A fanfic writer here! Haven't had a Tumblr in a while, thought I'd get back into things here since I'm writing fanfics again. Feel free to ask me anything or swing around for a chat. Me & my two braincells will gladly entertain you.
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AO3: Cam1942
Current fixation: Ghoap 🫶
Currently working on:
Charred Bones: Post MWII canon compliant fic (until it's not) with dog-coded Soap and Ghost going through his multitudes of issues while falling for him. Will include puppy play and other,, not so safe for work aspects in the later chapters 😏. (5/?)
Bleeding Oath: a Vampire!Ghost x Werewolf!Soap fic that features angst, enemies to lovers and soulmate shenanigans. (5/?)
not alone (anymore): Alone Ghost monsterfucking fic, ft. trans Soap, human experimentation, torture, gore and horror themes. (3/4)
COMPLETED FICS:
With The Softness Of Your Breath; a holiday centric domestic fluff fic for the boys! Retired Soap needs to figure out what to do with his life after a medical discharge, but thankfully there is a certain blond from his childhood waiting for him at his family's farm, right when he inherits the property. 4 chapters. 26k.
People You Know Can Hurt You The Most; also a holiday fic, revolving around New Year more but there's a Christmas moment. ft. angst with a happy ending, John MacTavish's family and Simon "Pretty Boy" Riley. 11k.
carry me in your teeth (with jaws of tender sympathy): an Orca!Ghost x Seal!Soap shifter fic. With a lot of angst, fluff and a meet bloody, even. 9 chapters. 70k.
NSFW FICS:
Leaving Your Heart On Fire: omegaverse smut fic, featuring Ghoap. I'll probably add more chapters in the future because the setting helps me practice ™️.
Only Yours: part 2 of the omegaverse smut series, wall sex galore.
You've Got Me Mind Body And Soul: part 3 of the series, featuring desk sex.
Sweetest Gift: a BDSM verse oneshot, with Lingerie Soap, Shibari & Ghoap in love shenanigans involved.
malt liquor on your breath (you're mine): Dilf ghost smut pwp, featuring older Ghost with a literal daughter and younger Soap who's friends with the said daughter.
a dog's trust: puppy Soap + consensual somnophilia with scent kink and sex toys as a treat.
tamed by my own longing: trans dog hybrid Soap, sex pollen and love confessions. also fucking, of course.
TUMBLR POSTS:
(MCD) a letter from a dead man (to another), to be known is to be remembered (is to be loved), a cycle of destruction (burning just to keep him warm), pet names & Ghoap, it'll be alright, (smut) taking care of each other's problems, (smut) the bed doesn't creak, trust is a knife with curved teeth (smut),
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Inner monologue definition: a constant background narration that runs in your head describing your thoughts, plans, or actions in lingual form. NOTE: If you only experience an inner monologue when you're actively writing or planning out your writing, then that doesn't count.
Do you experience an inner monologue?
Yes, and I CAN listen to music with lyrics while writing.
Yes, and I CANNOT listen to music with lyrics while writing.
No, and I CAN listen to music with lyrics while writing.
No, and I CANNOT listen to music with lyrics while writing.
whatever button
Voting ended onJun 30
For the purposes of this poll, try to collapse all nuance of "music with lyrics." If you can listen to a song that's not in the language you're writing, or if you can listen to music with vocals, but only if the vocals are so indistinct they're barely comprehensible, then vote at your discretion.
Hyper-individualist cultures go, “Your emotions are your personal responsibility. Don’t burden others. Regulate privately. Maintain functionality. If you’re upset, process it offstage so the machine keeps moving.” Meanwhile certain collectivist or harmony-focused frameworks go, “Your emotions disrupt group cohesion. Don’t create discomfort. Don’t impose disharmony. Transcend or contain your reactions for the sake of the whole.”
Different mythology, same trembling fear that one person saying “actually, I feel terrible” will cause civilization to peel apart like wet drywall.
Like you do need to recognise sometimes that a person is not picking up your social cues and adjust your communication style accordingly. If someone isn't understanding you then you need to change up how you're communicating and not just say the same thing over & over.
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I am so tired of short-attention-span, trim-the-fat culture.
All writing advice these days is for how to write like Chuck Palahniuk. "Cut 'think', cut 'feel', cut 'wonder' - only action, only pushing forward, show and move and move and move." What if I could emulate this style, and still don't want to? What if I want to write like Henry James, with three paragraphs of introspective musings between each dialogue line?
The music advice is, "make it shortform, make it Tik-Tok compatible, make it punchy, hit the refrain as soon as possible." What if I want that 10-minute prog rock piece? What if I want that symphony? What if I want it slow and luxurious and lazy?
Movies. Series. Poetry. Bodies. Everything is "trimmed trimmed trimmed trimmed, stripped bare, you have three seconds to win me over, make it airport chic." I don't want to win you over, then, I guess.
I want the fat left it.
I want the pleasure and the indolence and the indulgence.
Fuck this art-advice that's always "your art needs Ozempic."
I take exception to poetry because it is an art whose muscle is honed for the strength to express as much as possible within strict, stylized constraints. Just like other highly stylized art forms, like genres of theatre or ballet.
But in general, yes. The quickfire, surface-level, use-once-and-throwaway culture permeates art these days - all glitz and no substance. My more recent style is more pared down for reasons above, but I've experimented with and celebrate other styles too - stream-of-consciousness, long rambling flowery language, everything in between.
I refuse to rearrange my writing to "hook" my readers within the first sentence and make it a blockbuster action script, and maybe I won't be able to get published traditionally due to this, but I can't deal with reducing the richness of human experience down to how desperately I can hold onto a tiktok-addicted teen's attention span.
Arts and entertainment are often grouped together, but are not always interchangeable. Not all art needs to be instant gratification entertainment. And the important ones never were.
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opening a wip to partially written smut that needs to be finished remains one of the most frustrating experiences of writing like man. i don't care about dick in hole rn....can we do something else....
it actually makes me so sad and angry when people deny their fave blorbo could possibly be a sadist like whats wrong with sadism did sadism do something problematic
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I've come bearing my love for your ghoap fics, recently started rereading not alone(anymore) and it's just AAAAA I love it 🥹🥺.
I'm silly and didn't realise how many of your fics I actually am following and have followed - no rush in updating them though! Thank you for all you have written and I hope you're well 🙂↕️
Thank you so much, you are so sweet!!
I do have. the wip for the last chapter of not alone (anymore) with a couple of thousand words written that I SHOULD get back into. I've been missing them and being busy at the same time, which. jdbdjbd.
Surely, monster/monsterfucker Ghoap can bring me back, right. Surely.
My brain: okay sure but what if it were a full length novel
Me: I don’t have time for that. Just make it a one shot.
My brain, planning out a ten book series: sorry what was that? Anyway here’s how we’re going to kill this character that doesn’t have a name yet in book six.
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