oh, what's the use?

(guy whos scared of everything and feels guilty about everything) sorry i got scared and felt guilty

maybe it's just because i spend my time scrounging around libraries and itch.io and such but i'm often bewildered whenever people talk about everything becoming the same or death of art or everyone being afraid to Get Weird with It. i promise people are still out there getting weird with it. the hegemonic mainstream art remains hegemonic and mainstream like usual. counterculture remains counterculture. as usual. interesting and somewhat off-putting zines cost a little more but the cost of living is pretty high right now, and i don't particularly mind giving an independent artist a few more bucks for their work

i think i just get confused by anything that sounds like 'this countercultural, challenging, or otherwise disruptive artistic sensibility isn't present in the most popular or mainstream corporate media'. did we expect it to? why are we trying to buy clothes at the soup store

My deepest darkest fantasy is that I collapse on the street and I am rushed to the hospital. They perform a bunch of tests and find out I am severely deficient in some kind of vitamin. Then I start taking the vitamin and I become the happiest cleverest person alive because all my problems were caused by this one deficiency

my ability to be scared despite literally nothing happening knows no bounds

everyone should be transformed into a lump of clay & then lovingly reformed back into themselves every few years i think that would be so nice for everybody esp the touch deprived. also those w a lot of tension in their muscles would benefit

i want to be a sweet and friendly girl but there’s all this anxiety. and the horrors

im a grown woman i dont feel the childish need for acceptance that i craved in my youth anymore. shaking and gripping the sink

ive been saving up for an illustrious red onion

saw someone refer to not knowing how to keep track of your money as "girl math" ......why are we in this weird era of treating women like idiots but repackaging it to sound cute and quirky. We All Need To Stop

at this point i also take issue with those tweets/posts that are of the genre “girls were meant to sit in their bed with treats and do nothing all day” it was fun and #relatable maybe the first few times but it’s really just feeding into this weird mass objectification and dehumanization of women going on all over every social media platform now

barack obama can be bisexual. but harry styles must be straight

when you're a child and you stay up past your bedtime you get punished by your parents, when you're an adult and you stay up too late you just get punished by the ghosts and spirits and demons and such

At least I don't have a tumblr

the epic highs and tragic lows of literally just being in my head on a perfectly my normal day

sometimes you just gotta sit in your room and watch ghibli movies as you feel your heart overflowing with love for the little but overwhelmingly beautiful things this life can give us

I looove when food is in a bowl. Frequently plates are being brought out and I'm thinking this could've been a bowl meal but nobody gets it

insane how like. well idk. and of course. at the end of the day