oh boy

All of our food is gone !!

My boyfriend & I eating disorders have been actively causing us to under eat or to the point we don’t eat at all. We been only eating 1 meal a day to stretch out our food. Which is triggering tons of trauma we have centered around food. In 5 days I get food stamps but we can not go that long without any food in our system.

This “holiday” is extremely triggering for us. We would love to be able to eat with our chosen family .

Last night we made THE last of our food and I’m not sure what we are going to do about tonight. I know once I go without food for 1 day it unravels into a ridiculous amount of unhealthy eating habits such as binge eating or fasting. Which I’ve been fighting so strongly against. Food has been very expensive which is part of the reason why we have no food right now which is prying into my eating disorder.

I’m really hoping somebody has the means to redistribute/d0nate anything so I can order us food since major stores are closed today. If not we would have to go 5 DAYS without any food.

Any funds we receive will always & most certainly go towards us buying food, water and emergencies ONLY !! We appreciate all the love and support we will receive.

Thank you for taking the time out your holiday to read this. If you have the means to please help us.

Vmo: jmiami35

Capp: $ny21x

I made a zine about haunted houses!

You can pre-order a physical copy on Gumroad that will ship in the new year, or get a digital version.

“In the psychology of the modern, civilized human being, it is difficult to overstate the significance of the house.” (Kitty Horrorshow, Anatomy)

This is a zine about haunted houses, using multiple examples as case studies to explore the following question: what does it mean for a house to be haunted?

Okay imo every Sam fic that's in character should be OCD Sam simply because I see it in canon, like even ie moral scrupulosity.

This is by no means exhaustive especially in that some of the fics I like the most exploring Sam and OCD wouldn't necessarily be focused on it or tagged it, but Sam POV fics that well written. These ones are focus more on elaborating (or adding hcs) on his OCD though here!

A place where i am blinded by the light (but it's not right by @starlightswait (lovely writer) is about Sam in the fallout of the Gadreel possession. I really love it!

lightening in my head to be brought to the world by ad_castra (who also has some other really cool fics) just read today is SO good for OCD Sam that links in self harm and PTSD (so big triggers for self harm+intrusive thoughts). It is really an amazing fic!!

This fic (a magic trick) @theboykingscrown wrote me for my birthday with Sam stimming with card tricks! Which isn't necessarily OCD but often a grouped symptom and also I adore it. Their pinned also has their astounding fics.

This fic references OCD a few times, a Sam/Jess preseries fic on blood drinking (and bdsm so nsfw, not meaning to recommend minors), though check tags, same with this fic Nothing's Safe where Cas possesses Sam to heal him in the born again identity, though PTSD and hallucinations are a bigger focus there, it's got the tag.

Into The Black too is about Sam with OCD in season 7 (so also referencing other symptoms).

@grim-work has this fic that also features Sam and numbers and 6's which is something I really enjoy and have thought about a lot. Lovely writing!

Also check out this poem I wrote Salty At Injunction and @ocdsamwinchester 's one here.

I also have a lot of headcanons and drabbles and analyses in my OCD Sam tag!