we wont let time forget this marrionette quintet!

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A week or two ago, I got my proof to the contrary. I'd been having a difficult day, woke up late, and had to rush out the door, ran into minor inconvenience after minor inconvenience, and then the straw broke the camel's back.

I wrote out the kind of angry vindictive seething text message I used to write constantly. I didn't send it, of course, I copied it out and pasted it in the folder of my notes where I put all my rage venting.

And then I thought.

Huh, it's been a little while since I did that. And I checked the time and dates on my previous notes. The last one was a few days before I started testosterone.

And scrolling back, I noticed that they were *constant* at least one a week for *years* I used to get so angry that I would get the serious urge to say cruel hurtful things to or about people I cared about on a near-daily basis. I didn't realize how big of a problem it was until all of a sudden I hadn't gotten that angry in Eleven Months. Nearly a YEAR.

And then I realized in my rush to get out the door in the morning, I hadn't taken my T shot. My testosterone was the lowest it's been since August.

All of a sudden, I had demonstrable proof that testosterone really did make me less angry. That all that "you may not think you're any angrier but you are" was bullshit.

'aspec but I still love my friends!' FP doesn't want friends

'aspec but I still feel love!' FP doesn't feel love

'aspec but I still feel empathy!' FP has a very low empathy

'aspec but I'm very affectionate!' FP hates hugs and any other form of affection

'aspec but I still like watching romance/power of friendship/etc' not FP, they hate watching that

FP being very morally grey at times is probably also not something everyone would like either

(FP is a robot too, that one is fair if you don't like it, I'm the loveless person that likes robots is all)

But it was so important to me that this character existed. I'm so tired of aspecs always needing to do something to prove their worth, it never is about them just existing, they have to do something else to prove they are a good person. So here is FP, doing everything most people hate

Yes aspecs can feel love and have friends, obviously!! this is about the demonization of the opposite. We have so very few aspec characters that I think we just constantly throw each other under the bus cause we want to see more of every single part of the spectrum, and we are right to be mad, give us 1000 aspec characters. But we won't win if we throw each other under the bus and I do think characters like FP and also you know, real people, get a big amount of crap cause they are what way too many people see as 'bad representation' or 'bad aspecs'

no nuance, pick the continent you were in when you learnt the acronym (like if you went to school in asia and were taught pemdas, but now you live in europe, then pick asia because that’s where you learnt the acronym). if you didn’t learn either acronym sorry there aren’t enough poll options for you. feel free to reblog with your acronym/mneumonic/whatever.

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