sae writes (sometimes)

A non-writer asked me "but where do you get your ideas" and i genuinely did not know how to explain that it's not a place. it's not a website. it's not a folder. it's that i was on the bus and a woman was holding a paper bag very carefully and something about the way she held it made me need to know what was inside and then i needed to know why she was sad about it and then there was a whole person and then there was a whole story and the bus had already stopped and i missed my stop. that's where.

What if I start a trend called "No one nuts November" where everyone writes about their favorite characters having bad sex that sucks and isn't fun.

Kinda sleepy, kinda bored, kinda feeling like I want to go on Christian forums and reach out to people who post looking for support overcoming masturbation urges and sexual desire... present myself as a friend and safe space for them to vent, tell them it might help relieve the desires to talk about them, open up vulnerably about my own "struggles," and just subtly and sweetly use religious language to get them to delve into their repressed needs until they're so horny they break. And if they start to say that the conversation is making them feel desire, and we should stop, encourage them to see this as an opportunity to prove their will and strength to God, to show Him how deeply they can crave sin without indulging...

I am your saving grace, Lamb. I'm your whip and your aftercare. I am your joy and your sorrow. I am your life and your death.

priestfucking except the priest doesn't break his vow of chastity, he won't even touch you in your state of impurity, he makes you strip naked and rub yourself in front of him, gradually telling you to go faster and faster, you won't cum the sin out unless you go so hard it burns, you have to burn out Satan from your sinful cunt, he's throwing holy water in your face, until you're cumming and sputtering and sobbing all at once, shivering in a mess of fluids on the floor. he wraps you in a robe and tells you to see him again next week, and to tell him if the whorish thoughts still fill your mind. he may have to whip the demon out next time.

Priest furiously stroking himself with his rosary wrapped around his hand, cheeks red with shame but he can't stop, he needs it too badly

the Relationship Ambiguity Zone™️ is a beautiful place to be. safe place to put your characters. put all characters into Relationship Ambiguity Zone. is that guy your mentor or your dad? Ambiguous!!! are you friends or enemies? Ambiguous!!! is it romantic? is it platonic? is it sexual? Ambiguous!!!!!!! never categorize anything ever in the Relationship Ambiguity Zone. just make them fucking weird about each other.

man sometimes friendship really is just "I saw this and knew it would give you psychic damage. please respond with agony" and then they do. and it's great

or “i wrote this to give you psychic damage” in the case of me and @p-laramen

rewatching the series so I can write the porn more in character