side main blog that's also a blog... on the side

me (crazy eyes, covered in blood): I NEED to finish writing my fanfic. so I can start writing a different fanfic.

btw it's so fucking stupid you can be anxious physically in your body even after you've decided mentally you don't care. I'm supposed to be in charge here

I want to write my fanfic <- isn’t writing my fanfic

No, you see, I wish to be an author. Not in marketing. Or an influencer. I wish to tell my stories, be told I did a fantastic job, and then go back to my hovel to scribble some more. I am delicate of constitution and awkward in crowds.

do not underestimate my ability to burn it all to the fucking ground

Merlin every time someone tried to kill Arthur

WARNING do NOT start reading books and comics or watching movies or looking at art!!! you will start wanting to create art yourself. or god forbid. writing.

Befriending an artist who you deeply admire probably never ceases entirely to feel totally bewildering and surreal.

Pablo Picasso is in my DMs. Vincent Van Gogh is my Tumblr mutual and he's sending 16 smirking face emojis to me right now.

editing is so funny because it's like "damn, i wrote 'before' two times within three paragraphs. they are going to stone me in the town square for this"