I'm sorry that it took me so long to say anything. I have not opened tumblr for a long time, and I won't open it again for another long while after this.
I'm terribly sorry that things turned out this way. A lot of horrible things happened, almost in a conga line that somehow prevented me from sketching and inking, physically and mentally for the past 50+ days.
Besides clothes and my phone, I currently have nothing else. I am disowned, and was forced to give up almost all my stuff to them, including my college funds. They were willing to physically threaten me. I'm broke as a joke.
That means I don't have a PC to draw, write code or play games with. That also means I lost all of my files. Drafts and sketches are erased. A lot of progress lost. I'm a dumbass for not using cloud, but hey I never thought they'd dispose of me like this so suddenly. Kind of glad, actually. Kind of happy I'm not with them anymore. I'm surprised I'm not as depressed and insane as I thought I'd be.
I'm fortunate to be partially adopted. At least I won't be living in the streets. But getting another decent PC and a drawing tablet is gonna take a while, especially in this shitty economy. Not that I'm in a hurry. I'm most likely forgotten and believed to be dead.
I suppose this is where my comic hobby ends. I'll just go back to being my old lurker self. However, I still love art, and I still love my little world. I'm just incapable of doing any digital drawing. I'm incapable of being Wilt for the time being.
Ahaha, it's as if my AU is cursed. I was so excited, and then it's gone. Literally. I'm terribly disappointed in myself. I'm really, really sorry I couldn't deliver. I feel really guilty, but no use crying about it now.
I still want to draw chapters. I don't care if I or the AU is forgotten. I don't care if SU as a whole is no longer a thing. I want to draw it for myself. I must be a lunatic to be clinging to a fictional world.
In the meantime I'll keep myself busy, learn a different skill, actually do something productive and slowly work my way back to my old setup. It's not as bad as it sounds. It's like I'm forced to pay attention to other things in life other than a story in my head.
Unfollow both my blogs if you wish. It's been a lot of fun. I've met good friends here. Maybe I'll draw again with a different name... Nah. I'm not giving my name up. I'll always be wiltingPierrot.
Thank you for everything. Goodbye for now.
