Ftm, call me out for it🥵

Call me she/her on here 🩷

I'm 23, 5 years on t and had top surgery.

In real life I live as a manly man and a lot of people don't even know I have a pussy down there 🩷

But in secret my female urges have me fully under control lately. So this is the space I will openly enjoy my very embarrassing kinks at... 🙊🩷

My blog is 18+ and not meant to offend anybody, but purely and entirely to get off to!

I love real men, fellow ftm girls, mtf boys and lesbians, you're all welcome 😘🩷

Exchanging pictures, degrading each other, receiving anon asks I can rub my girly parts to, all of this is very welcome 🩷☺️

Yes 🥵:

Detrans, misgendering, forced feminization, lesbo sex, reminding me of my place as a real biological woman that is only pretending to be a man, breeding kink especially ftm correction, forced impregnation and explicit descriptions of that, rape, public humiliation fantasy, verbal humiliation omg yes make me ashamed of myself...

Mild yes:

Forced pooping and peeing for humiliation purposes, enema and diaper, pet play

Rather not:

Forced to suck cock, anal

NO!!:

Just having sex with someone does nothing to me. I'm also incredibly embarrassed for this kink and am too ashamed to tell people in real life. Some people even assume I probably don't even like vaginal sex because I'm trans and my next life goal is probably phalloplasty (getting a penis). It's very awkward to tell them how I crave nothing like being stuffed full of something. And that I love my pussy and would never want to get a penis. That I want to have sex like a girl and be touched, held and pounded like one. People always assume if you're trans you despise your genitals and feminine sexual energy and they're very weirded out if you tell them this stuff.

Just one drop of semen and my life is ruined.

Just one drop of semen and my body is invaded by a mans dna.

Just one drop of semen and my hips grow wide, my bone structure changes, my skin stretches and my belly grows massive.

Just one drop of semen and my body is permanently brandmarked, maybe staying fat and ugly.

Just one drop of semen and my mind, hormones and body get tormented for 9 months straight.

Just one drop of semen and I won't be able to hide my real gender no more, anybody will be able to see.

Just one drop of semen and I lose control.

Just one drop of semen and I'm doomed to press out your offspring under immense pain and be reminded of you anytime I look at it's face.

Just one drop of semen and I'm ruined.

It's ironic how I used to be so dysphoric of my vagina, but have becoming so incredibly hypersexual after starting t. Testosterone has FORCED me to start masturbating frequently. Using thicker and longer dildos and vibrators, playing with my massively grown, errect clit. Touching and fucking myself again and again. Just to get some relief for a short while.

Sometimes my pussy won't stop leaking and drives me crazy for days, forces me to touch myself nonstop just to oragsm and get a little relieve. Before starting t my vagina was off limits. Now I can't even orgasm without a massive, thick elongated thing smashed inside. The deeper I shove something inside my pussy the more satisfied this unbearable need to get fucked and knocked up becomes. At least for a little while. But the hunger will always return. I'm more a helpless victim of my female parts than I ever had been before. Testosterone didn't turn me into a man, that's for sure. It forces me back into being a woman more than anything else. Using intense, uncontrolable sexual arousal to make me give in and learn to enjoy my destined womanhood. All I am is weak. No real man would fuck his cock starved, leaking pussy for hours compulsively fantasizing about getting impregnated for hours on. 

And based on how incredibly many of us feel the same way, it can't be a coincidence, right?

Maybe giving female bodies testosterone to transition is a lie. Maybe health care providers know all it really does is activating your female sexuality to the fullest. Slowly turning you into a whore that gets obsessed with their real gender, finding great pleasure in sex and their bodies and roles as female preys for dominant men. That eventually all they really want is living as a woman again, getting fucked nonstop and becoming birth machines as nature has planned. 

Giving confused girls testosterone and going with their delusion of being a man is disguised as gender affirming care. But the thing it really does is an effective way to fix you in the long run. It slowly converses you back and makes you fall in love with the feelings your girl slit gives you when penetrated. You will learn to love yourself as a girl, learn to enjoy the female role and happily submit to the natural urge to reproduce. And at last: Feel the desire to transition back to live as the girl you were always supposed to be. Therapy successful.

So I studied my own body and tracked whether or not I still ovulate the past months. I've been on t for many years so I was kind of curious what's going on.

Based on my AI research explaining my observations, using ovulation tests, noting dates and paying attention to my body I found that I still have regular ovulations and a precise cycle despite not having a period.

Today at around 12pm I experienced something very special as I was at work and I'm so excited I felt the need to share. Out of nowhere I had a sudden flush of…I don't even know how to describe it. I suddenly felt a lot of discharge coming out of me and landing in my underwear for no reason. Followed by a sudden and unexpected flush of sexual arousal. And the immense desire to get pregnant. It was very intense and surprising, it was the first time ever I felt it THIS clearly. At the same time I felt a little pain in my abdomen that lasted for like half an hour. I was so aroused I had to use the bathroom to masturbate. And oh boy my discharge is very slippery and very stretchy! It's so much it didn't stop anymore. I very clearly felt an event going on in my body.

AI told me based on my detailed description of all my circumstances and findings the past few months, there is no doubt I felt the exact moment my ovulation happened today.

33% of all transmen still ovulate regularily after years of testosterone therapy! And I'm very happy to be one of them, especially since I have a misgender/pregnancy risk kink. Most just never notice any symptoms at all and assume testosterone prevents it entirely. So did I for a long time. But it's a proven misconception.

I'd look so luscious with boobs, wouldn't I? ❤️