#sh addict

Ok so if you do cat scratches/light styros or things that don't draw blood (all completely valid btw) you might think people on here are being dramatic talking about expensive woundcare, "bean juice", wounds leaking and such. They're not. I hit the fat layer for the first and hopefully last time a few days ago and when I took the bandage off today it was absolutely soaked through with this sort of clear to light yellow liquid. It bled for like a day after the initial cut and shows no signs of healing yet. I live at home so I don't buy my own bandages, but that's almost worse cause now I'm using less than I need so I don't use too much. I absolutely hate the feeling of my legs being stiff and now I can't stretch because it hurts so bad, everytime my legs stick to each other cause I crossed them or something it hurts to separate them, I'm constantly scared that it'll soak into my clothes and give it all away. What's worse is that even after I was terrified by the initial cut and promised myself I'd never do it again, I got really strong urges yesterday and today. Going deeper doesn't pay, it won't scratch that itch, it'll just make everything worse. Please take care of yourself.