anything that makes you feel like the OR is something so heavy and insistent that you can’t get it off you. all so that you very quickly forget who you really are and what you’re capable of experiencing and go back into the limited OR self. BUT PLEASE
do not give into ego. ❌
it has a HUGE fear of the unknown. but here’s the secret… the only thing you can find in the unknown is more of YOU! the real you. you as awareness can change the focus point to anywhere in ‘All That Is’ because ‘All That Is’ is YOU.
i could say getting past this is the last hurdle but i don’t want you picturing some heavy difficult wall in your head. if anything, the wall is made of paper. this ‘final boss’ is basically Mushu when he faked that large shadow to try and trick Mulan into thinking he was a great big dragon. it’s a trick and not a very good one if you’re aware of it.
i’ve said here that you have to stop giving your mind the wheel. i’ve explained here who you really are. and in this post, i’m trying to explain to you that when you apply this stuff… when you actually manage to surrender and allow even for just a moment … someone will panic.
• someone will start showing you things in your OR to make you believe you need to stay and fix something.
• someone will tell you that you should give up in the middle of your attempt because it’s “not working” or “nothing is happening” or “i can still feel the OR”
• someone will tell you to tell you to do more research or try new methods or script more.
• someone will try to make sure you get on whatever app keeps you scrolling and scrolling without end. (i’m looking at you tumblr, pinterest, tiktok etc)
• someone will tell you you’re doing something wrong, it’s not working and you’re stuck here because you don’t remember ever being able to ‘leave’.
all of this conveniently screams OR OR OR. so who must it be vowing for your attention?
is the someone you? no. it’s ego. but it’s not YOU.
so how you do make it stop? how do you make it go away? how do you kill ego? you don’t.
you can’t force it away. the ‘threat’ isn’t real anyway. that’s the point. if you push something away… where are you pushing it away to? there’s no “out there”. there’s only now. so all you’re doing is creating resistance which just puts even more focus on it. You’re feeding it and making sure it survives longer than it needs to.
so treat it with indifference. treat it with complete and utter acceptance. it doesn’t have any effect if you don’t give it the power, i promise. but don’t villainise it because it’s doing it’s job. treat it with a love that says “yes, i accept you but i am not you”. but you don’t actually have to say the words, just ignore it because it’s just not you.
don’t misunderstand, i’m not telling you you’re doing anything wrong. make all those posts about missing your s/o or how much you hate your OR, that’s totally fine! just as long as u know at the end of the day or at least when you are with the intention to shift, that it isn’t the real you missing or hating anything. you’re already on the path of success, why would you?
and despite the fact that i said you’re the creator of your reality, none of what you’re perceiving is newly created. Awareness is not shocked by anything that’s happening. the Ego Self might be, but pure awareness never is. who you truly are has seen this all before. it exists within you. always has.
and same with your DR. it is familiar to you. beyond memory, beyond feeling. like a hidden room in the house, it belongs to you. you are familiar to all that is within all that is because again… that’s you. this is a homecoming, not an invasion. the only reason you don’t make yourself aware of everything is because you have chosen to experience yourself as a master of limitation. now limit yourself to your DR!
anything that says that’s hard is not you. anyone who’s struggling is not you. YOU have never struggled with shifting to your DR, not once!
• struggling with shifting? not you.
• struggling with focusing? not you.
• feeling doubt? not you.
• desperate to leave the OR? that’s fine, but it’s not you.
• aware of the OR body and surroundings? as soon as you have that intention to shift, that’s not you.
- so if the ego is attacking? who cares? is it your problem when you’re already your dr self in your dr? no. good thing you’re not in your OR or identifying with OR ego anyway 👀. so it’s simply not your problem even if you are aware of it. it’s so much not your problem that you don’t have to judge it or make it go away, it doesn’t matter if this old you complains. if it goes “i’ve been trying so hard for years blablabla” literally pay it no mind bcs it’s not you that’s been struggling for years. and the OR ego will never make it into your DR anyway so that bitch can keep crying, okay?
- and once you totally accept this, there’s a stillness. because there won’t seem to be much left. and that’s perfect. that’s when you do your meditations and your methods (if you do that) to make sure the mind stays relaxed and out of your business enough for you to concentrate on being the observer and making your intention.
- you can then truly tap into that channel which is your DR. bcs you’ll find that knowing that there is no seperation. that you’re already in your DR but you just have to acknowledge it. not through intense conscious effort but by being open and empty enough to receive it. and when you finally notice it, don’t expect a big bang because it’ll arrive so quietly as if it was always here, because it has been.
You guys have every reason to feel completely confident in your journey. You have complete freedom! The real self i keep talking about? whether you call it god, source, infinite intelligence, consciousness, eye of the storm, all that is, higher self, higher mind etc. this is its game. so when you lie down to shift, who is really making that happen for you to observe. source or ego? of course it’s source. so what could possibly make you ‘fail’ if you’ve already been guided to this point? it’s your choice of focus. do you focus on the fact that source already decided you succeeded or the mind that wants to keep casting light on a “struggler”? your choice as the observer reflects what shows up for you to observe next. that’s it, all is true to you 🦋
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i know non dual concepts can be intimidating to apply with shifting. but i don’t intend to force you guys to operate on feeling yourself as pure awareness all the time. most of you aren’t in search of enlightenment which is fine - awakening is something you can’t unsee anyway so it’ll always be there for you to notice again when you need that rest from ego/self.
so feel free to temporarily zoom out so you can zoom back in again but this time when you’re diving into all that life ego drama, you’ll be doing it happily in your DR :]
You when ego tries it: 🥱
i wrote this a little sleep deprived so i hope it makes sense 🙏🏽
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