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PRIVATE: babe, i do have to tell you something since i saw the baby shower invites you've been working on. it's about zara, but i don't want you to think it's a huge deal or anything, i would just feel weird about not telling you since you two are friends? i think? [ @clinermaddie ]

PRIVATE: unless it's about her singing at the baby shower, i don't want to hear it. and i wouldn't say we're friends per se, but we're slowly getting there. i mean, i reached out to her after the card she sent you.. which.. why did she do that? and why have you never mentioned that you know her when i told you how obsessed i wa-- ..oh my god...

remember when we said to facetime each other to share big news before we post it all over social media and then for the first time in my life, i missed your call and it was the most important one ? yeah, someone should hit me in the face and mean it. because i might've screamed when i saw the post. but i'm so happy and excited for you, entering this new chapter, babe ! congratulations ! how are you feeling ? you've now got an official seat solely reserved for you at the "i'm a mommy. mamacita" table. jack will keep on asking you to take him to the farmers' market with that golden card, by the way. i think that's a deal for life by now. but he'll also be all over your little munchkin. make it an hour. or two. or three. because, i got you. self-care after giving birth is so underrated but it's so important.

uh huh.. and since you're doing such a good job acknowledging your giant screw up, i can admit that i was mentally flicking your forehead. but i forgive you because i know you're a gorgeous busy bee who's got her hands full. thank you so much, babe. it feels surreal but somehow also like the realest thing ever, which i'm sure you can relate to. i'm doing okay right now. still getting used to everything and i'm not just talking about the physical changes but the mental ones too. and you know what? this officially means we get to become those friends who only talk about their kids while everyone else rolls their eyes. love that for us. of course he does. he loves anything shiny and rightfully so. i mean, he's going to grow up to be the biggest nepo baby of his generation. he deserves a gold card. please, i trust you with my life and by that i mean of course you can babysit for as long as you want if it means i get to take a shower and squeeze in a teeny tiny nap. i know, right? i read that it can also help prevent the baby blues, so even though i can't really speak for my maternal instincts, yet, hopefully i'll be able to separate myself from the baby every now and then.

my love, my love, my love! i woke up more excited than last night, can you believe this? how are you feeling? do you need anything, beautiful eomeoni? jin can fix you some of that tea to help with your nausea if needed. just let me know and i'll slap his ass like a horse to get to work! can i be the second person to feel the baby kicking when it's time? please, please, please? @clinermaddie

my soulmate, my soulmate, my soulmate. and you know what's so funny? you're probably the person who's been the most excited about the news. i love that. it somehow makes everything feel even more welcomed. i'm okay right now but if you're up for bothering jin and bring me his homemade remedies and teas, you know i won't complain. plus, it'll give you a chance to smack his ass. and you know the second that happens i'm running straight to your room. joonie has apparently decided i'm not allowed to leave his side until the baby's born.

my baby... who is going to have a baby. a real freakin' baby and a cute one at that. how are we feeling, mama? @clinermaddie

oh my god, i know, right? i'm praying joon's genes decide to be dominant, because how cute would that be? though, as long as the baby's healthy i don't really care about anything else. right now i'm okay.. tired, but okay. how are you, my love?

i saw that you're going to be a mum, congratulations! that's such wonderful news. how are you feeling? what's the whole experience been like for you so far?

i am, and thank you so much. right now i'm tired most of the time, which i think is pretty normal. luckily everything's been fairly consistent and i haven't had too many changes. it's been a really good experience so far. also i've got a bone to pick with you, bower. about a month ago i was scrolling through my audiobooks and when i say i read books, i mean books, you know? and whose voice did i hear? yours. since when did you become part of booktok?

So now that you've announced your pregnancy to the world, I hope you're resting up and getting treated like the queen you are. I know Joon has the best intentions, but I need my niece or nephew to come out in perfect health and I think the key to that is keeping you stress free. Seriously, how are you feeling about everything? I'm so happy for you, Mads. You're going to be the most amazing mom. @clinermaddie

and i can one hundred percent promise you that your niece or nephew is going to have a well rested mom. i'm at that stage where my body is getting used to all the changes, so i sleep a lot during the day. then again, i did that before i got pregnant, so what's really changed? joon has been terrific. it's almost like he's the one going through it. and i'm feeling really content and at peace with everything now that the news has settled. thank you, sweetie. i love you so, so much. i hope you know that. also, how are you doing? give me the tea from across the sea.

congratulations, maddie! you're just over there with that pregnancy glow and i bet there's not even a highlighter in sight. are you feeling ready for the whole mom thing yet? i saw you and joon talking on twitter about cravings. any other weird ones? [ @clinermaddie ]

thank you so, so much, gorgeous. delusional people call it the pregnancy glow but i choose to call it what it really is: sweat. not calling you delulu, by the way. but if you see a glow i'll happily take it. not at all.. i think the second i feel the nugget move, maybe the maternal instincts will kick in? um, cravings so far. kimchi in an onion cup. orange juice mixed with strawberry koolaid. salted licorice and once again onion dipped in cottage cheese.