Animus Seas

MOTHER

FUCKIN

HANUKKAH 

SEASON

me: 

me:

me: I SAID THIS IS REALLY NICE

brain: oh right. heres some dopamine for the bare minimum u basic ass bitch

Please reblog so other people can see.

A lot of times any box packed with a lot of stuff. Let’s say books and books piled on each other and these boxes are in your room. I liked to put my valuable things either near the bottom of these layers or on the side in the dark crevice that was left, and pack the boxes off to the side. Among everything else like other boxes of stuff it looks normal and even if someone looks they don’t often check every nook. Let’s say it’s extremely risky so you put it underneath all those things in the box. They won’t find it that way bc abusers number one trait is that they’re lazy in anything that doesn’t involve screwing someone up.

My best bet for hiding something was a place people didn’t often check or use, like a messy closet or a cabinet in the garage. I usually tried to keep it close to me through in a bag, so any place among many bags. Any place of yours where there are many many things, or tons of stuff packed into each other or piled around each other, so it’s not noticeable and it’s unremarkable to them. Like for example, my most prized papers/posters/art collages were pressed between multiple textbooks piled on my shelf or in the corner, or in a folder under many other real academic papers. I knew where I kept everything so it was ok.

If that’s not an option, then try your bra, or your glasses cases, any place where they’re unlikely to understand is important or check. A lot of times they’ll sift through whatever you have but they won’t check in depth so if that’s the case then hide it in something mundane with an added layer between it and surrounding suited paraphernalia to ensure protection and support the look.

If you need to hide writing, make sure your creative writing notebook is the same type as your regular ones. That way if they try to grab one, most likely it won’t be the important one. If you need to hide a sketchbook, get one that is hardcover and then put it with schoolbooks.

DELETE YOUR INTERNET SEARCH HISTORY.

Save files onto thumb drives. Take those drives with you everywhere.

Between the mattress and box spring

If your parents turn your bedroom inside out searching, try and find a place that no one touches that’s not in your room. Decorative China cabinets, empty top shelves, in empty suitcases, etc

Keep your space messy if you can get away with it. Not dirty-no food or empty containers-but cluttered. Is that pile of shit important, or just not put away yet? Who knows! Maybe it’s hiding something! Maybe it’s there so you can grab it as you go out the door! (Do dust though-don’t leave wear marks or fingerprints behind.) 

And be sure to take any food things out of their bigger package (say, individual snacks in their cellophane wrapper, instead of the whole box) to cut down on space, make them easier to separate into different hoards, and reduce trash. Trash will give you away sooner than any fucking thing else, I swear. 

I hid actual pamphlets of things to help me cope with living with abusers. But I put it in with other “self help” stuff that my abusers actually gave me. So when they eventually found it, I told them some counselor was handing them out and I just stuck it in there because I didn’t know what else to do with it. That was the difference between them just throwing that out and them going through my entire room and “accidentally” damaging or trashing things of mine that were of great value.

I would advise NEVER hiding anything in a spot that could possibly be construed as a hiding spot. I also second hiding stuff at school in your locker, or even finding cracks or crannies at school that nobody would ever check, to hide things. Try bathrooms.

For me, any of the traditional hiding spots would inevitably be found out and if they were obviously hiding spots, I would have extreme punishments for lying or hiding things.

If your parents don’t do phone checks, take lots of pictures. LOTS. esp if you have no room to hide imp. Docs or info.

Bookshelves are your friend

Any old items you know they never notice? Your friend.

Some people flip mattresses, so if that happens to you- poke a hole small enough for nothing to fall out but to put things through. Tie it up into something smaller that way if it gets flipped they won’t hear or know. I hid things in there for yrs.

Closets are your best friend, I hid my friend’s clothes or items they let me borrow (you how know abusive parents hate when anyone gives you anything at all) I hid clothes under my other clothes in the closet, things in the pockets, socks etc. above windows on top of curtains (kinda behind them depending on what you want to hide). Anything that gets forgotten about in the house is for you!!! On top of cabinets, in plants/fake plants.

-If you have to stash food, don’t buy food that will spoil quickly, needs to be in the cold or needs to be prepared. You don’t only want to live off of snacks however, so canned foods like beans, tuna, etc, are your friend. Same with pickled vegetables. Nuts and fruits can be great as well.

-If you need to be quiet and need to stash food, take things out of noisy wrappers and put them in containers if possible. Same with cans.

-If you either don’t have a phone or your abusers do phone checks, get a burner phone off of a flea market/second hand store, etc. It doesn’t need to be a good one, just one that works enough. If you’re lucky you can find a decent one for 20$ or so. You can use this phone to take picture proof and also to text people about your whereabouts and situations.

-If you can’t get a burner phone, but you have your own, take pictures of anything that could be proof, make another social media account, log out, send them to that account and delete the conversation.

Have your bed slightly away from the wall but only if it goes to thr ground so you have to move it to get the thing.

High up on shelves.

Under statutes.

In books.

In car if you own it snd only you drive it.

Anywhere no one goes.

Brain: No! We need more! We need more to handle this stress!

The system: But I think I can- 

Got the idea to do a banner with all of us. Forgot how many there were and now we’re dying. We finished the skeletons though so yay?

• depression 

• anxiety 

• eating disorder 

• self-harm

• ocd 

• bipolar 

• feelings of guilt and hopelessness 

• suicidal thoughts