Decayed Girl

Awww Okie dokie!! I’m happy you like it hehe!

I like it too, I was just wondering if it was glaring on the eyes or something..

Happy to know that it ain’t to bad though! (ˊᗜˋ)

Thanks for the feedback ladybug! I hope you’re having a good day/night! ꒰ ྀི ∩⸝⸝∩ ꒱♥︎

Take care dear!! ૮꒰˶ ˘ ³˘꒱ˆᵕ ˆ˶₎ა

Be honest yall…

Is the blue and purple to much?

Should I keep the text like white and purple?

I’m just wondering haha!

(Or maybe white and blue..?)

On another note of me being such a chud, my poor computer needs cleaning, and im too tired to clean it :/

Until I can clean it I unfortunately cannot play my silly video games on it ᴗ͈̥̥̥̆‸ᴗ͈̥̥̥̆

But when I do…best be KNOWING that I’m gonna continue playing the bendy series, AND CUPHEAD. (Cue the very lovely gifs :3)

I’ve been having a hard time, and I’ve been wanting to slice and dice for a while, but I’ve been unable too. ‎´т ‧̫ т ̀

Either by me being to tired, or something was happening and I couldn’t do it! ( ᵒ̴̶̷̥́ ^ ᵒ̴̶̷̣̥̀ )

I genuinely had to have some self restraint cause I’m babysitting my cousin tomorrow and I didn’t want a possible unskipable event to happen…

But now I’m sitting here with anxious feeling stuck in my chest. ๛꜀꒰ ˟⌂˟꜀ ꜆꒱꜆

It fucking sucks, but it lowkey don’t matter cause I’m a fat chud soooo whatevs! ꜀( ꜆˘꒳˘)꜆ᐝ

Which makes sense in hindsight, if I look back and realize all I’ve ever done is nothing.

Then yeah, it makes sense.

It’s mind boggling how I just..wasted my potential like that.

Never trying to fix or repair anything that was breaking.

Just…rotting in place, until it become all I’ve ever known.

I dropped out in middle school.

I did online for a little, never finished or learned anything.

Then went into homeschooling.

I only wasted away during those important years.

Once again, doing absolutely nothing.

It’s no wonder I’m so incompetent, an idiot, a tumor in a way.

Even dumb people are smarter than me.

I know nothing, I do nothing, I am nothing.

Really..what’s keeping me here?

I’m wasting prime real estate, food, money, and people’s time.

Why do I exist?

All I do is consume, media, games, music, art.

But I do nothing, I gain nothing.

I am nothing.

I can’t take care of anyone, not me, and especially not a family pet.

I’m sickening.

A horrible sight of a human being.

I am only a burden.

I only wish, a wish I probably don’t deserve to wish.

“I wish I never existed.”

Still here though.

…

I’m tired.

Maybe I’ll be able to sleep, and have calming dreams.

I just realized how much time really has passed..

I desperately wish to back to when I was geeking all about FNAF, BATIM, and Undertale..

I really miss it.

Maybe I’d do better the second time around too.

(̨̡ ¨̯ )̧̢

*(/NF = not forced)

OMG THANK YOUUUUU!! (⸝⸝⸝ᵒ̴̶̷̥́ o ᵒ̴̶̷̥́⸝⸝⸝)

It was actually nice!!! Had a very filling birthday! Basically I ate waaayy too much stuff..^ ̳ ̫ ̳^

I got some suprise stuff too! Like a silly little Freddy Fazbear poseable plushie, that makes noises…ooOOoOOoo..

Anyways before I rant to much THANKS ALOT!

I appreciate your caring heart!! And I shall accept those virtual hugs! (っ*´˘` )´˘`⊂)

Wow!! It’s my birthday!!! Omg it’s today!!!

And I was immediately met with my aunt and uncle fighting about him possibly being on drugs..again.

It’s so bad my siblings had to talk to my aunt about it, apparently he hid that shit in my brothers desk.

I don’t trust him, it’s actually sad this is happening, especially cause they have a little kid that’s constantly in front of their fights.

I fear she might grow up traumatized.

And all on my birthday! Wowzers!! It literally just turned my birthday!!

How surprising. (　；∀；)

WAIT, not goodnight yet!! I wanna share this!

Fake Drawn SFX, Vent Art, Fake Drawn Blood

Tomorrow’s my birthday yall..

I don’t think I wanna turn 20, i honestly didn’t think I’d even turn 18 ᯤ ᯅ ᯤ

Sooo I guess this is a milestone? A horrible one for me, hah.

I’m hoping tomorrow will be good, I genuinely cannot handle another break down day.

Goodnight yall! Don’t let the bed bugs bite ꒰ ྀི ∩⸝⸝∩ ꒱♥︎

Oh my god..

I’m never taking a cold shower like that EVER again.

IT WAS WAY TOO COLD, I WAS FREEZING MY SANITY AWAY!!!

The only thing that kept me going was jumping up and down and saying “oh good heavens.”

I now find a certain respect to those who take cold showers often (՞⸝⸝o̴̶̷̥᷅ ̫ o̴̶̷̥᷅⸝⸝՞)

I love sleeping on the floor sometimes! ꜀( ꜆˘꒳˘)꜆ᐝ

Buuuut I wanna sleep in my bed, though it seems there’s no hot water to shower in…

Probably gonna have to raw dog that shower o̴̶̷ ̫ o̴̶̷̥᷅