doubt.frescpg

and there's no winning, either she'll text me like i'm any other friend and nothing happened, or she won't text me like i don't exist, at the end of the day she'll be happily spending the day with someone she cares about more than me. and i know, grow up, accept and get over the fact that she just doesn't care about me anymore, move on, all that. i know, and i really wish i didn't have love in me anymore too. and i know i'm supposed to just put this in a journal or talk to someone about it like a normal person but i can't help but feel that everybody is very happy for her and very supportive of her choices and trying to be there for her in these difficult times, and i don't want to insert myself in that, and there's only so much "i know it sucks right now but it will be better at some point and breakups are just hard" that i can take knowing she's getting all the love and support in the world while refusing to do anything to pick up the pieces.