get to the heart, i’ll catch-up.

there should be a jesus on the cross emoji. not for any religious reasons. just so I can use it for every slight inconvenience.

Who wants to be narrative foils together

With tongue

i know we're not supposed to say this but i literally love being alone and going on the computer

I feel like one specific aspect of eddie's reaction in 9x15 that we haven't talked about enough is his discomfort with searching buck's house. he's the only one to visibly feel bad about having to disrupt buck's privacy, which I feel is pretty striking cause usually eddie would be the one who I'd imagine would have a more pragmatic outlook on making sure that a recovering addict's house is clear of any substances they could be tempted by. in that moment, eddie is more emotionally affected by how this might look to buck like they're treating him as untrustworthy or like a criminal (which makes him bringing christopher over to keep buck company that much more of a grand gesture. this is eddie anticipating buck's hurt and preemptively trying to show him that he still trusts him, even when it might look like he doesn't.) I just think it's so interesting that we're finally seeing eddie, who is always so pragmatic and down to do what needs to be done, be the only one to hesitate because his heart has started to take the lead when it comes to buck and he can't hide behind his rationality anymore

bobby got clean on his own. he white knuckled it and isolated himself, ran away to california because he thought it would be somewhere where he could do his penance and then die in peace in a place where no one knew him or cared about him. but instead he ended up building a family that loves and cares about each other and holds each other together, not realizing that when his kid goes through the same thing years later, the family that he built will make it so buck doesn't have to do it alone. that instead he'll be safe and cared for and loved no matter what. bobby might be gone, but he was in that house with them the whole time.

eddie sitting on buck’s bed and handing him the pills and the water did something irreversible to me. god i love them i love them i love them and i love the love they have for each other

isn’t that what love is? when you’re at your worst and they’re at their worst and you still find a reason to keep going?

anyone else gets weirdly emotional when they see pic of early season buddie next to modern seasons buddie………. they’re growing old together yall