keeva crowfoot writes

benjamin sisko

gets super serious super fast. like a light switch, just flips into Scary Captain Mode. ben is really good at compartmentalizing when there’s an emergency. his fears and worries steady him, makes him focus - but that only means it hits him all the harder once the crisis has passed and now he has to continue being strong for your sake. but it’s difficult for ben not to be thrown back to the worst moment of his life. it’s impossible for him not to think the worse because the worse has already happened and will happen again. the knowledge steels ben’s resolve to keep you safe - no matter what.

but afterward, even after you’re physically okay, ben will start to hover. he’s always been a little overprotective, but it becomes noticeably more intense. asks odo to keep a special eye on you if you’re seen on the promenade. persuades julian to give you one or two more check-ups than is necessary. quietly making sure you’re really okay and he's positive that you’ve got no idea but instantly gives in whenever you prod him about it. even when ben lets up a little, you still feel his eyes on you during the early hours of the morning. like he’s checking to make sure you’re breathing.

you allow him that one paranoid comfort.

kira nerys

does not handle it well at all. gets so angry at whatever hurt you, at herself for not doing enough to protect you, at julian for not helping fast enough - maybe a little angry at you for being hurt at all, but kira quickly recognizes it’s wildly unfair. so many of her emotions instantly switch to rage, it’s difficult to pick them apart. it all happened so fast, her shock was just as white-hot as her rage. her worry as vast and bottomless as her anger. but it’s kinda what she needs, in the moment - kira’s rage has always been a means to an end. a bedrock for determination to get you somewhere safe.

back on the station, when she can see and feel that you’re still alive, kira finally feels like she’s allowed to slow down. she goes back to the woman you only ever really see in private. nerys - soft and thoughtful and concerned. regretful but moving forward. doing whatever she can to make the situation better. nerys is very strict about how much rest you get and the work you do once you’re cleared for duty. but it comes from a place of love.

jadzia dax

the moment jadzia realizes you’re hurt, that starfleet professionalism snaps into place. she’s really good at keeping her focus - compartmentalizing means survival. jadzia’s reaction is immediate. dropping everything to get to you. not letting anybody pull her away unless it’s absolutely necessary. on the surface, she seems steady and collected. but really, she’s fucking terrified. instincts compounded by her past hosts to flee, to help, to fight, to cry - but she stays. because you need her.

absolutely doesn’t leave the infirmary when you’re recovering. she’ll stay as long as you want her to - telling you jokes, playing dumb card games, or just talking because jadzia feels so grateful that she still can. she’s very attentive - not hovering, but always within arms reach. and after a time, jadzia might even initiate conversations about your future together. a near-death experience reminds her how fleeting life can be - a lesson she really outta learn by now.

julian bashir

julian has a tendency to feel things very intensely. learning you’re hurt sets him on a warpath - as in, there’s no force in this galaxy that will stop him from helping you. he doesn’t care who he has to scold, shoot at, or threaten to get to you. beneath the surface, there’s a bit of anger towards himself. all of his starfleet training and enhanced intelligence, and julian still couldn’t keep you safe. but in the moment, only two facts matter to him - he’s your boyfriend, and he’s your doctor. the rest can come later.

once the danger has passed and julian has you safe in the infirmary, he doesn’t stop until he knows you’re on your way to a complete recovery. tends to hyperfocus on this injury or that - his mind just kinda does its own thing and runs through every possible outcome. even as julian starts to calm down, the instinct to heal is still there - subtly checking your pulse when he holds you, or noting your breathing when you kiss his cheek. will be annoyingly meticulous about your recovery. julian just wants you to be okay.

odo

it’s not often that odo allows his emotions to guide his actions. but the moment he sees you go down, there’s a violent storm of unfamiliar and unpleasant feelings that hinder his attempts to help you - and that only makes him more angry. odo is a protector, and he’s just failed to protect one of the only people he genuinely cares for. his first words to you would be quite blunt - “don’t move. i’ll handle this. just lay still.” being so brusque is odo’s way of getting the job done. push down those pesky feelings. but really, his words don’t match his voice. there’s a tangible shakiness to it. odo isn’t well-versed in gentleness, but he tries.

but god help you once you’re safe and sound back on the station. odo keeps a near-constant vigilance under the guise of “safety” and “security.” lingers around for longer than he needs to with flimsy excuses because odo doesn’t want the others to see how worried he is but he just can’t help it. he’ll be an awkward caretaker - frustrated that he can’t fix things right away and not a naturally nurturing person. odo is very practical in his caregiving. keeping your quarters tidy, keeping visitors at a minimum, bringing what you need without complaint.

try not to tease him too much. he’s going through a lot.

miles o'brien

subtly isn’t miles’ strong suit. the moment he realizes you’re hurt, his entire face drops. nothing else is more important. he’s always been the kinda guy to wear his heart on his sleeve - miles wouldn’t be able to cover up his fear, anger, and worry. but he’s also a practical person who’s been in battle situations - i can see him shaping up super quick and jumping into action. talks to you the entire time, damn near begging you to stay awake. stay with him. “come on, sweetheart, show me those eyes.” his panic is visible, but so is his love.