Diary for my beloved blog

I look forward to the day our time isn't cut short. I want us to stay outside playing in the sun and just do whatever makes us happy together.

Leaving you after such a delightful weekend breaks my heart and returning to an empty home knowing I will not hold you for weeks is pure torture.

I feel completely stuck in an impossible position right now. When you're unwell, I know my affection will help.

I love watching you turn our kitchen utensils into toys. I always remind you that this is your home. You belong here and you can play however you want.

Watching you run around without a care in the world brings me pure joy. Seeing you grow braver and more confident every single day makes me the absolute proudest father.

Seeing happy families together makes my heart ache for the simple routine we deserve but I am patiently putting in the work to build that beautiful life for us.

Sharing lunch with you at a food market I have loved for years felt like a beautiful new chapter in our story as a father and daughter.

Hearing you call for your daddy in the morning makes my heart warm and it makes me want to seize every second of the day we have together.

As soon as I saw your beautiful face I made big waving gestures. My heart melted when you smiled back and told me so sweetly that I am your friend.

The sun is shining and the park is calling but I am left staring at a silent phone.

I count down every second until our video call only to have our precious connection cut short by hands that want to keep us apart and silent.

I breathed in the scent of your head when you woke up and felt so accomplished because another night of restful sleep meant we were ready for a fun day.

I counted down the minutes until our extra time together but watching those hours get cut away feels like your childhood is slipping right through my fingers.

I watched you playing and remembered feeling so lost 2 years ago but seeing the confident and beautiful girl you're becoming fills me with such incredible pride.

My heart breaks every time I have to watch you walk away. Seeing our lives torn in half is the hardest part of being the parent who has to say goodbye.

You captured our first daddy daughter photo together today and I know it is a memory that I am going to treasure for the rest of my life.

I'm trapped in a nightmare where I cannot win no matter what I do. If I push I am harassing her but if I don't do anything I might look like I'm not interested.