i'm exhausted

I just love it when things are earnest like everyone get more earnest now

“we just want a future, i don’t know” is so crazy when you think about it. like this is shane who’s never let his wants or desires be known. he keeps them so close to his chest, never lets anyone see them, much less his parents, but then he falls in love with ilya. and now that he knows ilya feels the same he’s trying to figure it out and he’s trying to make it all fit into the lives they have but it’s still so terrifying for him, the path ahead so amorphous and uncertain. he’s trying not to make waves or demand things, and he doesn’t wanna be paraded all over the mlh as this gay icon. but he’s certain he wants ilya. he wants ilya when he wakes up in the morning and he wants ilya when he comes home and he wants their shirts to brush shoulders in the closet and their toothbrushes to sit beside each other on the sink and he wants their worlds to come together, for the tapestries of their lives to become so interwoven you’d find traces of the other everywhere. a future, a forever, with the only person he’s ever been in love with. and is that so much to ask?

i bet it feels good as fuck to intend to do something and then actually do it

Let's fucking grab this Wednesday by the nothing

the Cc in emails stands for Cuck chair

when 1D said does it ever drive you crazy just how fast the night changes they were so fucking right

happy Barely Keeping It Together Wednesday to all who celebrate

My Shane and Ilya are both incredibly possessive of one another and quick to jealousy but while Ilya gets jealous in a “everyone wants you but they can’t have you, you’re mine and I will delight in showing everyone what they’re missing out on” way, Shane gets jealous in a “I will burn this club down with both of us in it” way.