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admire folks who reblog posts which contradict eachother. exactly! keep em guessing

just a reminder that there’s so much more that we still don’t know about ourselves and that’s what makes life so beautiful. next year you could find your next favorite musician or fall in love with someone you haven’t even met yet. you might see a new shade of green that will become your new favorite color or you could become obsessed with a new food that you thought you once hated. we change as life goes on. we grow as life changes. our experiences shape us into a new person. it’s beautiful.

problematic rage gap. one partner tries to bring nuance and understanding to a tough situation. the other wants to blow up the earth about it.

the thing about being bullied for being weird as a kid is that even if you've always embraced being weird your brain is still always looking for the line where it's too much. you can be as proudly and intentionally weird as you want and you can love being weird but your mind is still convinced there's a point where you get too weird and people start treating you like a weird looking bug again. also it feels like you reach that point 500 times a day even if everyone you've spoken to today found you pleasant and likable and even if you're completely alone in your house with nobody looking at you at all.

it’s so hard for me to not doxx myself every single day btw. my oversharer’s spirit is being stifled by internet safety

i must not kill myself . killing myself is the myself killer

there are some things that are almost universally true for people. some things are good for generally everyone. being properly hydrated. getting face to face socialisation. getting fresh air or some interaction with nature. regular movement. being disabled doesn't make this less true, because we're still human as basic as everyone else. but disability often barrs us from accessing these things. this is a key disadvantage that disabled people have - it's not incidental that we can't easily go outside, it's bad for our health. i think that's the reason dismissive phrases like "touch grass" end up stinging, because it's throwing the inaccessibility in our faces. but i also think it's important to remember that just because people are dismissive about basic things being inaccessible, or act like disability would be cured by regular exercise and good nutrition, doesn't mean those things aren't beneficial for us. even if our disabilities stop us from being able to do these things. plus trying to get peer support for going outside or drinking more water or sleeping better sounds much more useful than trying to get that sort of advice from ableds. and if these things make you feel better it's not because you aren't disabled or have a health condition. it's because those things universally make people feel better.

i also think reframing the way disabled people are unable to meet certain needs like having a variety of activities or getting regular movement or going outside or balanced nutrition or less screen time is important. because the way people talk about it being insensitive to ask people to do this because they might be disabled almost makes it feel like that inability is considered the fault of the disabled individual. rather than these things not being met as an issue of healthcare neglect that many disabled people face.

disabled people always have a higher importance or priority than animals. idc how much you like little critters, disabled people are human beings

i guess people don't usually need to manage their fear and shock when a stranger comes up and says they know what train and bus you need and what street you live on when you're half a city away from home because they recognise you for your mobility aid. being visibly disabled is great. no downsides whatsoever. i love having to be polite and sociable to strangers i don't want to talk to and not be rude about the intrusion or batshit insane way they opened the conversation because they know where i fucking live. #disability privilege or whatever

dear people who live in wetter forested climates than my desert home, if I said that your home was "a bunch of nothingness, it's just a bunch of trees" would you think that's absurd? because there's so much more in a forest than "just trees" and there's so much beauty to be found in those trees? because it's an entire complex ecosystem that is vital for life on earth? because forests are beautiful and important and need protection? yes? then why would say that the desert is "a bunch of nothingness, it's just a bunch of rocks"?

When I was a little boy, girls used to just do random cartwheels for no reason. Then one day, they stopped. Now that I am a man, no women randomly do cartwheels. This is because society is evil and killed the cartwheel impulse in their soul. They don't even spin horizontally anymore. It's fucked up.